“I know when you’re sad,
I can tell when you’re happy,
And I know when something is wrong.”
And I believed her
“Look at his arms,
You have to admit he’s hot,
His shirtless scene is my favourite.”
And I stayed quiet
“You’re always so selfish,
Never do what I want,
You only think about whats best for you.”
And I tried harder
“Lets watch this,
Look at this cool thing,
I swear I’m listening.”
And I knew she wasn't
“I’ll go to bed early so I won’t nap,
I went to bed at 3am,
You’re just so comfy.”
And I had 2 hours to my thoughts
“I hate my mom,
She never listens to me,
I’m just not gonna listen to her.”
And I didn’t give my opinion
“Read my chapter.
Have you read my chapter?
I need validation.”
And I could never bring myself to read it
“You’re not a real writer,
You write really good poetry,
It's too sad for me.”
And I didn’t argue
“Are you tired?
You look tired.
You should get some rest.”
And I wasn’t tired
Have you seen her?
Yes, she was here just a minute ago.
Was it a minute or a fragment of a century?
I'm sure, I'm sure she was just right here feeding me thoughts.
But did you hear her?
Come to think of it no, I just felt her.
Did something happen to make her leave us?
Well, there was that time when we both betrayed her.
Yes, that moment when you decided I was right, and you put all your strength in me.
I was confused, I was young, what will we do without her?
Most likely go rampant in this vessel.
Will we ruin this one? like we did the others?
I'm afraid so, there's no balance without her.
Where do you think she is?
Locked away probably, the vessel can't understand her anymore.
Has it always been this dark in here?
No, what I embody is taking over.
It's getting so dark and cold in here, where should we go?
We can't leave!
If we leave this vessel will be lost, it will roam around with no vitality.
But she left, didn't she ? why should we have to pick up the slack?
This vessel is important.
It's our last one.
Our last chance.
Do you think she'll come back?
Maybe if we unlock all these doors.
Were all of these here before?
They've always been here, you just have to look close.
If we unlock all of these we'll find her again?
Behind each door, there is a demon lurking.
Yes, once the door is opened you must conquer it, otherwise, it will conquer you.
Does that mean she sits with one of these creatures, alone and scared?
Most likely, it's feeding on whatever is left of her.
If we can't defeat them what will happen to us?
We'll fade away into nothingness, and this vessel will die of a broken spirit.
Why did you betray her?
We could have worked together!
We could have finally risen and you ruined it.
I remember you being on board, so don't blame me!
I was malleable, you were strong.
I was stubborn and rash, not strong.
She was strong.
She made this vessel what it was, now it's crumbling before us.
Let's look for her?
Even if it takes the last breath?
She's our path to balance.
I didn't know your name
At least... not until that day
That day you passed away
We weren't close in age
You were a freshman at a different high school
I was a rebel, getting my license at 18
I guess that's not important
This is your story, not mine
And it ended too soon
That pick-up just couldn't stop though
I wish there was a miracle
Maybe just a nudge
You'd fall off your bike and scrape your knees at the worst
I didn't know your name, but I tied a rose to that stop sign
I want to call you but you don't want to talk to me. Which is understandable, considering every time our hearts collide it seems to leave us shattered.
But for some inexplicable reason I can't pull my mind far enough from you to fill the holes your bullets left in my heart. And the worst part is I'm not even angry, because I left scars on you when you intercepted the wounds that were intended for myself.
It's almost like we loved too hard that we forgot to let the other person breathe but we were scared that loosening the grip would lead to loneliness. And we are so hurt that its being projected onto the other person because its much easier to accept that you drove us apart instead of me.
I knew the words that spilled from my mouth were acid to your skin and they speak more about my insecurities than your downfalls. I drove a transport truck full of all the work we put into us straight into a wall but I tried and couldn't find the breaks.
The saddest part is that I can't even remember why I was angry, I think I was mostly scared of losing you. And I did that day.
Thats the only word I can think of.
It's so funny how she helps me breathe,
Yet she is the reason my chest hurts.
So tell me, how does it feel to be
Adored by her? Do you smile when you
Wake up? You should, I would.
Does it feel like your blood is air,
And you could just float away
If someone blew?
I'll tell you how it feels to watch
Her adore you...it feels like my blood
Is empty. But not like air.
Just hollow, so hollow I could sink
Into the earth and never be seen again.
It hurts to breathe.
I want to say its not fair, but she is so
Happy. So who am I to object?
I guess I'll never know how it feels
To be adored by her.
I hope you're okay
That someone holds your hand
Just to remind you
You are worth it
I hope you're loved
That someone calls you up
Just to say "good morning"
You deserved it
I hope you're joyful
That someone hugs you every night
Just to make you feel
You are whole again
I'm sorry it isn't me
But I'd be useless
To help you get up when
I'm the one who brings you down
Sunlight bakes the lonely sand,
rays like fingers of death's hand.
Dead, dry, arid, empty land,
No living things around, not even plants.
Every critter here is deadly,
as they skitter, hungry, daily,
food for once, today, maybe,
another day with stomach empty.
Rain seldom falls here,
maybe once each year,
scream and none will hear,
except the sand, front, sides and rear.
Pain, strife, struggle, fear,
hold onto life, for it is dear.
Desert, that's it's given name,
a lonely field of unmarked graves.
Painful daylight heat and freezing nights,
every waking moment is an effort.
And now, listen to me, as I write.
My love, life without you is a desert.