The only choice
                        is blossoming
                                            in  the terra cotta
                                                   let the bright
                         renderings loom          
                                                a bloom
                                 too heavy
              for the stem.

Cold home
Such a northern chill
But across the tri-state
Need an N.W.O
In the U.S.A
Cannibalistic
Separated mentally
Bound physically
Insatiable
To the end of our life
Immune to strife
Modern-day living that needs no wife
Feasting on skin
Replaced by sin-
When did we become wendigos?

"You know I have to put you on suicide watch", he said.

What, so you can watch me die instead?

Saying a simple word
Can change a persons world

Wither it is for the good or bad
Wither it makes him happy or sad

With one simple word
You can either feel cozy or burn

What to believe,
What not to believe
You ponder.

Life is relative,
so don't get deceived.

Only that which you
experience and perceive,
must be believed.

You can find yourself again.
Don’t give up.

You may try to put me down,
With your twisted plots and lies.
You’ve got war history; I’ve got faith.
I hear your mocks; you hear my cries.
I look at you with my heart;
You look at me with your eyes.
Whatever you do, whatever you say,
Don’t think it’s a surprise.
Well, I am telling you this once:
Like dust, I will rise, I will rise.

09-30-2020
Mohammed Arafat

I want you
do you want me?
I want to be warm
will you hold me?
I want to cry
will you cry with me?
I want to love
will you love with me?

Like leaves in autumn change hue,
My colors have changed
With you.
Seventeen, still green,
You asked me to dance.
Our arms swayed and interlocked
Like branches of a tree.
You had (still have) this tendency
To make me grow,
With you.

Twenty years have passed
And we can no longer
Claim to be green,
But each ring
Of this tree of life
We’ve shared,
Each turning leaf,
Is a chapter spent
With you.

i almost kissed you..
but it was cause i thought maybe you liked me
i understand if you don’t
you called me pretty and made me smile..
i was living in the moment.
you were helping me live the average fun teenage dream haha..
im so happy you’re in my life but i know you’re not fully stable.
i feel like since finding out i liked you you’re pushing me away like i don’t exist as much anymore
im sorry..
i will keep my feelings to myself..
if you don’t want to hangout anymore with me on the roof or at all.. i understand

My grandpa
             Words he gave
                            To me once upon a full moon
“Son” he said
            “When you go into this life”
“Remember, that love is a language “
             “So find, my son, find someone”
                     “Who speaks your language “
      “So you don’t have to translate your soul”
                                   Hmmm.

i watch mens' hands
some look like pillows
soft and undefined
others are veined
and etched deeply
it doesn't mean
one tpe of hand
works harder
than the
other..
it's just that
they are
from
different lands
these hands of men

i almost kissed her
not because i wanted to
or want to
it seemed like it would've been the right thing to do
i called her pretty
because i want my friends to love themselves
not because i want her to like me
i am helping her live a teenage dream
because she happens to be in my life
it's my dream i'm trying to live
but i keep coming so close to following a script
i am that mean teen dreamy king
i made it my role
but i don't want to be everyone's heartthrob
when i had better things
i didn't have to be like this
i just

i almost let it happen
because i feel like i have to

I learned
to plant the seeds
of happiness.
There are flowers
blooming
where the scars
used to be.

R.M.

A day when everything was quite.
Everything was dark . And there's no one fight .

A day where everything was black and I can't see .
All was n fogged and walking alone with me .With my back pack on my back with confusions in my head .

I'm running to heaven nort digging my grave
, I can't just can run  away from the world of sin

.Walking , running , thinking , chasing , hiding .I lost my way .I can't listen to them cause I know what will they say

.The breath in the lies , poison that they drink

.No I can't see the sky , even the world is getting shrink .Everything was black , everything was dark

.And this is what they think ' I can't cross the way '

But I will fight , I'm not afraid of death.Just light up the light and give up  the hate .
God will show you way to end up this dark days.....

by brightness
you are my second sun
though your gravity is such
you are
my only one

I’m grateful for the
calm winds of stoicism
exhaling from you.

If a man needs you to believe a lie,
He will often say, "trust me."

If a man needs you to believe the truth,
He will speak it.

Like a wardrobe filled with too much ****,
The door that leads to you
Won’t shut, jammed by memories,
And of the constant need of you.
So I’ll leave it like that,
And let parts of you seep out
And swirl around me forever.

come back,
that's all i request

why'd you
have to go


i hate being in love
with someone i
can't have

'''Am standing on the rooftop
Soft spine whisper
"you don't have to watch the whole city alone anymore "
My head turns around
My man down there turns on
Women with soft voice and rousy cologne will be my death
But this time no-one is around😔
I guess am getting love sickness
I look at the moon and laugh'''

Ticking time
sliding by
painfully slow

The future
in front of me
lies miles
behind me.

The present
unfortunately
no longer favorable
for me

I feel
a timeless remorse
now I may
have loved you too little

your name is
forbidden in
my mouth
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober

i'm drunk on the
memory of you

I’m bruised
and broken
from breaking your
falls.
I see you
once again
approaching the rim
of your next disaster.
You’ve never felt
the full impact
of a fall
because I’ve always
caught you.
When you leap
this time—
I won’t be there.

i've invited her to
a dark place which
is called my mind and
she stayed with me

i've taken her to
a rushing river which
is called my tears and
she swam in deep

i've walked her on
an eggshells path which
is called my traumas and
she held me tight

i don't even feel like i
need to make her stay cause
she will

The sand shifts beneath your feet,
Your heart relaxes to a quiet beat,
The waters seem to breathe day and night,
Close your eyes take it in do not fight,
The wind satisfies your soul,
Just relax now you've played your role,
Touch the sand now scoop it up,
Hold it in your hands and form a cup,
Now let it seep through towards the sandy ground,
Your soul was lost but now its found,
The weather you desire will come your way,
Just stand closer to the bay,
Soon life will be eternal for you and me,
Look beyond the ocean and tell me what you see.
                          -open heart poetry

walking through
I feel my shoulders drop

in the middle of the road
kind of want to cry out loud

I know it's another heavy day
is it almost friday

this endless routine
I'm so tired

no more time
I'm dissociating during work

losing myself
where am I
what am I doing

forgot what's the day
forgetting I have a name

this face of mine
I don't recognize

If you could read my mind,
You’d see a thousand papers
Filled with broken poetries
And deadbeat proses
Full of woeful verses
With mournful pieces
Of unfinished stories
That are yet to be written
And failed to be spoken;
If you could read my mind,
You’d hear horrible screams
And earsplitting weeps
From shattered dreams,
Kept in a nasty notepad,
Scribbled on a bed
Of bloodstained words,
Ringing in my head.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the shadows
That lurk within me;
You’d hear the bellows,
Screeching the words
“I’m tired,”
“I’m a failure,”
“I’m stupid –”
I know it sounds stupid,
It’s pathetically foolish
And seems like *******.
If you could read my mind,
You’d feel the tears
I had ever failed to cry;
You’d see the people
That make the weak weaker;
You’d see the monsters
That consume my head;
You’d hear the hollers
That failed to be freed;
You’d see the heart
That still bleeds and bleeds.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the face
I’ve failed to show back then,
The face I’ve faked back then.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see a character
I had ever failed to become
If you could read my mind,
You’d be able to read
A book you never wished
To touch and read,
But sometimes I still wish
Someone could read my mind.