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10.7k · May 2014
Social Media
it's ok May 2014
Social Media
It's so strange,
How I get so happy with
hundreds of people that I don't know
seeing the core of my thoughts
It's so very strange, because I'm so very shy
and if it was to be in the flesh
or on a stage
I'd be shaking
and trying to not let it show
but I don't see what's wrong when
about a thousand people see my thoughts
#social #media #happy #not #im #in #be #stage #of #thoughts #people #wrong #if #i #the #strange #and #on #*** #my #when #was #about #it #its #let #trying #core #to #but #know #so #get #that #see #shy #dont #how #with #seeing #show #flesh #because #or #whats #very #shaking #id #thousand #hundreds
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10.0k · May 2014
Orange Lipstick
it's ok May 2014
Orange Lipstick
I'll kiss your pillowcases to stain them
Cover them in orange lipstick
For you to remember my lips
and when you wash them,
if you manage to gracefully clean them
I'll let you forget me
and I'll forget you
#kiss #in #if #lips #forget #and #remember #you #me #my #when #let #for #to #ill #lipstick #cover #them #your #wash #stain #clean #orange #gracefully #manage #pillowcases
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6.2k · Jun 2015
self love
it's ok Jun 2015
self love
we could respect those around us,
while respecting ourselves.
we could love each other with trust,
but not until we fall in love with ourselves
do you trust yourself?
because self love is more than bubble baths and buying things
take a walk with yourself, and have long conversations
ponder on the meaning of life and slow dance with yourself
fall in love with you & let's be truthful
because before anyone else can wrap their arms around you
before anyone else can call you beautiful
you have to learn it before they do
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4.4k · Mar 2014
self acceptance
it's ok Mar 2014
self acceptance
I accepted to myself that I'm in love with you
it might be a little late,
and I don't want to date,
but it's all there,
I swear
and I got drunk one night and got *******
at the same person I held hands with
because whiskey makes me emotional
they told me they wanted me to love myself
and I said no
I said "I will never care about myself
or find myself beautiful
I'll always hate me
but that's okay, I've figure out how to live with it."
I've crying over the shame my blades hold
and how I sliced my skin the same night
I told you everything
I just wish I could accept the smaller things
the ones I cannot control
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4.3k · May 2014
bittersweet
it's ok May 2014
bittersweet
I don't care to talk about the problems that surround me
Rather watch 'em make a boulder split right down the middle
Crushing my entire future, to have aspirations bend
Bottle up what I feel, to hope everyone arounds me feels alright
Well, I don't feel alright, but I'm not going to complain
Keep moving forward, in hopes I made someone's day okay
This is all temporary, I hope
Because it's 5 PM, and my eyes are tired, my body is shaking
I fought the longest battle, and I'm ready to lose,
But I refuse to surrender
#sad #hope #happy #time #battle #bittersweet #care #aspirations #5
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2.3k · May 2014
Up Above
it's ok May 2014
Up Above
The stars were once so friendly,
dancing with the moon to radiate on each
satellite, plant, galaxy solar system
The stars were once so bright,
But that was before they saw a bitter life form
And they dimmed a little
They met the city lights, and saw they were
least important with such beauty,
A planet with stars of it's own,
which lead the stars to dim enough
But then the far away suns noticed
Hatred, and the beloved planets
not being taken care of,
water sources being drained,
Fake satellites being place all over,
The forbidden moon having
Earth's stolen elements stabbed into
Planets hid, and now
All the stars are all a dot to twinkle
Still holding onto that last piece of illumination
and lately, the moon seemed a little dimmer
How many times
How will you write
About a glorious light
It's mighty bright
When will you realize
it's worse off than you
                                        Let me be when I stargaze
            The sky will look back at me and reminiscence
#sad #hatred #life #moon #fake #not #realize #of #beauty #stars #galaxy #away #the #are #forbidden #water #dancing #and #noticed #you #on #*** #piece #bitter #last #when #was #about #its #to #but #than #light #now #years #being #solar #system #still #over #all #so #were #important #form #write #they #beloved #times #care #that #city #enough #planets #once #how #planet #plant #will #met #with #then #place #off #bright #holding #into #little #stolen #worse #many #saw #lead #stabbed #dim #hid #lights #taken #such #far #radiate #wise #progress #drained #dot #elements #which #least #friendly #glorious #suns #each #mighty #before #satellite #illumination #having #onto #sources #satellites #lately #dimmed #earths #seemed #dimmer
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2.0k · Apr 2014
invisible pulling lines
it's ok Apr 2014
invisible pulling lines
you're the perfect beat in the song
together, you're knotted with a perfect memory
you're a could have, should have,
you're a wish and a dream
and to trace my fingertips across your skin
feels like heaven and bliss running through me
head to toe, and sometimes at a breaking point
but I'm not even sure if my words mean anything
because we can spend all night, all day, all year
talking. laughing. fighting.
we can spend forever in ecstasy, thinking it'll never end
I will still have my doubts
because you're a couldn't have, shouldn't have
just a wish and another goodbye
#dream #poem #words #sad #tags #end #not #im #in #goodbye #if #i #the #thinking #day #running #night #heaven #and #perfect #wish #could #me #sure #*** #my #skin #should #laughing #together #invisible #even #to #but #sometimes #never #have #song #head #like #forever #memory #still #whole #we #fighting #bliss #all #breaking #just #lines #yes #at #year #ecstasy #will #with #through #doubts #talking #pulling #fingertips #youre #mean #spend #couldnt #point #feels #your #across #can #beat #because #another #anything #put #itll #shouldnt #knotted #trace #toe
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1.9k · Aug 2014
Fast Cars
it's ok Aug 2014
Fast Cars
Driving all night into red skies
We'll feel so alive when the sun comes up
And the morning air turns our blood so cold and warm
Settle at a hotel because we got another 800 miles to go
I just want to stay like this forever,
I never want to leave who I am because
We got it made, and the nights we stay awake
Wishing this would never end, we'll run out of gas
And we know it's all okay because we have each other
Seems it'll never end,
All over the east coast we'll throw our own parties
Breaking all the rules, we could stay this young forever
and own the store parking lots skating on buggies
Escaping to paradise to start all over again
Well, we know we got it made
#end #happy #alive #never #car #trip #road #rules #highway #buggy
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1.9k · May 2014
into/your/mind
it's ok May 2014
into/your/mind
simple enough
If I wanted to, I could
I could dissect every word
you ever said
Take off the fabric that surrounds--
I would never, I told you,

I want to taste your skin,
after it's been hung on the clothespin
in the sun too long
If you heard this, you'd take it the wrong way

you want to taste me
because that little kiss,
you knew what you were doing
and now your hands know every inch of me

so ******* now
#kiss #word #want #sun #in #of #hands #wrong #if #i #the #and #what #this #**** #too #could #you #me #on #skin #it #its #to #never #way #now #know #simple #so #were #that #enough #knew #ever #long #would #take #off #little #wanted #taste #every #told #your #because #said #been #heard #fabric #after #youd #doing #hung #inch #dissect #surrounds- #clothespin
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1.8k · Oct 2013
|S|L|E|E|P| (To Someone On Another Planet) {Self-Sacrificing Art}
it's ok Oct 2013
|S|L|E|E|P| (To Someone On Another Planet) {Self-Sacrificing Art}
Dear friend,
The Earth divided in two and there was much preparation
There was trenches built by humans, hollowing out the underground
Somehow, there were others that were sure they would not live through it
In which preparation was minor for them
Humans that traveled for days and days, just to live out their dream
Gathering around the fire from the core of the earth,
Only to capture the beauty with their camera and canvas
Strange it was to see everyone singing in millions of different twos
With a string of words from all the other ways we speak,
All buzzing around, with no two the same
These were, in fact, the ones who were not afraid to die
Right before they burned, they all held hands and smiled
United in the ways they loved,
While the others died in fear, these were the ones who died
happy
and
surrounded by the ones they loved.
As if humans are very emotionally complicated
Striving too hard to survive
It's very beautiful around Earth's falling apart
Don't bother writing back
sincerely,
Lover of all things
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1.7k · Sep 2013
Wasps
it's ok Sep 2013
Wasps
Gather around, enjoy the show.
We’re all freaks here,
Flying around, trying to protect the only things we have.
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1.2k · Feb 2015
"Self-aware."
it's ok Feb 2015
"Self-aware."
Egos are false, they fail you, let you down.
Kick you over, leave you thinking you're better than someone else
Egos are not true, we are all equals, all equally important

Low self esteem is the same in many ways, it lets you down.
Kicks you while you're down, leaves you thinking someone else is better
Your insecurities are not true, we are all important, as well as you.

The only thing left is to be self aware and to know who you are
Become comfortable with yourself, and love yourself
And love everyone around you, including your enemies
#self #insecurities #same #ego #aware #comfortable #esteem #kick
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1.2k · Jan 2015
Writing It All Down
it's ok Jan 2015
Writing It All Down
Through the eyes of a hopeful child,
the world can seem so cruel

The brand new 13 year old,
Sawing at their skin because
"Things are so hopeless."

Whatever, she's been filling scarlet napkins two years prior
She wondered if there would ever be a true friend

There's a 14 year old, she thinks she knows who she can trust
So she drinks herself unconscious,
Crying about everything to the ones she trust.
A year later,
when she's gotten her skin torn into by ink,
they all give up on her
and she's back to talking to a knife.

There's a 17 year old who feels so used,
Trusts two people
Can't wait to move out,
but money isn't too nice
Her dreams seem out of reach
but her scars seem to be healing
thoughts of dying happen less and less

Things have been crashing down since day one.

A 20 year old just moved away,
year two of college.

Feels invincible, and maybe one day
she won't hate herself.
Looking towards the future
For constant reassurance
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1.1k · Sep 2013
Looking up.
it's ok Sep 2013
Looking up.
When you think you know your footsteps,
Theres another road you have to follow
Another path, decisions to make, and it's a lot of trouble
I know I was stuck in a horrible place,
Where demons and monsters knew me by name and knew my address by heart
Childish fears, I'd crawl under my sheets to hide from nightmares lingering around  
Nothing was worth living for, and Tuesdays were a bitter resort,
It seemed as if blacklights filled my eyes, and I saw the places where others couldn't
The little stains invisible to others
And I wanted to keep to myself.
These are horrible things to feel, when you stare at the wall and think about
"No one would miss me if I took my life."
Turning my flesh inside out, hoping my eyes go behind my head.
Happiness was something I haven't seen in awhile
My favorite moment was when a smile was cut across my face
Looking in the mirror wasn't as hard to do,
But I'm trying to be happy,
not to bring others down as well.
My favors are being returned, and I believe I'll be okay.
Tragedy is still there, but I know I shouldn't worry about it.
Even though I still feel a little weight,
I know it'll be over with soon.
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1.1k · Nov 2014
Crazy
it's ok Nov 2014
Crazy
I break my words, lost my world
Twisted over the days and took baths too long
My selfishness overcame who I ever was,
and I could keep spiraling down into self pity
I thought "It doesn't matter, I shouldn't worry about me."
When I realized I should be the first to worry about me,
and I should worry about me first.
Everything has been so eye opening, but now I can't stop to
close my eyes and escape from the confusion and rage
I wish it all could just stop,
So I can relive the days
when I cared about the sunrise,
and my eyes were so much brighter
#sad #worry #eyes #past #me #sunrise #relive
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1.1k · Aug 2014
Just Friends
it's ok Aug 2014
Just Friends
You became the best thing in my life,
So I held onto you tight
throughout all the late nights
We could run through the back roads,
Stomping on our shadows, because we're so bright
You were my favorite person this time around
I don't know how to stand these days, weeks, or years anymore

Lay on the rocks and blast some louder heavy metal
Fall asleep with dreams of highways winding through the east coast
We shook from the coffee,
We smiled with the darkest eyes and borrowed energy

People gave us strange looks and we respond with disinterest
No more staying calm
No sleep for days, but we're ******* happy
and it was so surreal,
But we had to say goodbye.

I don't even know where to go anymore,
because every long drive is now just waiting to get where I'm going
Drunk nights and drinking games aren't the same
and I can't seem to find a friendship as spontaneous as ours
I just can't let you go, because I love you so much
But you've gone too far for me to pull you back
#sad #sleep #coffee #friendship #you #memory #drinking #who #were #roadtrip
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1.0k · Mar 2014
a concert
it's ok Mar 2014
a concert
i've been to enough shows to know how people act
when I saw Three Days Grace, people seemed to
avoid each other at all costs
when I saw chevelle, the room was filled with nostalgia
however, I was far too young to understand
I just loved their music, and the way they arranged words
when I saw New Found Glory, I made a friend
People were goofy, fun to be around
when I saw Paramore, there was so many people
no one really cared to interact, but the one girl
who held my camera up for me because I'm not tall enough
when I saw of mice & men, with Bring Me The Horizon
everyone was so full of energy, and took care of each other
and in all these places, and being surrounded
by all these strangers
it all felt like family
i know this isn't exactly the TYPE of thing to write about or not something that most people would enjoy, but I adore going to shows, and so I kind of needed a little outlet to express my love for them haha

I didn't list all the bands I've seen live, I just listed my favorites.
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1.0k · Sep 2013
Riot
it's ok Sep 2013
Riot
Always will you be there for me, holding my hand
The tightest of sincere embraces until the stars all burst and die
Do you know how our faith circles us like vultures?
Waiting till we’re weak to attack?
I feed off the foolishness of the fate that’s handed to us,
And I walk the other direction.
Not always was faith right, and not about us either.
We didn’t meet to fix each other.
We didn’t meet to make each other happy.
We didn’t meet to teach each other patience,
But we met to live and let go.
That’s always been the easiest part of life.
So you see, you said you’d always be there for me,
But you’re letting the vultures peck your flesh away,
Becoming who you’re supposed to be, I see you giving up.
Well let me share a secret,
I refuse to let you go.
Simply because the moonlight beckons us to fly away
**** the vultures, so we can be forever
Set our own path for the rest of our lives.
I refuse to let this so called ‘faith’ push us far apart.
Can we start a riot?
Can we hear the music louder than ever?
Listen to the silence become the opposite of a night we welcomed,
My fire won’t burn out, because I am who I am
Life’s just a silly game, isn't it?
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999 · Dec 2014
Oh No, Here We Go Again
it's ok Dec 2014
Oh No, Here We Go Again
I feel good, I feel like if I could find you, we could kiss all night
I think you'd like that version of me,
I think you'd love me with no clothes
I want to reveal who I never was to you,
I want to make you blush, get you drunk on not just alcohol
And we could kiss all night
I won't dare
Feel
A
Thing
Because I won't fall apart, oh no no no
#love #kiss #drunk #stupid #be #*** #blush #numb #everything #emotionless
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988 · Mar 2015
No Seatbelt Hill
it's ok Mar 2015
No Seatbelt Hill
sixteen years old, going out with friends for her birthday
It was only to be fun and they lost control of the wheel,
Now everything is so different from the way it used to be
.
.
You're not going to be forgotten,
because you made every single person feel special.
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968 · Feb 2016
Writings
it's ok Feb 2016
Writings
It's terrifying that songs or poems can be written about you
Someone thought about you so much,
They had to write it down,
You played with their thoughts enough
They sat down and thought about it
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961 · Apr 2018
Gaberiella
it's ok Apr 2018
Gaberiella
her auburn hair was messy,
And I figured it reflected who she was,
Bright but a mess,
And I was absolutely right.
she’s the type of girl that stays up all night,
Just to look at the moon and watch the sunrise
she believes there’s still more to learn,
more people to love.
and she never stops.
she never stops working, she never
Stops loving people,
Even when others deem them unworthy.
She spends her days saving lives,
Couldn’t bare to save her own.

And everyday she wakes up,
So full of love, but so scared to invest in anyone
She just wants her mind to stop racing.

Her clothes drape loosely on her body,
And her eyes don’t shed a tear anymore
she puts on her warpaint.
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931 · Aug 2017
it's all in your head
it's ok Aug 2017
it's all in your head
in the morning my blood is cold,
there's chips of ice crawling around my heart
And it paralyzes me.
my mind has control over my body.
it's hard to breathe like this.

I'm so cold I'm shaking.
my lips are blue and
My skin has frostbite all over,
But I'm the only that can see the damage

I get looks of pity
when I try to claw out of my body,
I sliced through my legs and arms
I tried to make an escape

there's a war inside of me that I can't seem to appreciate
please please please, leave me be.
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887 · Mar 2016
I never say I love you first.
it's ok Mar 2016
I never say I love you first.
I'm not waiting on the other person to realize they love me
Don't get me wrong, I'm not afraid to get hurt
I'm not afraid if I say it first
They won't feel the same
I'll be stuck with this loneliness-
Look, it only happened once,
But feeling that pain was better than what I feel on a daily basis.
Nothing, and everything at night.
"How do you know if youre falling for someone?"
I keep hearing it's just supposed to be a feeling
"Do you get upset if they **** someone else?"
If anything, I realize that there's something in my brain
That won't let me feel what I felt for you.

So I never say I love you first,
Because I'd hate to be the first person to lie.
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887 · Feb 2016
Astronomical
it's ok Feb 2016
Astronomical
we live for the weekend
and all the days in between
I'm not alive just to survive,
We live for the night skies and
We live for the morning breaks.
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879 · Dec 2014
Fire
it's ok Dec 2014
Fire
Push me away, pull me close.
It doesn't matter, cause the walls are made of fire,
and I just sorta figured we could go down in flames
Thinking about the things that I will never let happen
and maybe laugh a little, and cry a little
And regret that we ever let ourselves feel trapped
#sad #fire #cry #thinking #*** #laugh #push #walls #pull #little
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874 · May 2014
We Don't Talk
it's ok May 2014
We Don't Talk
Because you gotta leave
and I have so many emotions
and you're busy all the time
and I'm bipolar and don't expect
you to deal with my lows
and you're bad at it
and I'd rather deal with myself
and you constantly tell me to take medication

We don't talk
because I don't want to look at you
and emotions numbed me
and you don't want to speak to me
and my lows are happening more and more
and it's scaring me
and you can't bother with me
because i don't want to deal with myself
so I'd rather drown myself in medication
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869 · Jul 2014
Until the end, my friend.
it's ok Jul 2014
Until the end, my friend.
It's not the way the problem is caused,
But rather who caused it
It's not the subject of the problem,
But if you're willing to overlook it depending
"Friend or foe" till you find a finite fiend smiling
May your conflictions rest, and leave yourself to figure out

Is the person you love, still the person you love?
or are you in love with the memories and a shell
of someone you once loved
*Is goodbye a little closer, now?
#not #friend #the #its #but #way #is #problem #rather #caused
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865 · Jan 2015
Chemicals
it's ok Jan 2015
Chemicals
You're the drug that I can't have enough off
The drug that it never seems to be enough time
And the comedown hurts so bad,
Like its the same as having a thousand knives
Yeah, yeah. I'll get through. I always do.
I only hope I can forget I ever met you.
#hurt #drug #comedown
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862 · Jan 2014
Sparklers!
it's ok Jan 2014
Sparklers!
Skate board down the rainy road
cameras flashing
shadows cast behind us,
doing their own little dance
windy night, can't light the sparklers too well
and if the lightning strikes the power out,
we could enjoy the stars peeking out behind the clouds
when the daylight comes, we'll steal the coffee
just to stay up a little longer,
and we don't eat, and sleep our Sunday away
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846 · Jul 2015
you are an infection with antibiotics
it's ok Jul 2015
you are an infection with antibiotics
you are
a thunderstorm with the sun still shining
you feel like
a freezing house with the warmest bed
you talk as if
they could get drunk off the liquor on my lips
you act like
that past year is probably going to mean nothing
we all know
it's not hard to spot a mess,
and you're drawn to be
closer to me.
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844 · Feb 2016
Unconcerned
it's ok Feb 2016
Unconcerned
my eyes are heavy and watering
But I don't remember the last time I cried
I left my respobilities far too early today
I should feel bad,
But instead I'm staring at a television
With animated figures
All this time I tried to be straight forward
And they called me abstract still
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822 · Jan 2014
Social Ladder
it's ok Jan 2014
Social Ladder
I don't mind
being all alone
and not going out over the weekend
I don't care
about all my friends
that go out to play each day
All I need
is to be at the bottom of the food chain
because that's how I spent my childhood
Until I found my place
So now, in a spot of interacting every day
I shouldn't hope
to go back to being alone.
and I don't need your **** social ladder
or your desperation of feeling liked
because I never ever once wanted
to live to please others,
because living on the rooftop
doesn't mean feeling alive
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817 · Nov 2016
LOVE TRUMPS HATE
it's ok Nov 2016
LOVE TRUMPS HATE
I have hope that love will conquer.
This is not something I can just let go of.
Don't tell me to keep quiet
If You didn't watch your minority friends cry of fear
If you didn't break down because you suddenly felt scared
It's only a grain of hope, so I'll build a mountain.
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814 · Dec 2013
Are You Who YOU Want to Be?
it's ok Dec 2013
Are You Who YOU Want to Be?
Mirrors seem to have an image of someone you don't want to look at,
You hate the way you can't control your sadness and anger
Trust me, I know it's not easy, for those skeletons still conquer sometime
Sparks of light are overlooked, and we only see our skin being a prison
Sometimes as the extra puzzle piece in the world that doesn't fit
An outcast can still win, so do what you want to make the world better
You do not have to project hate, but to think positive thoughts can help
It's such a struggle, but the sunlight will hit, and it will be the colder than ever,
But the noon will come and warmth will be felt
Even if night may fall again
Try to keep the sun, but if you fail, remember it always shows itself
Go on and be happy, and be who you want to be.
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798 · Oct 2015
i fuck for revenge
it's ok Oct 2015
i **** for revenge
girl #1, i'm sorry i hooked up with your boyfriend
you left me all alone with me and alcohol.
boy #1, i'm sorry your ex girlfriend wants me rather than you,
but i don't even want her.
girl #2, i'm sorry i'm going to destroy your marriage with him.
when he's feeling guilty, i hope what he said slips in his conscious.
i hope he can't take the weight of what he did.
oh, it's not your fault, but you'll get by.
you left him all alone and he'll choose me,
besides, you're far far away,
oblivious to what he did.
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777 · Dec 2014
Flesh Wound
it's ok Dec 2014
Flesh Wound
I'm going to tear my skin apart
And I'm going to spill my guts,
The world will know how vulnerable I am,
Then they'll break my bones,
Maybe they'll feed me to the coyotes
"What a shame!" "Such a loss!" They'll scream,
They'll yell about everything I could've conquered,
while they're pinning my flesh down,
for all my worse scars to go on display

Oh society, do me a favor, and **** the standards.
#loss #society #shame #skin #vulnerable #favor #standards #spill #guts #coyotes
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755 · Feb 2015
Valentine's Day
it's ok Feb 2015
Valentine's Day
So many people are bitter on this day, but
It's a day to appreciate all the ones that love you.
To be glad love exists and that there are people in your life
who would die for you and stay alive for you in the same breath,
knowing you'd do the same for them without hesitation.
#love #day #valentines #february #14
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748 · Dec 2014
Tired and Angry. Good Morning.
it's ok Dec 2014
Tired and Angry. Good Morning.
I want to get out
if I get woken up by the screams of my mother,
drunk or hungover
one more time,
I'm going to lose my ******* mind!
It's the same thing at 3 A.M, and in the morning
I've got some real ****** friends
She stopped talking to me over the summer
and they all let me fall into feeling worthless
Now they're back in my life, and I could not care less about them
My friends, they're real winners!
They'll **** the love and energy right out of me,
make me feel horrible any time I say what I feel
Like I don't matter? Like I shouldn't be there at all!?
I used to be left behind, but now I drive everyone around.
I had some time to think about how my family could go broke,
but here we are, driving a bunch of ungrateful kids around,
and for what in return?! I get their company?
Ha. Like that's worth anything.
I'm just so tired of this town.
Full of people who will break you,
There's really only one person worth staying here for.
Nope, it's not my best friend.
I'm just so tired of false security.
I want to get out
and
rebuild myself
Oh but I'm much too young,
much too tired from the chaos
#of #*** #town #out #get #venting #lot #vent #security #rebuild
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735 · Feb 2014
Numbers Define
it's ok Feb 2014
Numbers Define
I want to shed the weight off
thinner thighs, hips, legs, arms
I'm not fat, just out of shape
and I wear the extra skin,
watch the fabric of my clothes stretch
disgustingly over my body
I eat healthy now, and I run and run
and exercise every day, something different
I want to be fit when I meet my heroes
in 3 weeks
I've been drinking green drinks
I've been drinking orange red drinks
made by my hand held blender
The app on my phone says,
If I keep eating like I do,
I'll weight 113 pounds in 5 weeks
but it's not enough
and I push myself until
I want to collapse
it's still not enough
because I'm 5'3 (and a half)
and most girls my height are more dainty than me
but I don't want to go three days without eating
four days without sleeping because I worry about my weight
binge eating and giving up my food
because I won't be that person again
it never worked
I just wish I was not made out of numbers
**** weight
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734 · Jan 2014
The Fairy Killed The Dragon
it's ok Jan 2014
The Fairy Killed The Dragon
To claim a stereotype and wear it like you're a frail
little darkness, won't you listen closer
she took the trail
home, to be destroyed underneath
her sword
she held so proudly
as the rest ran away
and her sword had no power compared to her
with grace, she diced the dragon away
saved her town, saved the day
maybe 7,000 others lives
only to be locked behind bars
for the death of such a rare creature
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693 · Nov 2016
Regression
it's ok Nov 2016
Regression
The only progression that's been catapulted is hate
My eyes are as tired but my soul can't rest,
More than half of my country is represented by someone with beliefs from times more repressed
This is not what I want to be represented by.

My stomach is twisted and I need explanations.
This isn't love. This is fear. This solves nothing.
The air around me is too thick to breathe,
And I'm disgusted by this celebration around me.
You stand for someone who openly promotes violence.

This is not what I stand for.
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677 · Sep 2013
Twisted
it's ok Sep 2013
Twisted
Roads are running away, they refuse to be my path.
The grass is dead on the ones I meant to take,
What beauty is gone, forever on another universe?
Our paths cross by accident, and I will apologize.
We will never meet again,
I know our strings will be cut.
High above the world is where we belong.
Little time, little anchorage.
I’m sinking so far, just like you said I would.
All I really wanted,
Was your arms around me
Lips to my forehead
You humming softly
My throat running dry
And I can barely swallow


But a smile shines on my chapped lips
I lose my breath, and my heart
It goes out of its usual beat.
And you
you
Pull me closer
My hands grab to your arm
So they stay in place
Please
Don’t let go
Because if you do,
The roads will push me away
Don’t you know?
There’s a casket waiting for me that I want to avoid
You’re my reason to stay,
But you’re slipping away
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673 · Jul 2017
its the past
it's ok Jul 2017
its the past
he wrote about me
but never to me.
i fell for him,
but never in love,
i fell apart.
and he was the one
that tore me to pieces
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659 · Apr 2016
To my younger self
it's ok Apr 2016
To my younger self
In a few years, most of these people you won't know.
They move away, you get in arguments, and life moves on.
In a few years, you'll finally get a job and get out of that house.
Stop hurting yourself.
Stop poisoning your body.
Things are not hopeless.
For the first time, you'll get a tattoo
Your best friend is going do it
You won't stop there.
Things are not hopeless.
You'll snap a few times,
And try to find an escape.
It's going to be okay, and it's going to work out.
Thing are not hopeless because
In a few more years you'll open your eyes
And you'll shed the social anxiety
Someday you'll be able to hold a conversation with strangers.
Someday you're going to be okay.
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657 · Jun 2014
new words{i've seen brighter}
it's ok Jun 2014
new words{i've seen brighter}
the days neglect to tell me how
I already know they won't wait for me
It's sad to think that for so many people,
happiness is not calling their name,
with the most alluring voice.
you thought about crawling on spikes
to distract yourself from the second sober fate
because you don't know how to cope,

as the sun shine glistens through your window,
you control your greed with paid freedom
as you read about happiness,
you're screaming you want to be free

there's a world outside that hardly waits anymore
we have to keep going, no matter how messy it is
well, you've been looking for a cure,
and I'm confident to say
if you suffer cheap sadness,
you will love the consequences

you are not a wreck to be proof

you are a person, uncomparable to objects

you are not to be fixed

and you are fine the way you are,
please realize this
i couldn't
#days #neglect #i #the #me #tell #to #know #how #already
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651 · Dec 2013
Emotionally Strange
it's ok Dec 2013
Emotionally Strange
Happiness and pretending to be happy
Two different worlds
I have managed to pretend to be happy
to smile, laugh, search for ways to
make a fake expression seem real
lace together my words in an upbeat motion
and dance to the same tune over and over
I cannot tell if I am happy
or the emotion repeated so much
I do not know what to feel anymore
Except for when my hands touch the bottle
that brings me joy.
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632 · Aug 2014
Autumn Is Near (Seasonal Sadness)
it's ok Aug 2014
Autumn Is Near (Seasonal Sadness)
Where I live, the cold doesn't always bring smiles.
Sweet summer sweat drains,
Then the leaves change to bright colors
Fighting the contrast against the dreary grey clouds

Where the leaves cover the ground, they turn the soil darker
The grass yellows, and cracks under your feet

And when it rains 60 inches of rain in your town a year,
Cold rain is exactly what you get instead of snow.

Oh and I get so weak with no sunlight

My friends all love the cold,
They embrace it.
My friends all love the darkness,
They'll share a drink with it.


But when the cold comes for me,
I try to hide underneath my coats
When the darkness comes for me,
I lose my sense of time and sleep

I get so weak
oh man, this is a completely random poem, but I figured I'd share my distress that summer is almost over.
#depression #fall #summer #winter #weak #darkness #spring #seasons #cold #autumn
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632 · Sep 2013
Kissing Air
it's ok Sep 2013
Kissing Air
I believed
Every lie you ever told me
I felt beautiful
And wanted,
But you’re a liar.
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629 · Sep 2013
Fairytales
it's ok Sep 2013
Fairytales
You created an illusion for yourself in which I refuse to sink my teeth into
Not ordinary, you are finding yourself just like the others.
Swim away and through the iceberg tipping, but never will you get far.
Breathe in, breathe out, and the air seems enough to suffocate you.
Your little spark, your potential
It seems to fade and fade.
You have your fairy tales, and there’s reality.
You realize there something more
Can’t sleep unless there’s something breathing in your room.
I hope you sleep well with the ghost of me
I hope you get through with the skeletons in your closet.
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