How do I write in a poem that I am S C R E A M N G How do I convey how f r u s t r a t e d I am How do I get you to know how o u i g c n s n f my mind is right now How do I explain my writings of a crumbling sanity as poetic licence It becomes easy when nobody knows your how much of concealed life you really have
My mother can't worry, She doesn't have such terrible thoughts
The bullets I try to use just ricochet around my skull blending my memories, rattling my thoughts. My personality has died with my will to live
i love you so dearly but you are dying me blue from the tips of my toes to the tears you make me cry i know you’re too clueless to understand the emotions of a hopeless romantic like me but i hope you can understand one day that i am doing this because i love you too much. for so long i never understood why people left the ones they loved “Why do such a silly thing to yourself?” I would ask the stars accompanying venus but now i understand that the silly thing would be to stay because as much as i love you i need to love me too. so for now i’ll sail my ship far away and maybe one day you’ll grow up as i did and love me as a love you. and it pains me to say this this pain is like no other i would rather take a bullet straight through my head but we all have to make sacrifices and so now i will take a bullet straight through my heart goodbye. ~ you know who you are. i love you too much to stay. i hope you can forgive me but for now let me forgive myself.~
Take care of me, Be there for me. Never discourage me, Love me unconditionally. You're supposed to be my mother. But you treat me like I'm nothing. I'm sick of your constant disrespect, The loss of love in your eyes that makes me want to cry, It's itching inside of the back of my mind. And someday I'll say goodbye to you, You won't want me to, But you can't make me stay. You're not my mom. But until then, I'll be walking in the rain.
When will we say goodbye* The thought brings tears to my eyes. I look down at the top of my now soaked shoes. It's raining outside, and I'm thinking of you. My heart can't stress enough the love I once felt, But now I have to go prepare for this drought. It'll be tough but I'll pull through, I can only hope that you will too.
Today is the day I'll go down in the calendar, It's the day of my surrender. The day I wave my little white flag, the day I give my life back, the day I kneel down to the enemy asking them to put an end to me. I surrender, I surrender.
You didn’t even call... I told on Monday how I’d only had a couple days till I was gone. But that wasn’t enough for you I’d have to be dying in order for you to call Little do you know I am, it’s why I must leave this place that is killing me slowly. But I still have hope A dream You’ll be standing there at the end of the aisle right before I board. I will drop my bags and run as fast as I can into you You’ll be the excuse I’ve been looking for to stay But the reality is You’re the excuse that makes me have to leave.