Faces and places
Follow me near
Decidedly my demons
Drag on my heels
Calling on my soul

Into places I can only go alone

Men last seen in clouds of red
Images that remain in my head
Gods workers disassembling his creations
Someone must claim the remains
Left suddenly in horror and pain

Places I can only go alone

Laying asleep the demons come
Beating their unholy drums
Images in which they delight
Sitting on the couch at night
Checking doors

A life lived five times over
Did I sell my soul?
To the ancient dragon?
I see whether eyes open or closed
They follow me interposed

Places I can only go alone

Someday when I’m redeemed
I’ll ask, “why me,? so it seems
Did you choose to be under fire
Of this life I simply tire
Ten lives packed into one

No one around you will understand ever
I live in places only I can go alone
On and on life drones
Seeking mine, but my life I’ve given
Torn to pieces inside, just riven

It was my choice no denying
Living among those dead and dying
Before you choose think it through
For surely, your comeuppance will call due
You will walk by yourself for eternity

In places only you can walk...alone

Humanity needs someone to blame
So, they blame God.

why is life worth living
why does everyone scramble to keep alive
i feel like a leftover
maybe thats why ive discarded myself
refusing to live is a disorder apparently
help me find order in the chaos

ill never be good enough for the life given to me

Cold apology, noxious temper
Withers everything,
Assertiveness trembles
Like equines and stalking tigers
Tiptoeing, rustling yucca-
Tentative objectivity
Gyrating every tendon
As lackadaisical oryx nonchalantly graze.

Soft notes of saddened warmth
Envelope a canvas
Painted on by a team of
Saddened artists.
The sweeping melody
Of their musical brushes
Pulling at my heartstrings
Ever so delicately;
Their tender musing
A collective force of mourning.

If only their muse did not share
The same fate
As my spiritual analog.
Maybe then I'd have-
a mentor
And not just a guiding spirit...

you traded your angels for demons
and passion for fear

resurrect your light
to conquer the dark

Fogs and floods
Aren’t just disasters
These are sometimes the
States of my mind.

Mostly,
When I fall in love
With him.

But mostly
I end up falling in love
With me too.
Just like Sun after the fogs
And shine after the floods.

Sabi nila,kapag nahanap mo na daw ang tunay na pag-ibig ay nahanap mo na rin ang iyong langit dito sa lupa. Kaya't naniniwala akong langit din ang maghahatid sa'yo patungo sa akin. Pero naiinip na akong maghintay,at nanghihinayang sa bawat sandaling lumilipas na hindi ko man lang magawang hawakan ang iyong mga kamay sa mga panahong kailangan mo ng karamay.Na hindi ko man lang magawang damayan ka kung dumadanas ka ng lumbay.Alam kong katulad ko,pakiramdam mo minsan ay binitawan ka na din ng mundo.Kaya't patawarin mo ako kung sa mga pagkakataong nararanasan mo yan ay wala ako d'yan para ikaw ay aking ma-salo. Kung totoong ang pag-ibig at ang langit ay may malalim na kaugnayan sa isa-t isa,malakas ang kutob ko na tayo din ay iginuhit na katulad nila. Minsan na din akong nagtanong,saang sulok ng langit ka kaya naroroon? Malapit ka kaya sa araw? O marahil nasa tabi ka lang ng buwan,na sa tuwing sasapit ang dilim ako ay binabantayan.Kaya pala kahit saan ako magpunta ako'y lagi niyang sinusundan. Pero maaari din na ika'y kapiling ng mga bituin na kay daming nais mag angkin. Kay palad kong pagdating ng araw ikaw ay napa sa-akin. Kaya habang wala ka pa,ako muna ay magiging kaisa ng mga mabubuting kawal ng ating bayan. Makikidigma kung kinakailangan,ipaglalaban kung ano ang makat'wiran. Upang sa iyong pagdating ay malaya nating tatamasahin ang payapang buhay. Kaya habang wala ka pa ako'y taos puso kung manalangin sa ating may likha. Na paghariin niya nawa ang kabutihan sa aking puso bilang isang tao at higit sa lahat ay bilang kanyang anak , upang sa sandaling tayo'y pagtagpuin ako rin sa iyo ay magiging isang mabuting kabiyak. Hindi pa man tayo nagtatagpo,nais kung malaman mo na laman kang palagi ng aking panalangin. At habambuhay kong itatangi ang iyong pag-ibig na siyang dahilan kung bakit maka ilang ulit kong nanaising mabuhay. Nais kong ipagsigawan sa mundo na iniibig kitang wagas,ngunit mas mamatamisin kong hintayin ka at kapag naglapat na ang ating mga dibdib,ibubulong ko sa'yo na ikaw ang aking daigdig. Maghihintay lang ako,habang wala ka pa.




© 2018 Glen Castillo
All Rights Reserved.

a beacon of peace
she glows unforgivingly
our sun for the night

I can't take this anymore
I might have a mental break
All the thoughts clouding my mind
Are getting too hard to take
"I feel no emotion"
Yeah that persona's fake
All the bottled emotions
Are about to leave destruction in their wake
The end of a chapter
Beginning anew
But the change hurts so much
Oh I wish I knew
Walking down a dimly lit street
Called 'Life Avenue'
To an unknown destination
But what else can I do?

i often wonder what id be like
if i wasnt here
i often wonder if they would care
if i wasnt here
i often wonder if i dont feel like
being here
and i recently figured out
i dont.

I took care of you.
I loved you, I kissed you.
I hugged you, i spent on you.
What happened to you?

Who are you? Is this you?
I hear scary things about you!
The things you do recently.. Thats not you!
What happened to you?

Remember, I know you!
What in the world changed you?
I guess another change would be best for you.
What happened to you?

It was always me and you!
You selfish now, its always you you you!
You've found someone else, good for you!
And i wish nothing but the best for you.

I once said "I love you"
And I still do, its just not clear for you!
But I'm also leaving you!
I'll search until I find a better you

What happened to you?
Whatever hurts and breaks you.
It's no longer on me but you.
Cause all the decisions were made by you!

That pure innocent smile,
Your childish face and that side profile,
Your silky hair and that perfect hairstyle,
Would never forget you.
**** I miss you!

The touch of your smooth skin,
That beautiful little chin,
Your blushy cheeks and that grin,
Still I adore you.
**** I miss you!

Those big dope eyes,
That ****** nose ,
Those size 7 feet and pinky toes.
Your medications and Ayurvedic dose.
Wish again to feel you.
**** I miss you!

Baby I still remember,
that freezy December,
The day we fell off the scooter,
Your ****** buggy computer.
Our first date and the perfect kiss,
That raining night we spent in balcony
When you burnt the toast and macrony,
That birthday card you made me,
Helping in projects and assignments,
You taking care when I got sick,
I recall all those perfect memories of you,
still there's a place for you,
**** I miss you!

I wish you would have waited,
I would have come back,
But I can't blame you,
It was me who needed the space,
The fault is my OWN!
So I am the one left ALONE! :'(

i never said
i never sinned
it's just i've been where you've been
around the bend
more than a few times
more than a few

don't go to the darkside on me
whatever you do
one by one we will be left
the only two

don't die untried and way too young
after a series of trials you'll find you're far from done

now alone facing away from door
make it quick in order to avoid capture
making this such a dramatic ending to
before I had a chance to ever reach you

dignified pose
silence follows
I don't know what I never said
your ***** looks are so ritualistic.
fall backwards

this is not the time for evening wine
an empty bench like you've never seen a sunrise

what a thing
to fall in love with life
anywhere
except the city of your birth

You know, it's funny,
I had that ringing in my ear.
You know, that funny feeling,
A tinglin' in my ear.
So I went a snoopin'
And it's what I've always feared.
He was creepin'
He was sleepin'
With all the volunteers.

"Volunteer?"

With all the volunteers.

"Volunteers! What?"

Yes, with all the volunteers.
He was rollin'
He was dippin'
He was flippin'
He was eatin'-

"Volunteers!"

With all the volunteers.

I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

Now read from bottom to top.

Rain on me,
For I have been longing to be free.
Lost in my world, needlessly.

Rain on me,
For I am too tired and I need sleep.
This world is a herd and I cannot be its sheep.

Rain on me,
And show me the way.
This place is empty and I cannot stay.

Rain on me,
It has been too long.
I am sick and tired of pretending to be strong.

Rain on me,
I want to see the lightning pierce the sky.
As the thunder roars and the clouds fly.

Rain on me,
Let the winds take my mind to another land.
No one needs to know and no one needs to understand.







Tanay Sengupta, Copyright © 2018. All Rights Reserved.

They said,
"The most beautiful art is
looking into someone's eyes
when they talk about the
things they love."
And I said,
"Or looking at someone you love.
Or maybe, just maybe,
by looking at the mirror
is the most beautiful art
anyone should appreciate."

Let me take this moment
and make it last forever.
I'll wear your chain
When we're not together.

This is special.
You're so sweet.
Never want it to end,
Never want you to leave.

I just want to lay in your arms
and fall asleep.

sunflowers on mute
i only see you right now
i think you are cute.

I will miss you like the moon longs for the warmth of the sun in the morning.
I will miss you like rain that miss a rainbow.
I will miss you like a dry land that longs for water.
I will miss you like sand coving the foam waves sweeping away.
I will miss you like the end of a twig of trees that can't wait for the dawn to rise.
I will miss you like a dead seed that longs for spring.
I will miss you like a crystallized virus waiting for the right time to return to life.

"How are you?"

"I’m fine."

fine, fine like mother’s china,
breaking with a touch.
fine, fine like a fair maiden,
for whom only tragedy awaits.
fine, like the thread of life,
flimsy and anxious.
I’m fine,
thanks.

Walking the streets of town, shops all quiet no people around.
Cold outside keep warm a must.⚘

Love (down)

I love you
And you will never hear me say
That I don't
I know
We are meant to be
I can't believe that you think
You're not beautiful
I'm sorry but
You are mine
You can never say that
I'm lying

Evol (up)

I offered my heart
Little by little
Piece by piece
You took it all
After you left
And now I must live heartless

And then all of the sudden
I catch myself smiling
And i think i know why