who cries,
because it opens that mouth,
to laugh,
these throbbing sounds,
are pigs to my ears,
close your mouth and close your teeth,
because by this mouth,
only words pass, and
crazy phrases
shut your mouth, and
  open the mind,
  listen to the mind,
and not the mouth,
his mouth does not boast of anything,
of her nothing is of no use,
his mouth shut, is more useful to me,
that open to diffuse sounds of ****,
close your mouth and open your mind,
nothing strikes me,
his herds of phrases,
crazy
Close your mouth

I feel the weight lifting off of my shoulders
and your face fading ever so slightly out of my mind
It's been two weeks now since we were over
and a week since our last texts

"hey hru"
"I'm good now :) u?"

My friends made a 'get over him cake'
It had raspberry frosting
Your favorite berry

I'm not over you, ofc
but I'm almost there

Hi..don't waste your time Hi..
Take a look you have no time..
hmmm wonder why?
You felt the need to at least say hi..
See if you'd get a reply..
But you have no time..
Sharday says hmm wonder why?
Well I guess I'll reply with a bye.
Do you wonder why?
You have no time to say something deeper.
To truly reach her.
No time, no time.
A wasted Hi, hello left behind.
Shall I ignore this hi again this time..
The sender has no time, no time no.
He only left one word behind...
Or you just made time to send a greeting.
Should that get us to speaking..
Hello how are you.
you wait to hear I'm fine how are you.
These greeting never gets us no where its nothing new.
shall I just avoid this greeting too.
Admit you have no time, I'll admit it too.
Yet I'm attempting this to open
communication of sorts with you.
Long time it'll be before again I hear from you.
Hru.. no surprise if nothing comes through.

Notes from selinasharday rose 2019

Phone rings..Guurll.. hey sis!
HRU hello... todays crazy yo.
Girl sit down tell me, yes I know
I know the stress, its crazy today right..
yes, I knowa.. ..
Today just ain't the day..tell me bout it.
Lord let me just Pray,
I can not Adult today..
I'ma be actin like a child
throwin temper tantrums and it wont be mild.
Sis let me say this..
I can hear the stress in your voice,
The mood in your tone.
Like Hey Leave a sistah alone..
Seems like every thing came to drive ya insane.
Gurl I feel ya pain..
Now here's the thang..
You  can chose to vent it.. Come on now vent it..
I 'm hearing you..
..&^%#@%&
Nah your not threw there's some mo inside of you.
&^%$#@%^
Get it all out.
Yah that's right, I heard that, fo real, Oh The nerve, see now,
whattt's , Girl naw,, shut up.. ah hell no.. Say what, Oh no she/he didn't.
Wonder whats that all about,
SHOUT, get it all out. tell em..
Now here' u sum.."What eva's, "this isn't gone worry me's", "I don't have time for it" and  some "I'm done, I'm over its". Put on some  new fits.
Because we  gone drink a glass of.. In my own world Juice, or  sip some tea of Sleepy time I Got You Tea", And or  have some, My life is blessed with Peace Fruit slices...
Add some cheese and crackers of..I'm a Queen and In control snacks.
As we sit back and put our feet up, ready to brush ourselves off of all those wacks.
Ain't got time for that's..
Listening to some rhythmic melodies
Of its all about me's.
As The tunes fill the room. Gone get your rest on, hang up the phone.

selinasharday 6/2020