I'm not that girl, who smiles. I'm not that girl who has a cute laugh. I'm not that girl who every guy wants as a girlfriend. I'm not that girl.
I'm not that girl, who can forget easily. I'm not that girl, who can hold grudges. I'm not that girl, who has her own people. I'm not that girl.
I'm not that girl, who has popularity. I'm not that girl, who everyone wants in their life. I'm not that girl, who needs fame over friends. I'm not that girl.
I am that girl, who'll go out of her way to make you smile. I am that girl, who laughs with you but never at you. I am that girl, who has eyes only for that one special guy. I am that girl.
I am that girl, who won't forget but will forgive. I am that girl, who can never HATE anyone. I am that girl, who pretends to love her life to not let anyone worry. Cz I am that girl.
I am that girl, who fakes a smile. I am that girl, who cares below her façade. I am that girl, who never feels enough. I am that girl.
I am that girl, who's actually very silent. I am that girl, who's strength is slowly fading. I am that girl, who slowly getting tired. I am that girl.
I am that girl, who cries herself to sleep. I am that girl, who's doesn't go to the balcony just to see the beautiful sight. I am that girl, who's strength is slowly fading. I am that girl.
You see that girl, who's rude. You see that girl, who can never say the right things. You see that girl, who's mean. You see that girl, who doesn't give a **** about others. You see that girl, who's always in the wrong place. You see that girl, who's annoying as hell. You see that girl, who's always loud. You see that girl, who's extremely bulk You see that girl, who's never tired. You see that girl, who's always smiling. You see that girl, who never cries. You see that girl, who's talking someone against self-harm. You see that girl, that's forever strong. You only see that girl.
To all those "not girls" out there, you're perfect. Your body isn't bloated, it's full of health. Your eyes aren't dull, they've won battles others can't even dream about. So just sit tight for a little while longer, because your world's about to change baby ♥
The blaze took the house with great speed, Those inside at once had fleed, But all was not as it appeared, For when at last the smoke had cleared, Among the husk of the home The children discovered they were alone.
They dashed about at a frantic pace, Looking around for the smallest trace, Fearing the worst was yet to pass, One last glance the children cast, It was then they noticed her cloth of blue, And the fate of their mother they finally knew.
Running to where their mother laid, They knew a farewell they'd have to bade, Knowing that they couldn't stay For their only relative live far away, When their mother was put to rest at last Julie knew she had to push them past.
Leaving the ashes of their past behind, Hoping a new home they would find, Julie did for her sisters all she could, Knowing that reliving the past would do no good. And so at last Julie and sisters journey began To reach their home was the only plan.
When the sky turned black as night, Julie knew something was not quite right, Stopping their ride Julie and Linda can tell That something must not be going well, As they returned they were alarmed to see Their sister Clotild drowning in the sea.
Julie at once knew what to do, Into the water at once she flew, Clotild's head went slowly down below, The fate of her sister Linda afraid to know, But when Julie came to the surface at last Seeing Clotild, Linda knew the danger had passed.
"Clotild, what were you thinking?" they wished to know, Clotild answered simply saying she was hot and wished to go, To cool her feet with the fresh feel of the sea At the time not seeing where the fault could be, Please don't do that again, they'd scold, For had they not known, a different story would of been told.
Racing to where the smoke had led, Each took in the scene with dread, As flames spread across the little town Chaos had evidently ensued all around, Julie looked about the destroyed land, Knowing what it was like to see the damage firsthand.
What Julie saw then made her blood go cold, For upon a burning threshold A girl lay unconscious in need of aid, Julie knew if she stayed Or if she delayed- A heavy price the girl would of paid.
Julie ran as fast as she ever had before, Diving last minute towards the floor, Dragging the girl safely away, The girl opened her eyes as if to say, She felt she was going to be okay, Julie couldn't imagine how she'd come to be alone, Thankfully, evidence of life had clearly shown.
Many had seen what had transpired, The courage of Julie they had all admired, But when asked why she put herself in harm's way, She said, I couldn't very well let her stay, Julie then took her to where Linda and Clotild stood Knowing that she'd done all that she could.
It was clear that the girl had no home, As tattered clothes had clearly shown, Julie realized that there was one thing she could do, Knowing that the girl's options were few, She decided to offer her a chance to restart, For with them she'd always be a part.
Frightened she was when she finally awoke, Noticing in gentle tones the sisters spoke, What happened? They wished to know, Tears at once began to flow, They listened to the tale she wished to be told, As the story of Chloe began to unfold.
I'm an only child, I only had my mom and dad, In fact they were the only family that I had, I had to do homeschooling for we were too poor, Yet, even with that I'd been happy as none before, Then today fire took my home and the next I'd known I was fighting for life on my own.
Julie didn't know what to say, Yet she noticed even now Chloe seemed to be okay, As if she'd accepted what had passed, Hoping her parents would feel peace at last, Linda and Clotild felt like they could relate, It seemed as if tragedy was the common trait.
As they continued on their way, Julie and her sister's story they relay, Finishing with when they had met, There was something Chloe couldn't forget, She looked at Julie asking,"Why help me?" For the reasoning she did not see.
Julie looked at her kindly and without hesitation said, If I didn't move I knew you'd be dead, I knew I couldn't leave you there to die Hopeless though it seemed at the time I had to try, I took a emergency class a few weeks ago you see, And the first thing I was taught was never to flee.
The spell of silence was suddenly shattered, When Julie noticed a girl pale and battered, Who suddenly collapsed in a heap As if she'd fallen fast asleep, Julie went at once to her side, Sweat thick on her brow she spied.
They knew something had to be done, Already the setting of the sun had begun, Julie drove as fast as she could, And into view a little town stood, Spotting a doctor's office the girls go, Hoping the illness the doctor will know.
Slowly the girl began to groan, Opening her eyes confusion shown, Seeing her awake Chloe asked her name, Instead of an answer a blank look came, The doctor took the girl into another room Returning a few moments later with a look of gloom.
"Please, she said gesturing to some seats, With a critical look she asked,"How'd you meet?" We were driving along when we saw her in the road, The girls said as their concern clearly showed, The girl sat in quiet destress as the doctor stressed This poor child's memory is quite a mess.
"What could you possibly mean?" Julie asked at last, The doctor answered as a pitiful glance she cast, She doesn't know who she is or where she's from, Linda asked," Then for her.....what is to come?" She will have to go into foster care I'm afraid, Yet as she said that the girl had swayed.
Julie was at her side rather quickly, As the girl appeared even more sickly, Against Julie the girl then went, As if to show her energy was clearly spent, Julie and Linda laid her in a bed, Knowing she heard all that was said.
The next day when the first ray of sun appeared, The girl's condition seemed to have cleared, She said to the doctor as if to get her to see, I think those girls are my only family, Julie heard what she said wondering where this would lead For it appeared as if she planted a seed.
The doctor went to the girls asking if this was true, "Yes, was the answer that Julie threw, As the doctor could not prove them wrong, The girl was allowed to come along, Leaving the little town behind, All appeared to have recent events on mind.
Finally Julie asked the girl as she wished to understand, What was it that made it so she lied to change the plan, The girl said at last, I felt a bit safer with you, And I'm not saying that the doctor wouldn't know what to do, But you helped me , even though you didn't know me at all, I didn't want to be alone, she said appearing small .
They looked at the girl in a kind way, At first not knowing what to say, Finally, Linda asked if she remembered her name, The girl responded with much disdain, I'm afraid no name comes to mind, And I want to leave my past behind.
It's time I start again she proclaimed, As things can never be the same, I think we should start with who I am, So you can call me and all can understand, How do you like Lucy as a name? I think that will do nicely as it is simple and plain.
And Lucy was what the girl was to be known, As if to show how she felt, relief was what had shown, Lucy then listened to their adventure, Ending with when they'd met her, Lucy looked at Julie in a new light, Saying, "now I know my decision was right."
When the day had come to an end , A night under the stars the girls did spend, Do you ever think about that day ? Asked Clotild Her voice was sadness filled, Julie and Linda glanced at her and with pity said, Clotild we've got to move ahead.
Clotild said nothing and proceeded to bed, As if to shut out her sister's presence instead, The next day away from her sisters Clotild did stay, And not one word did she say, They came at last to a city to see, And angry mob corner a girl while she looked back defiantly.
The girls went at once to the scene, So the situation they could glean, Linda asked what they were doing, The mob answered saying, a thief is who we're pursuing, Linda got in front of the girl asking, "what has she stolen?" A shop owner pointed saying, it's in the bag she's pullin.
Linda took the bag and looked inside, In which many foods did reside, The group glanced at the girl asking the cost, Paying for the items they had lost, As the mob slowly trickled away – the girls asked why she didn't pay .
The girl hung her head Shamed, you can't blame me she claimed, at first they had not caught on, it was then that a girl came along , she doesn't have any Home, she's with me and we're on our own.
My name is Nancy and this is Carol she said, saying this as if on thin Ice they did tread, Julie stepped forward and said then, We won't hurt you, we are friends, Linda went to them with the bag knowing that it was all they had.
Once the bag was in their possession, Nancy said as her weariness began to lessen, "Thank you for all that you did," and with that the farewell they bid later that night where the girls stayed, an unexpected visit Nancy and Carol paid.
Hey , Chloe said is everything okay? Carol answered saying we decided not to stay, the girls looked at each other asking where they go, as all of them now wish to know , Nancy looked at the girls with hopeful pleasure, Hoping to find a life that was better.
We were wondering if we could join you guys and find out where our future lies, Come and join us, Lucy said to them, for now they only saw friends, it was then their story they began to tell, and at once silence fell.
We are sisters you see, For so long we'd no where to be, Believe it or not we had a home, Better than any have ever known, For a minute not a word was said, Carol continued with a look of dread.
"We were well off because of our parents occupations, The girls listened with much anticipation, My mom was a doctor and dad was a lawyer you see, That's why we were such a wealthy family, One day, said Nancy picking up the story, that changed Dad came and with mom words were exchanged.
Apparently, dad was being sued, For as far as his client viewed, Dad hadn't done all that he could, Therefore to his client he was no good, I don't know how much they took, But the nerves of our parents it clearly shook.
Soon word spread throughout our town, And eventually people stopped coming to him all around, Soon mom had to pay for all of bills on her own, And the stress of it had clearly shown, One day our parents argued whether or not to send us away, Carol and I didn't bother to stay.
The girls looked at them with dismay, Wishing there was something they could say, Nancy continued saying, the next day we packed our bags, As she said this her shoulders sagged, We knew then that we'd never see our home again, I thought Carol and I eventually mend.
We ran away from every place we were sent, Even though no unkindness any family meant, Since that time we've been alone with nowhere to go, Sighing, Nancy said, now our story you know, Julie put her hand reassuringly on Nancy's shoulder, Thanks for letting us know, she had told her.
What about you? The two sisters wish to be told , So to the sisters the story did unfold, Nancy and Carol stared at Julie with the look of awe, As if realizing only now who it was that they saw, Is this really true? They asked as if yet to believe, It's true, they said as if to show they didn't deceive.
"We've heard of you! Carol said suddenly, As if the memories of those events surfaced finally, You were on the news a few days ago, She looked at Nancy as if she'd know, Yes, Nancy slowly said as if the story began to return, Julie was surprised at what the news people had learned.
I just helped those who I thought I could, Just like I think anyone should, Carol and Nancy smiled at Julie as if happy to know, To a new home with Julie they would go, Several weeks had passed since their journey began, And out of Europe they were as they planned.
Six days later in New York they came, And though tired they were happy to be on land all the same, Through the vast city the girls drove, Right down New York's main roads, Throughout the day many had noticed the girls go, As recognition slowly began to grow.
Comments circled about them regularly, "Can't we be left alone!", Clotild said sullenly, Linda and Julie glanced at Clotild momentarily, She was worse then they thought, they noticed worryingly, They went to a park and set up camp for the night, Somewhere that was out of sight.
The glow of the moon lit up their camp in soft light, Julie and Linda had a feeling that Clotild wasn't alright, She hardly paid them any heed, And when they approached she'd recede, They wished they could make her feel better, But she was just too bitter.
The next day the girls went through to Nebraska's state, Clotild what's wrong? Chloe asked seeing a look of hate, "I'm fine!" Clotild said violently, The girls stared at her silently, It was then that Linda and Chloe swapped, As the others continued to look at Clotild shocked.
A village came out of the blue, Those in the village had looked at them as if the girls they knew, As they set up camp villagers watched in awe Not believing who it was that they saw, A girl said, " mommy it's the girl from tv, The mother glanced in their direction saying-it is indeed.
Looking in their direction Julie sees, Sheltered in the shade of the shops a girl looked on miserably, Julie went at once to her to see what was wrong, All at once had withdrawn, As the girl noticed and began to retreat, Julie shouted wait! Catching up Julie noticed that she was pale and under weight.
Are you okay? Lucy asked then, As a cut Julie did tend, Linda went and got her food and drink, And looking at the girl Julie began to think, Looking at the girl seeing the bleeding, Julie asked her what was wrong and she said," I was fleeing."
Julie glanced at the others with concern, Trouble at once they began to discern, Julie took the girl into her tent, The other girls to guard the tent they went, An hour later Julie came out at last, How bad is it? They asked noticing the look she cast.
Her name is Rose and she's frightened and has good reason, Julie said this her voice began to lessen, Last night her parents were robbed and killed, She witnessed it Julie said her voice with concern filled, After a minute she continued, apparently the robber knew, She ran because she didn't know what to do.
She's still in shock unfortunately, Since no one's caught him he's still at large you see, She no longer has a home, She's afraid and she's on her own, We can't leave her alone with that man on the run, Okay we'll leave tomorrow at the rising of the sun.
The next day at first light the girls left the village behind, Each one with the thought of home on their mind, The sky was crystal clear the air crisp and sweet, For a minute a pair of eyes Julie did meet, It was a figure of a boy her age she saw then, She did not see him again.
For the rest of the day Julie's attention seemed to stray, To that boy that didn't stay, Who was it who she had seen? Was it an illusion or a dream? As she watched the smoke from their fire burn into the night, Something went across Julie's sight in flight.
Julie got up and said,"whose out there?" As this reaction seemed quite fair, It was then a boy had appeared as a silhouette in the night, Julie went up to him before he went out of sight, Why are you following us? she asked her voice tight, Looking at him Julie can tell something's not right.
Hello Julie, I've come to warn you, So when the time comes you'll know what to do, There is one among you you call your friend, That person you'll lose in the end, Julie glaring said, " What do you mean then?" The boy said," the one you call a friend will betray you in the end
Beware he said on and on, Then as suddenly as he appeared he was gone, Julie looked at the place where the girls laid, Suddenly feeling very afraid, She didn't know why for she thought it couldn't be true, So to bed she went and thoughts of that night flew.
The next day into Colorado they appeared, For all the girls weariness at last had cleared, As each knew their journey was about to end, And soon all of them would have a home again, Keeping that in mind, the girls look until a clearing they find Where a cabin lay with trees behind.
The group went to work setting up camp, As the air turned cool and damp, The girls sat to eat dinner at 6:00 that night, Finishing they feel tired and Julie knows something isn't right, Because try as they did to stay awake, Julie knew a drug was placed in something they ate or drank.
As Julie was the last to go down, The closing of a door was her last sound, When she woke at last around a room a glance was thrown, As this room she had not known, Wondering where you are? Asked Clotild in a mocking tone, Julie looked at her as confusion shown.
Clotild what.....Julie stopped as understanding grew, Julie felt as if she'd been hit in the face as she said,"It's you!" "Why? Julie asked, what have any of us done to deserve this?" Looking at the others who she originally missed, Clotild glared as she said, " you don't care or know To hear Julie this and Julie that wherever you go.
Yet even with that- before any of this began, Instead of taking command, You left mom in that fire to die, And you didn't even bother to try! So yes Julie, it was me Because I had every right to be.
"Clotild, how could I have known this would of occurred?" Yet even as she said this, she knew she wasn't heard, Goodbye Julie, said Clotild as she stood, "Clotild, Julie said realizing it'd do no good, Julie tried to stand only to find her hands and feet tied, Clotild ran out the door as the binds she tried.
When Julie freed herself to the door she went, Without luck opening the door her energy she spent, The others finally woke with a groan, All went to Julie as she sat alone, Linda came to her asking, Where are we? And where is Clotild? For it was her they didn't see.
As they looked at Julie they knew something was wrong, For she had an expression that didn't belong, Julie told what happened and the girls began to dispute, "It's true, said Julie at last , an answer they couldn't refute, "What are we gonna do? What are we gonna do? The answer of which nobody knew.
The door was locked from the outside, And yet no matter how hard they tried, The door had stayed in it's place, It seemed like too much for the girls to face, When all seemed lost and hopeless then, The door opened revealing only a friend.
The boy Julie had met came at once to her side, As a look of depression on her face he spied, "Who are you? asked Rose suspicion clear in her voice, I'm a friend and I'm here to help, he said by choice, "How did you find us?" asked Julie her annoyance plain, "I followed your sister as she took you away", he claimed.
We might as well leave as there is no reason to stay, "Be wary, your sister intends to make you pay, What on earth could you mean? asked Linda upset, Wondering how much worse things could possibly get, But again as suddenly as he had come to their aid, He vanished as if to show they were too much delayed.
Their journey home they still went, To each other their strength they lent, Not one word had anyone said, For due to recent events their hearts were filled with lead, Finally a town came into sight, As they came they noticed a girl in flight.
From trouble the girl ran, Behind her as she went she scanned, Glancing to where her eyes lead, The group at once to guard the girl they sped, For a few thieves at once took chase, Stop! Julie said intent on putting them in their place.
They stopped asking, And why would we listen to you? At once a fist Julie threw and away they flew, At last the girl the group had found, Julie went to her saying, "they're gone, no one's around." The girl glanced shyly about, Sure it was now safe she then came out.
"Why bother to help me when you didn't know me at all?" With them after me, I don't see why on you responsibility'd fall, They had no right to take from you, And I knew there was something I could do, The girl said, I don't even have a home, I was going to try and find a life of my own.
Would you like to come with us? asked Rose, Really...yes please the girl said as the door on her past closed, What is your name? asked Rose facing their new friend, Sky, said the girl as a note of confidence she did send, Where you heading? asked Sky as they left the town behind Linda said, we're hoping our dad we'll find.
Sky asked confused, what could you mean? So the girls explained how their journey came into being, Sky was so amazed that for a minute she could only say, Julie there's no way They looked at her and Lucy said, it's true, And her admiration of Julie quickly grew.
Sky then said, I am sorry that your sister lost her way, For the wound was still fresh and twas a heavy price to pay, Thank you, Julie said to break the ice, For silence had latched on as a vice, At long last to their father's house they came, Realizing to each girl life wouldn't be the same.
Knocking on the door as anticipation did build, Throughout Julie's being fear had filled, For Clotild's eyes Julie had met, A look Clotild sent as if to say Julie's actions she'd regret, At once Clotild took flight- Quickly vanishing from Julie's sight.
"We need to get inside now, Julie said urgently, The girls glanced at Julie not seeing what the trouble could be, Julie? Asked Linda with growing concern, Seeing what she could learn, She's here, was all Julie had said, The girls heard and looked around with dread.
The door opened to show a man with a serious look, Asking angrily," where is the money that you took? Your money was stolen? Was it by a girl with blond hair? The man looked annoyed saying yes as if he'd despaired, We'll get it back, Julie said taking off with speed, To the place where Clotild had fleed.
Clotild was hiding in a group of trees in view of all, "Clotild, Julie's voice did call, Don't make this harder than it needs to be, Julie ran into the area as the threat she didn't see, Running at Julie blind with rage a knife she drew, Yet as the knife was ****** in Julie it didn't go to.
For right as it came it was Rose who took the blow, And slowly to the ground she did go, Dropping the knife Clotild ran, As she noticed the failure of her plan, "Rose, Julie said as she sank into her arms weakly, Her breath came rather futility.
Rose weakly noticed all the girls had gathered around, They watched shocked and no one made a sound, Julie asked her voice sad "Why did you jump in front of me?" Rose smiling said, Julie you taught us all what we should be, Wincing she said, I didn't want my friend to die, So futile though it appeared at the time, I knew I had to try.
Rose had tears in her eyes,You gave more than I ever dream of, Julie cried as Rose went to be with the ones she loved, After everything Rose had been through, Julie felt peace for she knew At last her wish came true, At once Clotild Julie went to pursue.
But Julie didn't have to go long, Seeing Clotild's hands tied Julie's eyes were drawn, For next her a boy stood tall, Seeing Julie a serious look did fall, The money taken to their dad they returned, Julie then to her dad she turned.
Do I know you? Her dad asked looking at her hard, Suddenly appearing on guard, "Dad, It's me Julie, she said as her voice cracked, "Julie, is it really you? Her dad said as to react, Why are you here? And why are these girls with you? So introducing the girls, Julie explained what they'd been through.
For a while, Joe hung his head in shame, Your mother's dead? As if he was to blame, "It's not your fault!"Julie said with conviction, "Yes it is, he said looking stricken, I was a cop and I promised our plan wouldn't change, For a time it worked until...as he said this he aged.
What? Julie said wanting to understand, Joe didn't meet her eyes, my job kinda took command, I missed our anniversary and your birthday, After a time your mother said she couldn't stay, That was the last I'd heard from her unfortunately, For years you girls were all I wanted to see.
"Dad, we can be a family again, Linda said jumping in hoping strength she'd lend, Joe looked up with a sad look in his eyes, But why would Clotild blame us for your mother's demise? Julie said, She's broken and just looking for someone to blame, I'm sad to say, she is not at all happy we came.
Joe looked at his girls and said, you truly wish to live with me? Wondering where the reasoning could be, Yes, said Julie I promised these girls a chance to restart, I told them with us they'd always be a part, Then yes, you can come and live with me here, Hearing the girls did cheer.
Turning to the boy Julie smiled back, You like me, she said as if it were fact, What makes you think that? the boy asked in a mocking tone, Looking up Julie noticed a smile had shown, So why then did you come to our aid? Because to the those girls survival a huge part you played.
So who are you? Julie asked then, A tone of curiosity she did send, My name is john if you really wish to know, And as of now I don't intend to ever go, Leading John into her home A happy ending the girls at last had known.
Until we meet again - I have 2 words and they're The End
This is the first epic poem I've ever written. It's based on a story I wrote as a kid.
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Yeah, Girl! My heart's goin' to ruin,
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Yeah, Girl You shine and you're the one, Yeah, Girl The way you dress-up like the Sun? -turn heads of all the Fellas
Did you ever think that I'm gonna be your boy tonight? Yeah, Girl
shhhh... Yeah, Girl!
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If you wanna know if I wanna go, -make you mine?
shhhh... Yeah, Girl!
Yeah, Girl My heart's goin' to ruin,
Yeah, Girl I'm acting like I'm cool and... You're making it hard, -I'm wishing my arms Were wrapping you up tight.
Yeah, Girl You shine and you're the one,
Yeah, Girl The way you dress-up like the Sun,
-Ain't thinking about it, come on don't doubt it, Yeah, Girl
And if you wanna know if I'm gonna be your boy tonight? shhhh... Yeah, Girl!
Yeah, Girl Come and take a little ride with me Yeah, Girl I'm gonna spend a little time with you Yeah, Girl I'm going to hold you like you're mine, and uh oh, oh, oh... Yeah, Girl I'm gonna bring the stars down for you Yeah, Girl You know you make the Sun jealous Yeah, Girl Turning heads of all the Fellas, Yeah, Girl
And if you wanna know if I'm gonna be your boy tonight?
shhhh... Yeah, Girl!
Yeah, Girl I'm acting like I'm chilling, You're making it hard, -I'm wishing my arms Are wrapping you up tight. Yeah, Girl
Yeah, Girl You shine and you're the One,
Yeah, Girl The way you dress-up like the Sun,
-Ain't thinking about it, come on don't doubt it, Yeah, Girl
And if you wanna know if I'm gonna be your boy tonight?
shhhh... Yeah, Girl! Yeah, Girl! Yeah, Girl!
Yeah, Girl Come and take a little ride with me Yeah, Girl I'm gonna spend a little time with you Yeah, Girl I'm going to hold you like you're mine, and uh Yeah, Girl I'm gonna bring the stars down for yah! Yeah, Girl You know you make the Sun jealous Yeah, Girl Turning heads of all these Fellas, Yeah, Girl!
In tribute to KELSI Ballerini's Yeah Boy. SSTOP.. I know I am awesome..stop calling me on that 93 number.
i just remembered when it all began to fall apart i was in mid-thirties weary of taking advantage of women i wanted to change grow become better person more compassionate find loving respectful relationship maybe marriage i knew i needed to step away stop
chicago 1985 Odysseus is a stranger to himself living someone else’s life does he really want what Mom Dad Chris want? is he lying to everyone else or himself? he snorts another line of ******* moves on to next girl in dizzy way he is having time of his life so much occasion to waste doors to open slam rooms to pass through “In the room the women come and go, talking of Michelangelo, and time yet for a hundred indecisions, and for a hundred visions and revisions” thank you t.s. elliott his ****** liaisons carry on from several weeks to several months begin with him adoring some girl or she adoring him little fires that burn themselves out for his part infidelity is rarely in question instead typically he or she feels let down by some personal response or character trait and simply stops calling in actuality no girl ever bothers to stick around they follow his lead and evaporate his mind draws a blank he wonders what do girls want? Deep inside he knows nothing in life is greater than the love of a woman he would have liked all those girls to be just one girl but she is missing where is she? occasionally he will run into one of his ex-lovers on street she wears an expression that hints why didn’t you phone me back? why did you stop calling? he suspects she is playing victim in self-satisfying charade in fact Odysseus crosses into new territory it is difficult to go back he hones his edge no longer is he wonder-stuck child possessed by curiosity for girls he requires **** and kink longer buildups then urgent bursts of effort drawn out climaxes nameless girl wearing tight jeans cowboy boots braids whom he meets in drake hotel elevator pushes stop button she ***** him off he has **** *** with tan-skinned french-canadian female tourist in telephone booth on north avenue gorgeous longhaired creole girl from new orleans ***** him on fire escape stairs **** *** with skinny punk girl in dark alley dutch foreign exchange student gives him ******* between parked cars on clark street weird awkward *** with goth girl in graveyard ****** by older blond woman who positioning herself underneath table in ritzy restaurant he has *** with chatty college sorority girl in jet lavatory he goes down on nerd girl wearing thick glasses in criticism section of depaul’s library he gets ****** ****** by perfect stranger in lake michigan each evening before he goes out prowling he looks in mirror wonders what strange female he will have *** with tonight it always surprises him what a person might not admit to or accept but allow or give in to if the right moment or if the right person is there not that he is particularly the right person rather he stumbles onto an astonishing streak there is the paris/milantokyo fashion model with stylish french haircut who possesses astonishing beauty perfect ***** and haughty temper after night of too many ***** martinis and ******* she announces “you and your friends are going nowhere you’re all second-rate artist losers! and your cousin and his group are obnoxious *******” she flips him the finger then shoves him he shoves back resulting in dual arrests and domestic violence charges there is the tall blond stripper who totally fulfills his ****** desires once she lets him insert garden hose up her **** laughs uproariously as stream of water shoots out on another occasion she requests he *** in her *** he begins to believe he will marry her she insists she is too low class for his family one night she drunkenly hurls champagne bottle gives him black eye drives away crashes her car there is blue-eyed sweetheart with divine ****** loving touch who after months of sleeping with Odysseus confesses she is ******* some other guy and swears she will be faithful in the future she begs for his forgiveness as he loses it pushes her out door throwing her clothes after her one girl lights candles gives him full body massage ******* another girl holds him tight cries pushes him away one girl writes confessions with permanent markers on walls of closet another girl slaps him yells why? why why why! one girl runs to toilet pukes passes out on floor another girl sits up all night talking teasing never relieving him another girl falls asleep snores while he is in conversation one girl makes fun of small left ******* later gossips to her girlfriends he meets girl who will do anything except allow him to enter her ****** he meets girl who is professional escort she offers to do him for free she has lots of toys videos he declines they mess around she gets him off with ******* he meets girl whose ***** hair grows to mid-thigh she incessantly calls for her dog Bertram! he meets girl who shivers moans furiously cries laughs when he climaxes he meets girl with self-inflicted scars on arms legs who only wants it up her **** he meets girl who likes gagging deep-******* him to skull-**** her harder the better he meets girl whose ******* are so fierce she loses complete control drenching him sheets with her fluids excrement he meets girl who wants ******* squeezed so tightly he fears he will draw blood he meets girl who likes to talk ***** slaps his face as he is reaching ****** he meets girl with gargantuan ***** ******* as large as thumb she gurgles hot breaths later tries to steal string of beads he meets girl who enjoys lactating on his thighs while she gives him head he meets girl who knows how to contract vaginal muscles so tightly all he does is sustain ******* inside her in order to reach ****** he meets girl who pees tiny squirts while he penetrates her **** she laughs wildly he meets girl with furry mound who requests he **** on her as she masturbates he declines she reproaches him accusing you’re not nearly as freethinking as you pretend to be in fact you’re full of ****! he meets girl who wants him to act out **** they struggle he meets girl who desires to be ******* whipped he is not into inflicting pain he meets large strong girl who forces him he never tells anyone about incident he becomes mindful many females are more depraved than him women remain puzzle to Odysseus he is repeatedly astounded shocked can never predict about girl what her ******* ****** will look like whether she has eager *** or what are her secret desires he is explorer women are vast mystery he wonders are females as sexually driven as males? are they as vulnerable? is their **** like tiny *****? he speculates if completely unknown attractive woman walks up to any average man grabs his crotch many possibly most men will willingly allow it are women that weak? more than anything what most excites Odysseus is female lust handjobs are test of adequacy distinguishing character having masturbated thousands of times he thrills in having girl do it he delights in watching her arousal just staring at his ******* is captivated by method of her fingers hands revitalized by degree of her determination throughout he needs to ****** her ******* ****** *** titillated as she licks lips after swallowing ***** he realizes if he were female he would be total nymphomaniac yet he finds it difficult to imagine desiring men are all so like him women are so strange fascinatingly different he craves their otherness Odysseus loves women more than they love themselves smell sight of them sends him into frenzy problem is he fears their power over him
it’s been 25 years since those days i live alone for many years in tucson arizona have not been with a woman for long long time last relationship 2001 with crack ***** i hang my head cry wish for love wonder do i deserve to be loved pray to be forgiven
Dear Girl, I really really love you, yes I do. Not like it used to be, I'm no longer "in love", It's something different, that I'd never felt before, But I really really love you, Dear Girl.
Dear Girl, I really really mean it, yes I do. Not "in love" like I used to be, I'm something else, It's so strange, and I've never felt it before, But I really really love you, Dear Girl.
Dear Girl, I really really mean it, yes I do. Not like I used to be, I've changed a whole lot, It's different, my heart doesn't want "in love", But I really really love you, Dear Girl.
Dear Girl, This poem was a long time coming, But I wrote the story when I didn't know how to be me, Now wrote the poem when I grew some brains, But I always really loved you, Dear.
Sweet Girl, You didn't deserve those late nights, Where I killed your insides, when I made you cry and cry and cry, They made you love me less, they made you numb, and you fell out of love, But I really really loved you, Sweet Girl.
Sweet Girl, I've never been anything you deserve, You had to pick me up off the floor, and it was more than you needed, You pieced me together, but the person before you, she sabotaged me, I had a destruct button you couldn't see, Sweet Girl.
Sweet Girl, Neither of us saw it, We both thought I'd healed, from the awful things that happened to me, You didn't get to see, but the person you were, you stayed with me, When I became a nuclear disaster, Sweet Girl.
Sweet Girl, I try not to blame, But you'll never understand how your mother was the Tsunami and Earthquake, and I was Fukushima, We both didn't see it, but I was a nuclear plant, and meltdown waiting to happen, The damage was too great, that June, Sweet Girl.
Sweet Girl, I never understood, Even my own actions, because I loved you from the start, and I don't know what happened to me, But in times before you, people built me, and you just became the new plant operator, You didn't know I was so unsafe, Sweet Girl.
Sweet Girl, Nuclear plants are rather safe, They just can't handle Tsunamis and Earthquakes, because they're made of materials that crack, Under that kind of stress, I didn't just crack, I crumbled, I began melting down, But you didn't know and I'm sorry, Sweet Girl.
Sweet Girl, You've been through a lot, The Tsunami was hard, but you didn't know about the radiation, that it would destroy you, You were mutated by the horrible conditions you had to live through, But you didn't know and I'm so very sorry, Sweet Girl.
My love, You didn't know it, But we were both reactors waiting to blow, disasters waiting to happen, to cause destruction, We mutated each other until we didn't even know who we were, I'm so very sorry, so so sorry, My love.
Poor Girl, I really really try today, yes I do. Not like I used to try, but now I try to be strong, and not a nuclear reactor but more like carbon fiber, But carbon fiber is brittle, since you killed me inside, But I forever love you, Poor Girl.
Poor Girl, You've cleared your rubble, Growing to be the most amazing and beautiful of skyscrapers, you're an inspiration for the world, you know, You're so much different, standing taller than you'll ever know, But skyscrapers can fall too, Poor Girl.
Poor Girl, You make yourself content, Being alone, you tell yourself that alone doesn't mean lonely, That you find peace in the solitude, But solitude is an empty thing, Poor Girl.
Poor Girl, We can pick each other up, You don't even know, it's not the same kind of picking up that we tried before, This picking up can only go up, Because we don't even care to feel sad anymore, Poor Girl.
Poor Girl, You don't even know, how much I want to kiss you, But it's different than before, it's more like the kisses mothers give to children, When their children are crying, the kind of kisses that make great statements and tell stories, The stories only kisses can give, My girl.
Oh, ye little kitty-girl, kitty-girl, kitty-girl, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, why do ye purr? Ye, champagne and roses, A bag full of poses, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, that's why you purr!
Oh, ye little kitty-girl, kitty-girl, kitty-girl, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, why do ye purr? From London to Denver, you're glowing my ember, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, that's why you purr!
Oh, ye little kitty-girl, kitty-girl, kitty-girl, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, why do ye purr? I know that you're fluffy, You're cute and you're puffy Oh, ye little kitty-girl, that's why you purr!
Oh, ye little kitty-girl, kitty-girl, kitty-girl, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, why do ye purr? The sun is a-shining, The silver a-lining, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, that's why you purr!
Oh, ye little kitty-girl, kitty-girl, kitty-girl, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, why do ye purr? The moon is a-gleaming For you I’m now dreaming, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, that's why you purr!
Oh, ye little kitty-girl, kitty-girl, kitty-girl, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, why do ye purr? So, come ye, and take me For you will not fake me, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, that's why you purr!
Oh, ye little kitty-girl, kitty-girl, kitty-girl, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, why do ye purr? I love you, my kitten, So put on your mitten, Oh, ye little kitty-girl, that's why you purr!
The melody used for the poem was from an Austrian folk song, called "Oh, du lieber Augustin", presumably composed by a Viennese balladeer named Marx Augustin in 1679, though written documents date back to about 1800. The folk songs "The More We Get Together" and "Fat Turkeys" were all based on this song.
I miss a 16 year old girl I miss a girl with skin fairer than that ***** snow white I miss a girl who lips are red like my blood I miss a girl who's eyes could make me question everything and anything I miss a girl who scoffed at my compliments I miss a girl who called me a player I miss a girl who could write beautifully I miss a girl who saw more I miss a girl that blocked all of my compliments I miss a girl who was shy I miss a girl who's tears could burn holes in my soul I miss a girl who loved me I miss a girl who trusted me I miss a girl with blond hair I miss a girl that wore nice earings I miss a girl that hated herself I miss a girl with scars on her wrist, bruises around her neck and burn marks on her legs I miss a girl that could look into a mirror and not like what she saw I miss a girl who thought she was ugly I miss a girl ghat thought she was a curse to the world I miss a girl that wanted to **** herself for most of her life I miss a girl that drank I miss a girl that did drugs I miss a girl who loved the pain I miss a girl who hated the numbnesa I miss a girl that put others before herself not because she was kind but because she thought they were better than her I miss a girl that I abandoned I miss a girl who trusted me enough to tell me THAT SHE WAS ******* KILLING HERSELF I miss a girl thagtnever showed anyone her tears but she showed me I miss a girl that never showed anyone her scars but she showed me I miss a girl that was so delusional that she showed me her trye self I miss a girl that I hated for one day....I almost killed myself the day after I miss a girl who had such an impact on me that I still feel her pain floating around in my head....
I miss a beautiful girl
I miss a girl that killed herself and it haunts me everyday
Im sorry it took me so long to write this. R.I.P LEAH
Is that your blackened heart, spread out on the barren ground? Who is to blame, and why haven't the pieces been found?
Pretty girl, pretty girl, dry your eyes. Pretty girl, pretty girl, all men tell lies.
You can't go on like this, we all feel this way sometime. It's just a lesson learned, guys like him are only slime.
Pretty girl, pretty girl, are you okay? Pretty girl, pretty girl, won't you come out to play?
They aren't all like him, there's one who won't let you cry, He'll love you for real, but you won't find him if you die.
Pretty girl, pretty girl, please just smile. Pretty girl, pretty girl, pain only lasts a while.
Stand up, come with me, love is something you believe. Open your eyes and look around, not everyone is waiting to deceive.
Pretty girl, pretty girl, why won't you look at me? Pretty girl, pretty girl, what don't you want to see?
It's sad but true, love is almost never fair. Though one day, you'll find someone to care.
Pretty girl, pretty girl, let's get this heart fixed. Pretty girl, pretty girl, I know emotions are mixed. He hurt you real bad, to you all he did was wrong. Girl, he lost a gem, stop singing that sad song!
Pretty girl, pretty girl, do you really want your life to end? Pretty girl, pretty girl, why don't you let your heart mend?
You will get better, this is a fact I know. Smile, have some fun, your pain will end as will his show.
Pretty girl, pretty girl, all he is, is mean. Pretty girl, pretty girl, go to sleep an dream.
This is a poem of a girl. A girl who is so cliché, that she needs to write angst-filled poetry to keep herself conscious and her thoughts free, but is too hipster to believe it. A girl who is too freckled to be fair, too fleshy to be flirty, too conspicuous to be classy, too prominent to be petite, but too small to be seen. A girl who’s piercing blue eyes absorbs everything and regurgitates emotions like a tampered slots machine—excessi vely and noisily. This is a poem of a girl who is so over-stimulated with color, texture, love, and life that the numbness in her head is a pink eraser. A girl who was brought up to have opinions and dreams as long as they kept her on the path to perfection, poise, and parenting. A girl who is experienced enough to know the difference between sorrow and guilt, manipulation and cowardice, hysteria and hyperventilation but is too naïve to know why certain boys are a bluish green, why math is a bafflement, and why ground up chili peppers in dark chocolate ice cream isn’t everyone’s favorite food. This is a poem of a girl who salivates at the mere thought of classical music, couture fashion, and feminine heels. A girl who breathes in culture like a caterpillar inhales hookah smoke. A girl who Alis volat propriis (flies with her own wings) but ultimately plummets to nosus decipio (Let’s just cheat) because her humanity held down her Heredity. A girl who thrives on music of every variety: as long as it can paint out her emotions in front of her. This is a poem of a girl who is so acerbically witty and harsh that she could unarm Napoleon but is so vehemently protecting that Mother Theresa herself would be awed. A girl with an attention span of a fish, short-term memory like sea foam, thoughts that outnumber armadas, and a bad habit of dehydration. This is a poem of a girl who talks but shouldn’t, speaks but doesn’t, and who is so badly burnt by the enticement of affection that her wallflower camouflage is now charred ashes around her stubby toes. A girl who has such infatuation that she could pin Lust against the wall and make Passion jealous. A girl who wears red lipstick because she knows it will keep a man’s gaze for 8.2 more seconds than with chapstick and the 50’s will never grow old. A girl too nervous and traditional to make the first move, but too strategic and over-analytical to lie back and forget. A girl who loathes the word mamihlapinatapai because it describes her every circumstance since the day she befriended the purple-brown boy who thought her personality tasted of Raspberry ice cream and to this day she still can’t pronounce it. This is a poem of a girl who needs a bed so crowded and protected with blankets and pillows that her monsters can’t penetrate her mazed-up mind. A girl who drinks tea with her lips, and philosophy with her soul. A girl who can’t spell the alphabet backwards but can make great mnemonic devices. A girl who can’t tie ends together because she doesn’t want to leave anything unsaid but whose tangents are kite-strings. A girl whose sentences are distracting fences in front of her literal eyes but doors for her mind’s eyes. A girl who has Synesthesia but keeps it quiet because of the condescending kids in kindergarten who called her a freak, and a liar. This is a poem of a girl who thinks about Death and whether he is a snatching thief or just the ferryman. A girl who dances with her eyes shut, her heart open and her toe-socks on. A girl who will clean her room at 2 am because she can’t handle the sight and the night is too lively for sleeping anyways. A girl who wears her heart not only on her sleeve, but on her chest, open as a blushing book playing poker with hockey players and still winning a game. A girl who’s emotions are kept in a Tupperware box and left in the refrigerator but if you shake it hard enough the lid just might pop open
black girl burnt fingertips on blunts and radio knobs singing along to the words pretending to fall in love black girl stuck with scratches ashes burnt skin a taste for female friends that benefit black girl can't hide her DNA as easily as her true colors black girl best friend back girl white for a black girl black girl lives on the north side has a side ******* the south black girl plays blues bumps Kings of Leon and Future wondering which of the two will be her future black girl never cusses in front of her sister even though all she says is '**** it' black girl white car black girl no license black girl speeds black girl art school black girl need scholarship black girl raps and forgets the words black girl gossip girl black girl breaks cigarettes black girl never laughs at me when I think she will black girl psh black girl so much better than who she thinks she is black girl can't take a compliment won't take credit black girl so beautiful black girl never pays for drugs but gets high every night black girl sometimes makes me jealous sometimes I want to make black girl jealous
iam the girl who sit alone Iam the girl who stands alone Iam the girl who crys alone Iam the girl who talks alone Iam the girl who walks alone Iam the girl who speaks alone Iam the girl who runs alone Iam the girl who sleeps alone Iam the girl who eats alone Iam the girl who crazy alone Iam the girl who drinks alone Iam the girl who smokes alone Iam the girl who wishes alone Iam the girl who loves alone Iam the girl who shops alone Iam the girl who lays alone Iam the girl who texts alone Iam the girl who listens alone Iam the girl who showers alone Iam the girl who plays alone Iam the girl who calls alone Iam the girl who swears alone Iam the girl who paints alone Iam the girl who lonely alone Iam the girl who happy alone Iam the girl who sad alone Iam the girl who angry alone Iam just a girl.
It was a hot summer morning in late August. The brick building in front of her was daunting. This was it. Her first day of high school. Her long brown hair swayed behind her. It brushed gently against the small of her back. Her heart pounded excitedly in her chest. A new adventure awaits her. An adventure filled with many smiles, and many hardships. This is the story of a girl in high school, with long brown hair.
Freshman year was fun for her. She made new friends, along with keeping a few of the old. She met 3 people in her life who had a strange impact on her life, both good and bad.
One of these 3 was a girl. She was *****, and had different style, which enticed the girl with long brown hair. They were put in the same group, and began to talk. Soon after they became close friends, and had their first sleepover. It was the first sleepover of her high school year which wasn't with a friend from her previous school. She enjoyed it very much, and truly valued her new friend.
The two would often be seen together, and even made friends with two others who were like them. The two others were boys. One boy was a bit of a nerd with floofy hair and glasses. The other boy was a punk guy with long hair and darkened taste. The four would go to the mall together, and became inseparable.
The girl with long brown hair really liked these new friends. They were so much like her in so many ways, yet she also had others whom she enjoyed just as much. Freshman year went well for her. She was happy.
Sophomore year rolled around. Her confidence was high, and her relationships with her friends strong. She had made new valuable friends, and loved to do choir and theater. She continued to make friends through her extra activities, along with keeping close to the ones from freshman year.
The ***** girl in her little friend group had met someone. A girl. They were in love, but the girl with long hair didn’t mind. They were still best friends throughout it- although the ***** girl drifted away as she was occupied with her partner. The boy with long hair and darkened taste told the girl with long hair that he loved her. She was scared, and told him she didn’t feel the same. He accepted it, but became depressed. Time passed by. He was always sad. The girl with long hair became closer to the boy with darkened taste. She wanted to fix him. She wanted to help him. He told her he loved her. He asked her to be with him. She hesitated out of fear. A little time went by. He asked again. She said yes.
They were happy. She made him happy for the first time in a while. He made her happy too. One night, the punk girl invited the girl with long hair and the boy with darkened taste to sleep over her house with her and her partner. They agreed. The four went to the beach. The night was foggy. The air was warm; the breeze cold. The boy with darkened taste and the girl with long hair fell in love.
Time passed. They were happy together. One night the girl with long hair had a terrible feeling. She had a panic attack. The boy with darkened taste was busy with a class he was taking. The girl called her best friend to panic. She calmed down.
The boy with the darkened taste called the girl with long hair. He yelled at her. “Why didn’t you come to me first?”. He exclaimed. “You were busy. I didn’t want to interrupt you. I was panicking.” He scorned her. She cried the whole night. The next day, she didn’t eat. The school hosted a mass. The girl with long hair heard murmurings throughout the choir. Her best friend had gotten in a severe accident. Her car rolled over. She panicked. The boy with darkened taste apologized to her for fighting. He promised to not do it again. She believed him. He asked for forgiveness. A little time went by. He asked again. She said yes.
Junior year began. The girl had one friend left. The summer was fun for her, but not in a way that was healthy. She had stayed with the boy with darkened taste. She thought she loved him. She thought he loved her. She was wrong. The beginning of the year was rough. He yelled at her a lot. He didn’t trust her. He would often take her phone to read her messages. She wasn’t allowed to talk to other boys. He made her delete her social media. She wasn't allowed to talk to other friends. She threatened to leave him. He threatened to **** himself. She was stuck. She was scared. She was sad. They fought. He grabbed her. He wouldn’t let her go. She tried to yank her arm. He held tight. She wanted to leave. He wanted her to stay. He asked for her forgiveness. A little time went by. She said yes. This happened continuously. A short while later, they fought. She was used to him grabbing her. She was used to him forcing her. She tried to get away nonetheless. Then he hit her.
The girl with long brown hair was sick. She did not eat. Her friends whom she cut off were worried. Her weight dipped to an unhealthy level. She thought the worst. She thought she couldn’t escape. She was wrong.
The end of junior year was her time. She escaped finally. She was not unscathed. The girl with long brown hair cut it all off. She needed a fresh start. It was symbolic to her. It helped her.
The beginning of Senior year rolled around. The girl had healed a good amount, but not entirely. She had cut off communications with the boy with darkened taste.
He saw her in school. He spoke to her. He asked for forgiveness. The girl forgave him, although the wound was still fresh. He asked her to be with him again. A little time went by. He asked again. She said No.
Now the girl is a different person. She was wisened by her experience, and was able to forge some of her friendships with the friends she loves. Some relationships cannot be forged. She tries still. Nothing will be the same. She realizes that. She moves on. She is happy. Her weight is back to normal. She is healthy. She was no longer the same girl, with the long brown hair. She is a different girl. A more happy girl. Only now, She is the girl with short brown hair.
This is a Piece I wrote a while back. I figured why not post it on here.
Black girl can’t twerk. Black girl can’t handle hair grease. Black girl is half white girl is Grey girl is White ******* 8 mile is Black girl in cop cars is Not black enough is Basking under the “Yes, there are black people in Portland” sign.
Black girl’s dad left so white girl sits at Mormon thanksgiving.
Black girl says “wus good” to wake up and work with within “welcome to Starbucks what can we get started for you today?”
White boy says “you a real *****” Black girl turns around and says “I already know.” You’ve told me my whole life, You’ve never let me forget it.
Black girl ties my hair scarf at night. White girl does not fear the rain in the morning.
Other white girl tells me she’s “only ******* black girls after me.” I. white girl answer back “umm that makes me uncomfortable.”
Grey girl has the Beatles tattooed on her left arm, Stevie wonder in progress on her right.
Black girl was not adopted from white Momma, grew from her womb, still carried out misunderstanding.
Black girl wonders why white girl stays silent so often. Black girl is screaming at herself in the mirror too scared to scream for Jason Washington even too scared to scream for Trayvon too scared to scream for anything.
We forgot “why are you always stopping me” but remember “I can’t breathe”. Only black boys last words are worth remembering. Black girl hides behind white girl’s voice in retail and traffic stops and phone calls.
Grey girl, Waiting for the phone call. The Dad’s in jail brother is dead phone call The How dare you let them take credit for you phone call.
When I moved away I was a success story. I was black magic Detroit dame not dangerous city girl in the good way. With the good hair. With the way in which black girl works three times as hard but I, white girl, still presents her work.
She’s the girl who loves to cry She’s the girl who loves her books The one that never asks why The girl that always cooks
She’s the girl who loved you like ever before She’s so young and she’s so lost She’s the one person that always wants to give more She’s the one who trusts too much
She’s everything nobody can explain The girl who trusts love She’s the girl who’s so simple but she’s far away from the word plain The one who think’s she’s a fool
She’s the girl who’s been in the dark for too long And to her I say: maybe you’re made out of stars She’s the girl you’ve seen crying Because her face was ***** in all the right places
She’s the girl who showed you her scars The one that gave you more than she ever thought she was able to give She’s the girl who dances alone The one that believes en wishes
She’s the girl who has one particular nightmare The one you’ve seen lost for almost five months She’s the girl who doesn’t know where to go But she’s the girl who has words
She’s the girl that keeps telling herself: You’ll be alright She’s the one who’s got the same wish on repeat She’s the girl you’ve got daydreaming
She’s the girl who hates her freckles She’s the one you’ll always see reading or writing She’s the girl who doesn’t talk in her sleep But she’s the one who’s screaming your name in the middle of the night
She’s the one who’s got you on her skin She’s the girl who’s waiting for the stars to burn out The one who’s obsession is the moon She’s the girl who is exhausted but Boy, she’s strong
She’s the girl with the loneliness that has the prettiest sad eyes you’ve ever seen She’s the girl who loves her room The one that would fight for you She’s the girl who’s waiting at a shore for a sea that never comes
She’s the girl who lies about the color of her hair The one who showed you a side of her that She doesn’t show to anyone else She’s the girl with too much noise in her head The one that never see’s less
She’s the girl that still has a lot to offer To love and to suffer And now she knows:
She’s the girl who feels colors The one that sees music The girl who hears sadness She’s the girl that listens to happiness
She’s the girl who is a poet She’s the girl that you somehow lost
I'm that girl that is a Christian. I'm that girl that wants to feel like she belongs. I'm that girl that wants to be accepted. I'm that girl that likes both genders. I'm that girl that has wished for 5 years, to be normal. I'm that girl that cuts herself. I'm that girl that drinks. I'm that girl that smokes. I'm that girl that numbs pain in all the wrong ways. I'm that girl that has been bullied. I'm that girl that stays up till 2 am every night doing homework. I'm that girl that pretends to be happy when she's not. I'm that girl that wears a broken smile all day, everyday. I'm that girl that has gotten so good at lying, no one notices. I'm that girl that wants nothing more than to die. I'm that girl that locks herself in the bathroom to cry. I'm that girl that was never happy. I'm that girl that hates her life. I'm that girl that needs help. I'm that girl that needs love. I'm that girl that needs you. I'm that girl that is so sorry for doing these things. I'm that girl that had reasons at the time. I'm that girl that regrets nothing. I'm that girl that has never forgotten. I'm that girl. That girl is me. We are one.
I'm the girl who sits at the back I'm the girl who always hides I'm the girl that nobody speaks to I'm the girl with no friend by her side I'm the girl who doesn't care I'm the girl who doesn't speak I'm the girl who's pushed around I'm the girl they all call weak I'm the girl who gets no peace I'm the girl who's all alone I'm the girl who sits and weeps I'm the girl who lives in fear I'm the girl who has no use I'm the girl that tries to smile I'm the girl that they abuse I'm the girl who has no life I'm the girl who tries to run I'm the girl whom you ignore I'm the girl who has no fun I'm the girl who tells no one I'm the girl who hates my school I'm the girl they love to hurt I'm the girl who's so not cool I'm the girl who wants to escape I'm the girl who wants a friend I'm the girl that no one sees I'm the girl who wants the pain to end
Uhh,..Young Ston,..Uhh. /(Ohh I3)..(want you2)..(just you2)..(Ohh I3)..I want you , just you/2 Just you..(Ohh I *3)..,(want you2)..(Just you2)..(Ohh,Yeah2)..(Just you2)..(I want you3).. (Ohh I2)..Ohh Yeah..(I want you2)..Ohh,Yeah..(Just you2)..Ohh..(I want you5)..(just you3)..girl, Yeah..(I want you girl3)..(I want you2)..& just you girl, (I want you2)..Yeah & (only you girl..Yeah2)..
You so beautiful, you so fresh, you so cute girl, Uhh..that's why I only want you girl, yeah.. Only you girl, Yeah just you girl...Aye you give me a different special feeling that I never ever felt before I met you girl..a feeling in my spirit, mind & heart Yeah..(Like Ohh I3)..(want you3)..(Ohh Yeah2)..I'm really feeling you girl..girl you got me in my feelings baby, **** I might even shed a tear while I'm hitting it..like..(Thank God2)..(for you..2)(Ohh Yeah2)..Uhh,Aye
I wanna feel yo insides, baby yeah I wanna fill you inside up with my love..Yeah you a good girl you tighter than a waist trainer on a big girl, you don't even need one, even tho you hella thick girl..yeah you super thick girl like Amber Rose.. like (got ****2)..Yeah..your body (so right3)..its banging like Baghdad,.. Like (Ohh Yeah3)..(I want you3)..Uhh, Yeah..these other **'s stay bugging & running after me but..(Ohh I2)..(just want you2)..(Ohh Yeah3)..(Ohh I 3)..I want..(I want you, just you3)..you..Ohh Yeah..Uhh
So give me dat *** Babygirl Yeah, don't make me ask baby..don't make me beg & if you do make me then Imma just go harder while I'm in you & make it hurt even worser , Yeah you gonna be so soar Babygirl..like a..work out,Ohh Yeah...I'll help you exercise I'll be yo trainer..,(Ohh Yeah3) Don't play wit me baby.., I said take this ****,babygirl you the only person I'll let in my lane..but I'm the only one thats doing the driving..so park that ***** up on my ****..I'll be your provider..
Imma beat that *** up Yeah..of course, Aye Imma put Dat ***** in a hearse, Yeah that's what Imma do..(Ohh Yeah3)..,yo ***** so good to me babygirl, so I had to dedicate this verse only to yo ***** yeah its so tight..Its so mean..its so sweet, Its so clean,like..(Ohh Yeah3)..Uhh..(I want you3)..(Ohh Yeah3).. Aye, Imma get you so high boo..(so high3)..like Ohh yeah..Ohh I, want you, Aye baby everytime, when I look (at you2)..I'm so grateful & thankful to have you, you a blessing to me Yeah girl.., So Imma bless you..(Fo life3)..(no lie3) Ohh,(Yeah girl you so amazing2),
I wanna taste ya, I wanna take ya away girl, Away from (all the **** ****2)..that you (deal wit2) me Shawty, you ain't gonna remember any other man, that you ever had..**** em, forget baby real ****, leave them in the past..Uhh, Noo I ain't desperate for you boo, but yeah, I do want you..(I want you2) & only you..Yeah I..(want you2)..Yeah..Uhh I wanna eat yo *** up, just like a ice cream cone Babygirl,.. (Come on2)..Babygirl.. Imma throw some whip cream down on ya, & Imma go to work on that ****, forget them lips Babygirl,..Imma make you (tingle3)..Uhh,.Imma make you (sprinkle3)..Yeah..you best believe me girl, Yeah I'm so g girl, Imma King girl,yeah, you can be my queen girl,my queen (yeah2)..my gangsta boo.. Ayo,what up, What's good Gangsta Boo, Ayo,I need me a trill *** down chick like that dude, she get up on a track wit me & spit Dat real **** that **** a ***** **** , Yeah (that gangsta ****3)..mane..Yeah I need (a gangsta chick3)..Ohh Yeah..
(Ohh I 3)..want you, I want you,..(Ohh I2)..(want you2)..(Ohh I2)..want you,..(I want you3).. (Ohh I5)..want you..(I want you3)..(Ohh I6)..want you, just you..(Ohh Yeah3)..Aye
You can twist my **** up, baby..girl come kick back relax & chill with a ***** thats so unbelievable girl, Imma keep g & Imma keep it real with ya..Yeah, ain't nothing made up about me baby **** pleather, Im comparable to real leather, so expensive, but I'm giving you a special bargain, baby Yeah..Noo, I ain't on that **** ****, & I ain't no captain save a ** shawty, but you so delicate, you the definition of class Yeah.. You (a real woman2)..,that's why..(I want you3)(I want you yeah2)..(just you baby2).. Yeah (only you girl..2)..just you..Uhh I'll come to your rescue, when ever you need me to girl,baby, I'll give you your every want & need (Yeah2)..I'll protect you from these **** boys..I'll be (yo hero Yeah2)..girl you can be my biggest fan, I'll give you a special VIP pass, baby you can be my best friend..Uhh..Yeah baby let's get married & have kids , I promise to be there for you, I'll hold you down, no more crying girl, at all.., baby we can ride (to the end2)..Uhh..Ohh Yeah..
(Ohh I2)..want you, you so fine, you so fly, you just you, Baby I love it when after we make love then cuddle together boo..you so bearable, you so unique, Yeah I wanna share my life & happiness with you & only you baby...Yeah (Ohh I2)..want you..(I want you3)..(Ohh I3).. (I want you *3)..(Ohh I6)..Young Ston
(Yeah *****..*2)..Yeah..Uhh.. Ston Poet.. I want you.....
being a girl means being dainty and innocent, means pure, means modest, means princess. girl means legs crossed and church on Sunday's. girl means pepper spray and short skirts but not too short but not too long either. girl means *****. girl means chastity belt. girl means traveling in groups, means inferior, means less. girl means makeup and ******* and a sight for sore eyes. girl means girl is seen as object, seen as lingerie, seen as *** toy, only if girl looks good enough to be a *** toy, but even if she doesn't. girl means seen but not heard. girl means nice to look at, girl means nice to touch even when girl says no. girl says no means no, except when boy thinks no means yes. girl means what she says, except when girl doesn't, girl doesn't want you to ask, except when she does. girl is SO confusing, except when she's not. girl means no when girl says no, even when boy wishes girl says yes. girl means 1 in 4. girl means statistic, means unbelievable because if girl cries **** and nobody was around to see it, did it happen? girl wishes it didn't.
Who am I? I am the girl who lined her ducks in a row. I am the girl who laminated her high school graduation plan. I am the girl who hung the requirements above her bed. I am the girl who cried the first time she got a C on a test. I am the girl who has tried so hard her entire life. I am the girl that everyone used for notes. I am the girl that kept the class afloat. I am the girl who always knew what she wanted. I am the girl who had it all figured out. I am the girl with a plan. I am the girl who attended three schools at once. I am the girl who graduated with honors in a technical school. I am the girl most likely to be successful.
Who am I? I am the girl who decided to go to college during the pandemic. I am the girl who thought I would regret waiting. I am the girl who thought I would graduate in four years. I am now the girl debating dropping out. I am the girl who has given up. I am the girl who is tired beyond belief. I am the girl being rejected. I am the girl who is failing. Failing to stay afloat myself. Failing to meet the requirements. I am the girl who is doing well but not enough. I am the girl who has forgotten. Forgotten how to live, laugh, and enjoy life. I am the girl who is stressed. I am the girl that adults tell to relax. I am the girl who has lost herself. I am the girl with no identity.
I am the girl with no identity. Because my entire life was future-based. Because I was the most likely to succeed. Because I did everything in my power to be the best. Because I still was not doing enough. I am the girl who was supposed to be an inspiration. I am the girl who was considered lucky because I always had a plan. Now I am the girl who is lost.