I see you
I see me
Not being chosen
I see you having more fun
I see you walk by casuallly dismissing me
I see your lips with a dark shade of  maroon moving and not a single moment of silence
I see your  brown eyes not even glancing  towards me
I see the red-brown of your hair but they face me
I see your long silver earings dangling and shaking as you laugh
I see the golden bracelets in your hand  slide back as you tie your hair
I see you
I see me
                             All alone

The Ocean is my emotion-
it Changes like the tide.
Like shells that drift away-
it's often swept aside.

A Whale, the largest of mammals-
it is the heart of the sea.
A heart that moves in places-
it never wishes to be.

No one can stop this beautiful whale-
though frankly many have tried.
You can possibly hurt and scare the whale-
but cannot break what's inside.

we're one
my tongue
blindly searching
for the secret softness
of the skin
goes down
closing the distance
reaching the
dark pink of
your brain.

Your hair looks gorgeous.
And the dress? Simply stunning.
The brilliant red of the lipstick
keeps me fixated on your beauty.

The coat is a perfect fit
and the diamonds tie it all together
so wonderfully.

But maybe
just this once
you'd be willing to take off the mask?

A poet is no more than a person
A mother
A daughter
A lover  
Someone needing release
Or someone needing to recover


It’s the art they create when that ball of ink or stick of led dances on the canvas they so perfectly prepared.
And when the end result and their purpose become perfectly paired.

my tears fill my eyes
my tears fall in buckets
my tears taste like a salty-sea ocean spray
my tears run down my checks like a faucet
my tears are shed for you

To see you burn so brightly,
Hot sparks flickering about,
Dancing off your flame.

The warmth you provide,
The light in life,
You lead and strike away shadows.

When I get close to you,
I ignite like dry timber,
Twin flames

But to you all you see is ash,
Pieces of you being used up
and blown away with the slightest breeze.

The ashes on the ground,
White as snow have been used entirely.
The time spent growing only to be used up in a flash of light.

You cant see the flames you arouse all around you
Standing with you,
Not letting you burn out.

The ashes on the ground feed the soil,
That nourish the seeds you yourself planted and forgot.
That grow into strong bows and thick foliage.

That creek in the wind and shade in the sun,
That grow old and die but such is life
In that death comes fresh life.
To keep the fire burning so brightly.
To keep the Ash gently landing all around.

Blue sky, bright sun
endless as creation
the light of these
as bright as these
return me to the one
when life and love
must re-evolve
greatest faith can come
much more than moon's
reflection of the sun
When life must end
another life begins
complete this circle
and begin again

life after life continuum
time after life conundrum
time after time compilation
and now this long awaited dedication

stern voice state promise eyes nor confirm
eyes fret loss ditty via heart murmur complicity
at heart streams a crime of twice wagered sentient
just as implementation of death inevitably stage era
cover tale

which failed toward undermining all's harbinger
first contact with known approaching symbiosis

If you judge me, I will judge you.
If you ignorance, me too.
If you lying, I will laying.
If you playing, I will playing.
If you hiding, then me too.

you’ll never understand
the pure bliss that is
being loved by you

She takes the stand
With the voice of millions on her back
And speaks the fact that we all know,
far too well to be true -                  
                                           Me too.

She is heard but not believed,
She is heard with faith deceived .

When will it be enough -
Is one in six not enough ?
Is one sister, one friend
still - not enough?

one colleague, one mother, one wife, one lover -
one teacher, one doctor, one preacher, one author -
one husband, one son, one brother.
Which one will it take, to stop
the non-consensual clock
and make us realise that -

Time. Is. Up.

I'm jealous of the rain
It gets close to you
Closer than I ever will
It touches your skin
It combs your hair
It comes when you're sad
It stays when you're happy
I love you but you don't love me
So I say
I'm jealous of the rain

What can I wish you?
Good in abundance, inner peace,
infinite blessings

i feel numb,
                        T
                             h
                                  r
                           ­            o        
                                             w
                                                 i
                                                        n
     ­                                                      g
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                                                        ­    d  a  y  s    i n t o  a  w a s t e  
                                                            b­ i n, w r a p p i n g  p l a s t i c  
                                                            b­ a g s   i n  a  b o w, 
                                                            c­ o n c e a l i n g  t h e  u g l y  
                                                            w­ i t h  a n  e m p t y  s e a s h e l l,  
                                                            c h a n g i n g   t h e i r  l e n s e s 
                                                            f o r  d i s t o r t e d  g l a s s e s,
                                                            r o s e - c o l o u r e d  f o r  
                                                            s­ o c i e t y,    f e i n i g n i n g  
                                                            h­ a p p i n e s s  f o r  m i s e r y,
                                                            c l o s i n g  w a s t e  b i n s  f o r
                                                         f a m i l y,  s e a l i n g  t r a s h c h u t s
                                                          f o r  m y  a c t, b o l t i n g  d o o r s
                                                         f o r  m y  s a n i t y, w a s t i n g  
                                                           a  w  a  y  f o r  t h a t  v o i c e,   t
                                                               ­                                             h
                  ­                                                                 ­                  r
                                                                ­                             o
                                                                ­                   w
                                                                ­            i
                                                   ­                 n
                                              ­             g  
                                                             ­             
                                                   ­        l i f e   a w a y   f o r  s i m p l e
                                                           c o w a r d i c e        
                                                       ­    i  f e e l  n u m b

New
Like the dawn
The glorious sunrise
Pinkish hues awash with silent beiges
And the sun
Is a fiery orb
Coloring life into every living thing

I feel the new
With my breath
In and out
And I think of the ocean
The powerful ocean
I can feel it within my heart,
The waves rumbling through my veins

I can see the new
In not so distant visions
Of a future full of growth
I’ve healed so much
And yet there’s more
More of the new
I open my doors
Let it all in
All the gloriously soothing beauty
Of life’s simplest pleasures
Healing me

There’s been a crack made in my lifelong illusions
I’m beginning to feel clarity, and not confusion
Saying yes yes yes
To more beauty.

Shackled, and chained.
Yet,
I’ve never felt so free.
You’ve awakened this primal instinct in me.

Burned, and bruised.
Tormented, and used.
I'm yours to abuse.

I kneel,
At your feet,
Waiting for command.
Waiting for the slightest gesture granted from your hand.

I look down.
My hands in lap.
l am at your will,
Waiting for your finger’s snap.

With hair pulled back--
Gathered in your hands.

And cheeks warm--
Caressed by your voice.

Lips are wet--
Touched by yours.

Cleaning, and cooking.
Almost every day.
Folding, and preparing.
Doing whatever you say.

I'm yours;
I'm branded with your name.
I'm bonded to you,
No matter what,
And I stand unashamed.

If you could read my mind,
You’d see a thousand papers
Filled with broken poetries
And deadbeat proses
Full of woeful verses
With mournful pieces
Of unfinished stories
That are yet to be written
And failed to be spoken;
If you could read my mind,
You’d hear horrible screams
And earsplitting weeps
From shattered dreams,
Kept in a nasty notepad,
Scribbled on a bed
Of bloodstained words,
Ringing in my head.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the shadows
That lurk within me;
You’d hear the bellows,
Screeching the words
“I’m tired,”
“I’m a failure,”
“I’m stupid –”
I know it sounds stupid,
It’s pathetically foolish
And seems too *******.
If you could read my mind,
You’d feel the tears
I had ever failed to cry;
You’d see the people
That make the weak weaker;
You’d see the monsters
That consume my head;
You’d hear the hollers
That failed to be freed;
You’d see the heart
That still bleeds and bleeds.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the face
I’ve failed to show back then,
The face I’ve faked back then.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see a character
I had ever failed to become
If you could read my mind,
You’d be able to read
A book you never wished
To touch and read,
But sometimes I still wish
Someone could read my mind.

I'M stuck between "i really want to talk to you" vs "I really need to get over you."

Because the earth’s round
Doesn’t mean it’s  having a ball.

Because waves crash
Doesn’t mean that they aren’t in control.

Because the sea is deep
Doesn’t mean that it’s thoughtful

Because land meets the sea
Doesn’t mean that they agree

Because you float my boat
Doesn’t make me the captain.

balloon pledge fly
dance toad
deuce canopy stare

I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

Now read from bottom to top.

Courage (Haiku)

Bee on blue easel
Dark wind blowing from the east
Wine courage at feast

इतना सब होने के बावजूद भी...
कैसे हीमत करती हो किसी को अपना मानने की
किसी को अच्छा समझने की...
किसी पर भरोसा करने की
इन्सानियत का सरे आम खून होने पर...
आखिर कैसे....
कैसे खुद को समझाती हो..की दुनिया अच्छी है
यहां के लोग अच्छे है...
वापस कैसे दूसरो से प्यार कर पाती हो...
उन्हें प्यार दे पाती हो
एक बार तुम सोचो तो घीन तुम्हे भी आयी थी न..
इस दुनिया के लोगो से...इनके मन मै पल रहे सडयंतरो से....फिर कैसे...
आखिर कैसे तुम....
प्यार करने की उन्हें छूने तक की हिम्मत रखती हो..
माना कि तुम एक मा हो....
अपने बच्चे को बिना छुए...बिना पुचकारे रहना भी मुश्किल है...
पर तुम एक औरत भी तो हो
उसका क्या...आखिर कैसे....
माना कि एक पत्नी हो....
तुम्हारे पति से तुम्हे मोहब्बत हो सकती है....
पर क्या तुम्हे उसे देखकर डर नहीं लगता...
उसे देखकर तुम्हारा दिल नहीं दहेलता...
क्या ये याद नहीं आता कि वो भी एक मर्द है....
आखिर कर तुम एक औरत हो....
कैसे इतना सब्र,इतना इंतज़ार,इतना भरोसा लाती हो..
कैसे तुम अपने आप को संभालती हो....
आखिर कैसे....
माना कि एक बेटी हो तुम...
अपने अब्बू से लगाव है तुम्हे...
जान छिड़कती हो उनपे
पर क्या ...तुम्हे अनपर इतना भरोसा करना सही है!
जिस तरह औरतों को नोचा, चिथोरा जा रहा है...
आखिर कैसे तुम....
कैसे तुम किसी आदमी पर इतना भरोसा रखती हो...
भरोसे का जहा रोज़ खून हो रहा है...
वहां आखिर कैसे तुम इतना भरोसा दिखाती हो....
कैसे इतना प्यार बरसाती हो...
कुछ भी कहो.....
पर आखिर तुम भी एक औरत हो...
इतना भरोसा ओर प्यार कहा से लाती हो....
आखिर कैसे इस दुनिया मै रोज़ उठकर
भरोसा ओर प्यार डालने की हिम्मत लाती हो.....
औरत क्या तुम सच मै इतनी बलशाली हो!।

A peaceful Christmas
All the best for the New Year
Keep safe 'til we meet

keep your eyes closed love.

           e     t      
       m           i
    o                 m
s                        e  
                            s     all you have to
                                                                ­
                                                                ­ l                  is to what the sound
                                                           ­      i            n
                                                  ­                s           e
                                                               ­          t

                                                              ­                               v
                                                               ­                         a        e
                             ­                                          of the  w               s
                                                               ­                                       
                         ­                                                                 ­            tells  you
                                                                ­                                        to do.

I was only 10 the day you took my innocence,
Unknowing of your evil intent
I trusted your sneaky smile
your deceitful words
I remember the feeling of your hands around my neck,
The way you held me down
It against my will
I tried to stop you
I was too weak
just a kid
And I cried out to you to stop,
But you didn’t.