and when you said someone like ashley was your cup of tea with a glistening look like you longed for her embrace with the brightest grin etched broadly on your face i wondered what it would've been like to be brewed to your taste
I had never really liked you Until that day, When I noticed You didn’t look at me With shame.
Written back in 2012 and I'm not sure what prompted this, but I feel like it was something to do with an old schoolmate who I reconnected with. It's funny how people you use to hate you can grow to like when you see them outside of the rigidness of the school hierarchy.
Average hair Average weight Average height Average eyes Not special, no, not quite. I am that kid who tries but isnt noticed I work hard until I can't keep going But faliure always finds me Like a mindless machine I fall back Back where I started Average It's funny how I pray to be ill to for once be different than them Even though it could **** me. I starve and I pray, But is it really okay? To live this way? Trapped in my mind Laughing? At me probably. Finally I am satisfied with the mirror then temptation breaks me And I'm back where I started Average. I dyed my hair pink All I get is glares. I want to be special but not like this Even if it means I won't be happy I'll do anything to no longer be Average Too tall to be cute Too short to model I've gotten no where at all, The more I try the more I fail. I will always be Average Average hair Average height Average weight I want to not be able to remember the last time I ate. They think I hate them bit it's myself I despise This smile is my disguise I just want to be Special.
I didn't know how to portray this but I tried I guess.