Because if I do
I’ll fall apart
And I want to be strong
For whenever you need a shoulder

every time
i got up from bed
am experiencing
coming out of deep subconscious
more from a darkness
an awareness
someone in cosmos
switch on the light
called 'Sun'...

I need
someone
like me

i'll never fade away
whenever, where i am
in darkest place
even if whole world
want to stew my fire
i will be shine and bright
like sun, like lodestar
like candle on the table
in the dark room

I believe I dream
As soon I close my eyes
Yet
Everything I've seen
Arised me so alive
And when I wake
In emptiness
I miss you at my side
A nightmare,
Aching in my chest
And leaving me in fright

In timeless time
I wait and dream
And wonder where you are
Whenever I am wide awake
I fear for my own heart
Since separation cuts my core
As deep as does my dept
I fall and fall forevermore
To bottomless regret

No expensive gifts,
No luxurious life,
No relationships!
Just the sparkle of eyes,
And exchange of chaming smiles!
Some untouched feelings,
Some unrevealed truths!
Seriously some beautiful relationships,
Not by bodies but  by souls..

I can see it in your eyes
And I can taste it in your lips
I feel it on your wrists
Why are you in such pain?

she sits quietly, seen and not heard but maybe, just maybe in her head




she is screaming songs of malevolence

i find comfort in isolation,
and isolation in a crowd,
i find a crowd in a society,
and a society in a world of people
who suffocate, wound and destroy.

Lord, help me search for wisdom,
And help me have peace of mind.
The joys to be found in life,
Them, dear Lord, help me to find.

Each day bring to me your grace,
And also, dear Lord, your love;
Lord, infuse my heart with them,
Of which I am in need of.

Lord, help me hate what's evil,
And stand up for what is good;
Help me to search for wisdom,
Dear Lord, the way that I should.

Lord, give me strength and courage,
And help me live a life wise.
Lord, give to me your wisdom,
That no money ever buys.

i don´t know if i can wait
i don't know if i can die
do i believe in fate
(life a lover´s sigh..)

i do try not to fear
my eyes unborn star
while outside rain falling
and leonard reads his poems..

A quote could be
Best understood
When you experience
That certain situation.

There is a star I look upon
the midnight blue sky,
in gray moonlight
after the showers
you reached the end-
the death of star.

Flanders Fields,
Where dead men lie,
And mothers mourn,
And children cry.

Flanders Fields,
Where living men sigh,
Reading mates' names,
Their friend, an ally.

Flanders Fields,
Where land is dry,
In mid-summer,
Of early July.

Flanders Fields,
Where children spry,
Asking themselves,
They were gone, why?

Flanders Fields,
Where dead men lie,
And mothers mourn,
And children cry.

My sunset is
Your sunrise
I feel far from you and
I miss you, my sunshine

You are what they say
Nothing more or less
**** exchange and pay
Don't try to be the light
In the jellied mess
Unspeakable fright
Buried people
September 1982
And their last loud cries
If you try to tell the truth
One day they will come for you
You are legend
If you see the eyes through
The walls of heartless and brutal

Hurry up,

hide behind
that wall

mask yourself
up with darkness

Or else
they might spot
you
weeping
ineffibly
(for the
one that might
just never return)

remember to never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever
ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever

compare yourself

The point I try to make
Is that there is no point at all
When you are gone from this world
You are gone and that is all
You may be remembered
But that will not be for long
So I repeat
The point I try to make
Is that there is no point at all

that boy with blue eyes
ice-cold rays of rising flames
how gentle they seemed

there are roses growing
from my hands
My doubt the seeds
Begging them to grow

There are roses climbing
up my arms
digging in my skin
but i am numb
to their thorns and beauty

There are roses growing
in my lungs
bloodied petals
filling my throat
and falling from my lips

Tears are sliding
down my cheeks
I've had enough
I am to weak

I didnt mean to stare
but you were looking at the bright lights
and you just looked so
there
I know im in love with you

Because the earth’s round
Doesn’t mean it’s  having a ball.

Because waves crash
Doesn’t mean that they aren’t in control.

Because the sea is deep
Doesn’t mean that it’s thoughtful

Because land meets the sea
Doesn’t mean that they agree

Because you float my boat
Doesn’t make me the captain.

If you could read my mind,
You’d see a thousand papers
Filled with broken poetries
And deadbeat proses
Full of woeful verses
With mournful pieces
Of unfinished stories
That are yet to be written
And failed to be spoken;
If you could read my mind,
You’d hear horrible screams
And earsplitting weeps
From shattered dreams,
Kept in a nasty notepad,
Scribbled on a bed
Of bloodstained words,
Ringing in my head.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the shadows
That lurk within me;
You’d hear the bellows,
Screeching the words
“I’m tired,”
“I’m a failure,”
“I’m stupid –”
I know it sounds stupid,
It’s pathetically foolish
And seems too *******.
If you could read my mind,
You’d feel the tears
I had ever failed to cry;
You’d see the people
That make the weak weaker;
You’d see the monsters
That consume my head;
You’d hear the hollers
That failed to be freed;
You’d see the heart
That still bleeds and bleeds.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the face
I’ve failed to show back then,
The face I’ve faked back then.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see a character
I had ever failed to become
If you could read my mind,
You’d be able to read
A book you never wished
To touch and read,
But sometimes I still wish
Someone could read my mind.

You know the drill.

Do not fall for that innocent smile.

Do not fall for that promising lies.

Do not fall for that sweet gestures or that husky bedroom voice.

Do not overthink that he's into you when you know that he does that too to every woman he meets.

Do not justify your feelings.

JUST DON'T

I feel so blank that i couldn't keep my head up,
because my anxiety starts to build up,
I drank to lift my spirits up,
but it wasn't enough for three cups,

I'm not broken but it feels right,
maybe just sad from last night,
I can't share what's inside,
can't even smile for a little awhile,

Has the air ever tasted like memories to you?

I see you everywhere.

In my dreams, mostly. So stop thinking about me. Please.

I mean they say if you dream of someone, it means they are thinking about you.

Apparently she does this sometimes.

Because sometimes I see her.

Sometimes she tells me she loves me.

Sometimes she is absent.

I don't think I will ever get over H* fully.

But  I keep trying.

I think I see her everywhere.

I wish I could see her just once.

I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

Now read from bottom to top.

the wrong one
will find you in peace
and end up leaving you in pieces

only the right one
can find you in pieces
and guide you to peace