you gave my name meaning
now i must work everyday
just to be who i am

There are wolves at the door,
        but we will never let
them get there claws into you.

We are looking for the princes
  that'll treat you right..

And  we know you'll defend them,
          the princes when the time comes.

Your strong my daughter,
            raised that your stronger

than anything that'll get in your way.

            Your the meaning to our life.

But your free, and your stronger than
           any before you.

                                      Kick there arses..

Wish i could just
Clear up all the dust
what made you blind
But I’ll never get to
because I broke your trust
Never meant to
What’s left of me is just a crust

Google maps says
it will take me
21 days to
walk to you.
Just enough time
to break the habit
of thinking
that I need to.

Sometimes it’s just easier to be crazy
Than it is to deal with sanity

This clarity is painful
So I’ll find a substance to make it go away

Nothing seems to me like that dream I had that night,
With wings of hope and bliss,
Like nothing I have ever seen,
I wish that life would have that purity in its wings,
Letting me fly high, just as that dream I had,
A dream of you and I,
Nothing falling, but nightmares and longing,
A dream I had of you,
Coming through my memories in times of doom,
When you think of me,
Do you remember that dream?

Observation
Process of elimination
Elation
Works of wisdom
Elevation

Artificial representation

Give me a time, a place
An expression
Of love, of fate
Ultimate suppression
Pulling deep,
I need resurrection

o talkative listener
what do you do
always rephrasing sins on your skin
you are a devil in disguise
and I love you for that
you are ragged edged with a hint of silver
wanting to make gold with stones
you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders
and walk like it's your last time to shine
o talkative listener
what do you do
always marking your words with a metal edge
you are a devil in disguise
and I love you for that

My head spins like your fingers in my hair
I'm stuck with a tenseness in my stomach as your lips work around my body
I stare at your face
And trace your eyes with my mind
Leaving me to wish I was what you need

The world continued
To force my tears
And beat me while
I was already down
But I heard your voice
And I saw your smile
And the world
Is nothing now.

- p. winter

If someone close to you
were to lose their smile
you could give them yours
to use for a while

If they find it from your love
and return your smile with glee
wear it again with pride
for all the world to see

why do I find so much
emotional comfort
in a sweater
that represents so much
hate

things just don't
add
up

why won't they just let
me
be
angry for
once

She pretty.
Maybe gorgeous as hell.
A beautiful woman.
Until she spoke that is when you realize the brain must have stopped.

He is handsome.
Extremely to you.
A woman's dream.
Until he spoke then you comprehend must be something lingering in the air.

Fooled by the exterior of our eyes.
But woke up to the truth by your mind.

ज़िन्दगी, वक़्त की एक सीडी बन के रहे गई
10/17/2015

ज़िन्दगी, वक़्त की एक सीडी बन के रहे गई, ज़िन्दगी, वक़्त की एक सीडी बन के रहे गई,
पीछे मुड़ के देखा तो, पीछे मुड़ के देखा तो एक अन्धेरी सुरनग बन के रहे गइ,
ज़िन्दगी, वक़्त की एक सीडी बन के रहे गई,

सोचूँ, अभ में सोचूँ, आगे कहा तक चलना है, सोचूँ, अभ में सोचूँ आगे और क्या क्या करना है
वक़्त एक एसी जनजीर है, वक़्त एक एसी जनजीर है जिसकी कड़ीया िगन्ना मुमकिन नहीं,
ज़िन्दगी, वक़्त की एक सीडी बन के रहे गई,

बचपना अभ याद नहीं जिसमें खेले थे और पले थे, जवानी वो भूल गए जिसमें सीखे थे और बड़े हुए,
वक़्त एक एसी दलदल है, वक़्त एक एसी दलदल है जिसकी खाई से िनकलना मुमकिन नहीं
ज़िन्दगी, वक़्त की एक सीडी बन के रहे गई,

इस सुरनग के अन्धेरे से कैसे िनकला जाए, आगे भी तो कोई रोशनी नहीं दिखाई दे रही
वक़्त की परछाईं में ज़िन्दगी गुज़र गई, भुडापा नहीं, अबतो िकसी और का इन्तज़ार है
ज़िन्दगी, वक़्त की एक सीडी बन के रहे गई, ज़िन्दगी, वक़्त की एक सीडी बन के रहे गई

Lying here alone. In an empty room. Thinking about you.
I never saw you. I never met you. I never spoke to you.
But my heart is calling for you. My eyes are looking for you. My mind is dreaming of you.

But I am a stranger to you.

You never saw me. You never met me. You never spoke to me.
But still, my heart is callling for you.

It's aching with loneliness.

The day we'll meet, you will know my name. You will know my story. You will know my pain.
But 'till that day comes, I am lying here alone.
In an empty room.
Thinking about you.

Nothing much to say,
time flows at its fastest pace,
when I love you hard.

He looked at me,
The way the sky looks at the rain,
Waiting for patiently for the relief.
Hands intertwining around my waist like vines,
Every touch felt.
Warm lips pressed against mine that has been worn.
Heal them I say as if they have been broken so many times before.
I love you,
I love you.

Without her
I have no reason to breathe

~aquilla~

I'm a ******' joke to you, aren't I?

My periods turn to semicolons
My suicide notes to poetry
My goodbyes become hellos
The blades turn to sunflowers
And the bullets, a rose
My heart still is broken
But the pieces have been found
Death isn’t for me anymore
What is, in the here and now
I still don’t feel enough
But I am alive
And that’s enough to say
Today is not the day I die.

Spring will have it's way
as Winter puts
its bristling souvenir
of empty bed to rest
behind the eyes
of blue birds
asleep in the sun

as I watch her
in her chair
pen in hand
a light beyond
the rainy rose
my bleak plantings
turned to bloom
as I listen
to her songs

Fake smile
Dried eyes
Scratched wrists
Bruised thighs
White pills
Rope tied
Gun loaded
SUICIDE.

the wrong one
will find you in peace
and end up leaving you in pieces

only the right one
can find you in pieces
and guide you to peace

There’s a shadow looming over our heads,
its sickly hands yank your lifeless puppet.
We’ve done it all to ourselves.
Well-being has not been a currency,
and the gluttonous vacuum has contaminated the water.
You devil.
Advertising poisoned the well,
we constructed Titans of insecurity
from our desires.
You devil.
Men in suits combed their hair,
as they bought your mental state.
You devils.
Golems with golden M’s
fattened the world up.
And their red and yellow fists,
punched the people into addiction.
And they are so proud.
We speak out, we say so much.
We say so much. We do nothing.
You devils.
We replaced the moon with a giant,
and his shadow barricades the sun.
This is our forever total eclipse;
impervious to pills impervious to reason.
You devil.
Humanity depressed the world.
And the last cannon fodder
we have in this losing catatonic war,
is the fleeting blast of empathy.
You devil.

Because the earth’s round
Doesn’t mean it’s  having a ball.

Because waves crash
Doesn’t mean that they aren’t in control.

Because the sea is deep
Doesn’t mean that it’s thoughtful

Because land meets the sea
Doesn’t mean that they agree

Because you float my boat
Doesn’t make me the captain.

your heart
breaks different
when it beats
alone

If you could read my mind,
You’d see a thousand papers
Filled with broken poetries
And deadbeat proses
Full of woeful verses
With mournful pieces
Of unfinished stories
That are yet to be written
And failed to be spoken;
If you could read my mind,
You’d hear horrible screams
And earsplitting weeps
From shattered dreams,
Kept in a nasty notepad,
Scribbled on a bed
Of bloodstained words,
Ringing in my head.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the shadows
That lurk within me;
You’d hear the bellows,
Screeching the words
“I’m tired,”
“I’m a failure,”
“I’m stupid –”
I know it sounds stupid,
It’s pathetically foolish
And seems too *******.
If you could read my mind,
You’d feel the tears
I had ever failed to cry;
You’d see the people
That make the weak weaker;
You’d see the monsters
That consume my head;
You’d hear the hollers
That failed to be freed;
You’d see the heart
That still bleeds and bleeds.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see the face
I’ve failed to show back then,
The face I’ve faked back then.
If you could read my mind,
You’d see a character
I had ever failed to become
If you could read my mind,
You’d be able to read
A book you never wished
To touch and read,
But sometimes I still wish
Someone could read my mind.

somehow
all of a sudden
every dream
is about you

From depths of
churning blackness
into starburst
electricity

slow rising light
blossoming
into gentle
infinity

Look at the night sky
Make a wish from where you are
On a falling star

I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

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