Baby, if you died tomorrow
I'd get our favorite line
from our favorite song
printed on my back, in your hand
The song you and I danced to
The one where the voice
doesn't match the man,
“It was in love I was created,
and in love is how I hope I die.”
It'd make me cry, everyday
because you did die
But I know you're so selfless
You'd only wish better for me
Now you, the one with the big hair and tiny body
The one who became my first high school friend.
For someone so blunt and honest
I'd never imagine you'd be so sweet.
So if you dies tomorrow
I'd put the twin strawberries
on the inside of my wrist
The ones you sketched on my birthday card
You wrote the two paged, double sided letter tucked inside
I still read it when I feel sad.
It reminds me how incredibly loved I am
and how just plain incredible you are.
You, with the short hair and round glasses
the one with a small voice and big, contagious laughter.
Your performances make my week
And you've made such a big bang in my life
In ways you can never see.
You are a firecracker
And though you may be blind to your own light
That is what I see in you.
You'd be a firework
Exploding on the back of my neck
It'd be more than every color in the rainbow
Because I can't associate just one with you
It's be messy and wouldn't go with any of my clothes
It's be hidden when my short hair grew shaggy
But it'd be undoubtedly you.
You, with the new golden hair
but the always golden insides
I think you, and I think perfect
I think smiles and sunshine and songs
I think all that is good.
So to think you ever want,
ever need, ever hurt
You hardly ever let that side show
but when you do
Well, even those moments are beautiful.
I don't know what I'd get for you
Maybe the first poem you wrote for me
The one with flowers draw in the background
- I'm still amazed, to this day, you knew I liked calla lilies
Maybe I'd get the last poem you wrote me
Both put a smile on my face
and I think both apply to you too.
You, when I think of you, I think cool moves at N-trip
I think always knowing what to say
I think beautiful straight hair, bright blue eyes
and completely making my day.
I think of beat box rapping
And your bubbly presence
For you, there is no word picture or phrase
That can sum you up better than your name
I've never seen it spelled that way
And it shows just how amazingly unique you are.
You; when I think of the tattoo I'd get for you
I think of the paper crane you gave me for my birthday,
Now, I know it was last minute
but I'm glad you didn't buy anything.
Paper, to me, is just a blank canvas
I can't wait to write on.
But when you fold it up the way you do,
It reminds me how complicated things are
- Things like you.
Like that crane,
I haven't gotten the opportunity to bend back those folds
Get to know those creases and cracks
But now I'm going to take the chance
That I may never see that bird in the same light again.
Now brother, I don't want to go into detail about your death
Life without our bicker and banter is one I don't want to imagine.
And if you died, I'd always regret not telling you
I love you in ways you cannot fathom.
I don't want to think of you dying,
let alone the tattoo I'd get for you...
Here it goes;
I've thought of things that remind me of you
Baseball bats you drop on your iPod
Hockey sticks who's height you've finally caught up to
But none of those things show you
I think of you and your crazy curly hair
Your goofy ghetto caps
Your thin toothpick frame
and your fast-paced gangster rap
But you can't sum those things up
In song lyrics and pictures.
So as selfish as this sounds,
I'd want you to get the tattoo
I'd want you to be the one with a book on your back
or a pen on your wrist,
I'd want you to be out there and living each day to the fullest
Live each day that I'd miss.
But if you did die tomorrow,
I'd have to drag myself to that parlor
Pick a photo or phrase
Made to represent you
And you have to understand, this isn't something I'd normally do
Tattoos are permanent; unforgettable.
The ink fades and they get ugly as you age
They probably hurt like hell to get and only worse to remove.
But if you died tomorrow.
any of you,
I'd get those tattoos.