Chasing shadows through my dreams shadows of my wife In my dreams I see them flickering on my walls Like the gold at the end of a rainbow one never finds when I reach the spot where her shadow momentarily falls there nothing there but out of the corner of eyes, I catch a glimpse of Helen standing there but full on view there nothing there must be my mind playing tricks but would rather have the shadows on the wall than nothing at all
So much In love I was think mind playing tricks through my dreams but rather have dreams than nothing at all
the first time i saw her i was left in a spiral of awe the second time i saw her i was left unprepared the third time i saw her i noticed her laugh brought tears to my eyes the fourth time i saw her i finally had enough courage to say hi she brightened my week with a simple smile i felt a deep longing for something that was right in front of me i never thought love was real never thought and i had not known what it was to be alive until she took my hand every cell in my body longed her touch once more melodies played in my head violins playing sweet euphonies when our eyes met orchestras erupted in my mind the sun burned brighter than ever before the moon gasped at her beauty the stars didn't even stand a chance
the next time i see her maybe she will see me too
aaaaaaaaghhhhhh this is a really bad poem im sorry
It is a crazy world outside these doors. And I feel like I am not connecting with it in the right way. Or in any way from time to time. Like I don't recognize myself surrounded by life. Like I don't know which direction to go or to just stay put. Await the storm in my head and in my heart.
Feeling like I am not even close to the hand writing these words down on paper. More like I am the paper, empty lines. Hopelessly waiting to be used or abused.
Or just there to wait.
Which eventually will make your thoughts scream louder then you ever have and trap you in it.
Or behind it.
Like if you are living your life from a little glass box tucked away deep in your self conscious and there is just no way out.