Every moment of silence, Is stolen by you. In my mind, You are always there. In reality, Life isnt that fair. Someday in the future, No clue when or where. Ill know you like nobody, Till the end, I swear.
Why is making friends so hard? Why is keeping a friendship alive so hard? Why does no one want to talk to me? Why am I always the backup and never the go-to? Why, why, why???
I can't help but wonder of your life outside these silly little walls. What memories and experiences have you acquired that I will never know? Tell me about your losses and your Christmas morning snow. How did your favorite day start and your worst evening end? Whats the drive down your street like or the name of your best friend? What was the layout of your freshman dorm or even just your after school norm? I can only imagine the little moments that make up your days, do you think you could should me all the ways you think and laugh and love? Then tell me what it is you dream of, I want to know you inside and out, as you leave me wanting more like a flower in a drought.
The phone rings and it's 2:00 AM I hear your voice on the other end You're cryin' and it sounds like he'***** you again Sure, I'll come get you and I'll take you in - while you try to work things out with him...
Because I'm not rich enough I'm not tall enough I'm not hot enough But I'm the nicest guy you've ever known... It's why I'm in the friend zone
A few weeks later I hear your ringtone You're whispering, so I know you're not alone He came home drunk and angry tonight Now he's breaking up the house and he's looking for a fight You ask if I could meet you at the end of the road and if I'd mind bringing a change of clothes... Of course not, I'll be there in 10, just to get you away from him
But you know... I'm not hip hop enough I'm not redneck enough I'm not bad boy enough I'm not Tik Tok enough But I'm the nicest guy you've ever known... It's why I'm in the friend zone
I'm out with the boys on a Saturday night County sheriff tears by screaming sirens and lights The music's playing loud and I'm halfway gone So I pay him no attention and never looked at my phone 5 missed calls and 3 texts unread "Help me please," was what the last one said
But you said I'm Not this enough and I'm not that enough And I live on the wrong side of town... But I promise, I promise I'll be there... When they lay you down.
My first real attempt at writing a song rather than a poem. I have the melody in my head and it sounds OK.
They say that you've never hurt Like this before They say you throw yourself Into our mother's arms As she walks through the front door They say you cry And cry and cry Your emotions have turned against your mind They say it's a normal reaction to a Breakup.
But when I lost somebody I loved I didn't let anyone see that hurt
When I lost somebody I loved I wouldnt hug anyone for months and months
When I lost somebody I loved I never let anybody See my tears
Because I think mine Was a different kind of Breakup.
Last first days, time ticking My time at high school falling I should savor the moment Live in the present Before it all turns to dust
But how can I feel okay When you're weren't here to stay? You said I'll be fine and that I should be happy
I feel so disconnected I'm going through the motions And I don't know where I'm going
All my relationships feel meaningless Can't compare them to what we had Everything is changing so fast
Fighting, waves of the past, drowning Screaming, but no one is listening The world without you is so, overwhelming
I wish I weren't this complicated I wish I could just live in the present But my mind keeps going back to you Without you nothing makes sense....
Guess I'll just keep feeling disconnected And going through the motions And not know where I'm going
Feeling like all my relationships are meaningless Can't compare them to what we have And face the fact That you, and everything is changing too fast
Haha me having attachment issues and going through senior year without my best friend who left me for college. It's the second day and I already wanna die:)
But yeah...you ever just, put all your eggs into one basket and have a very meaningful close relationship with one person and then when they leave you feel disconnected from everyone else because all your other relationships feel shallow and meaningless? That's me right now it's so fun.