Today, I saw you smiling.
Your eyes were filled of stars.
Your lips were full of flowers.
You own the night like a moon shining,
And that's enough to for me to keep living.

The way I laugh has changed over the years.

Now I laugh harder and louder,

betraying strain,

I laugh like my life depended on it

time flies by
with the blink
of an eye.
so when
do we truly
start living?

There must be more to life,
precious moments that stay burned into the memory,
until the world fades away,
heart beat going off scale, drowning all senses but one,
feeling warmth,
excitement and fear,
streaming together to give that feeling of:
I am alive with life.

I draw the Line in Sand.
My toes are brushing borders.
I feel compelled to forward step,
And yet I cannot cross;
The Line is as a barricade.

The Tide is creeping in
(it screams, it screams at me)
The Line is washed away
(i cannot hear it, cannot see)

It is gone.
And so I draw the Line in Sand.
This time further forward,
Always further forward,
Slow and steady,
Ever forward,
To the End I dread,
But cannot yet escape.

and then sometimes the waves come crashing in and
there is no Line – there is no Sand
and the swirling water engulfs my swirling self and steals the breath from my lungs
and irrational clarity pierces my hummingbird heart with icy claws
and in my desperation –

I draw the Line on Me
A Life Line
To keep myself from crossing.

bright eyes
shining smiles
laughing melodies

scared glances
sad memories
unsaid words

from the closest of friends
to the most perfect strangers

I see my love in vivid colors
starched white rose with drops of blue
petals painted a tertiary number
I fall asleep and dream of you

Is it selfish of me to miss you
After all the pushing away I put you through
It is
To love a person well
Is to love the boundary between you

Purity,
A contemporary peculiarity.
Youth tend not to care of me,
a virtue rather scarce to see.
Heart with love,
in love in lust
in love with lust
I'd escape, its just ..
.. If I could learn to trust.
Please help my heart,
For I'm torn apart.
I'd escape, its only ..
.. If people hadn't told me
What love had meant -
a concept bent -
time now -
Repent.
<3

Paper faces and silicone smiles-
Where’d you get that mask, little girl?
Looks an awful lot like

me.

He loves me
But he’s not in love with me
And it’s breaking my heart
But how can I explain?

There is no safer place I know
than tucked in sheets
with my legs intertwined with yours
the feel of your bare skin on mine
and my hand on your heart

The flower in the garden
will one day be gone
it may be beautiful now
but it wont last that long
So like a flower one day we will see
In the end, How broken we would be

loneliness, an old friend
is knocking on my door again
and I’m trying so hard not to let him in

I still remember the last time I saw you
and I remember the day I realized
it was really over

but life goes on, as things do
however, I still find myself
thinking about you

I’ve seen other people,
I’m sure you have too
but still, I really, truly do
myss you

I wonder..
am I too soft?
or is the world too hard

What if
You have been fighting
A losing battle
All along
What if
The silence
Within you
Is only
The calm
Before the strom
And
It is going to be a fight
You just cannot
Win

-jt

we live in a world 
of ones and zeros 
of science and theory
but only love will guide us
through darkness and pain
for its mystery is illuminating

I don't Drink
Not because I don't want to
I don't Drink
Not because I don't need to

I don't drink because of you
because of what you did
because I swore that I would never be like you
because you were the monster I feared

I don't drink, because I fear
The monster in you, will become the monster in me
and that monster is something I never want to be.

a fool
i am
  to convince myself
  that the words that flowed
  like the sound of a perfect melody
  from your lips,
  were the words
  of an honest man.

I’m scared as f*ck
to want you.

But here
I am,

Still wanting you
anyway.

So am I loyal
Or
Pathetic

for still loving you

"Yes!" Some teardrop moon reminds me,
"Summer's always on her way."

A single birch leaf
Floated to my sill
Today.

It made my summer
Knees wobble as it sang
September's denouement --

It laughed at me so
Mired in time and
Said,

Don't worry
Little one,
You will know
My secret
One day --

I cannot explain what love is
But can anyone say why?
The star twinkle at night
And there is magic in the sky
Or why river rushes to meet the sea
No more I can explain
Just becoz you mean too much to me
Your my life and my happiness too
I just know I do....

Sympathetic empathas saying words,
That are read from a script,
No one knew how to write,
It's early and cars,
Driving to,
Another paid bill,
Or whatever Thomas said,
Expierences fulfilled by fuel,
Maybe they aren't driving,
Or drinking,
might just be,
making babies in the,
Basement,
Or whatever Keats said,
Distantly dancing,
To kindergarteners and,
cancer patients,
Just another Thursday,
With mystic music,
Lofting around,
The empty dance halls,
Falling up,
With Christopher Robbins,
To the stars,
The bus is on time
Or whatever Dylan said.

im still alive
sorry to disappoint

If you could read my mind,
You’d see a thousand papers
Filled with broken poetries
And deadbeat proses
Full of woeful verses
With mournful pieces
Of unfinished stories
That are yet to be written
And failed to be spoken;
If you could read my mind,
You’d hear horrible screams
And earsplitting weeps
From shattered dreams,
Kept in a nasty notepad,
Scribbled on a bed
Of bloodstained words,
Ringing in my head.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the shadows
That lurk within me;
You’d hear the bellows,
Screeching the words
“I’m tired,”
“I’m a failure,”
“I’m stupid –”
I know it sounds stupid,
It’s pathetically foolish
And seems too *******.
If you could read my mind,
You’d feel the tears
I had ever failed to cry;
You’d see the people
That make the weak weaker;
You’d see the monsters
That consume my head;
You’d hear the hollers
That failed to be freed;
You’d see the heart
That still bleeds and bleeds.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the face
I’ve failed to show back then,
The face I’ve faked back then.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see a character
I had ever failed to become
If you could read my mind,
You’d be able to read
A book you never wished
To touch and read,
But sometimes I still wish
Someone could read my mind.

keep your eyes closed love.

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