I often wonder what would the world look like without me the ego of man, brazen and bold what keeps you awake, when others lay unconsciously physically opaque tragically present ringing echoes of words layed with ink never having seen the light of the splendid sun we plot and plot and plot for naught we are but a child, collectively a singular child one hell-bent on destruction not seeing beyond the splinter of light allowed through a cracked door and the world looks on with equal parts amusement and concern our significance is insignificant both tangible and fraught with the tragedy of being of the lack of being of managing what cocktail of emotions we are to be ****** into when loss knocks on the door
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sovereign citizen version hey! get the hell out of america! your title makes no sense if you're a citizen of the world, then move to that world who do you think you are? God or something?
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sov·er·eign | \ ˈsä-v(ə-)rən , -vərn also ˈsə- \ variants: or less commonly sovran Definition of sovereign (Entry 1 of 2) 1a : one possessing or held to possess supreme political power or sovereignty b : one that exercises supreme authority within a limited sphere c : an acknowledged leader : arbiter 2 : any of various gold coins of the United Kingdom sovereign adjective sov·er·eign | \ ˈsä-v(ə-)rən , -vərn also ˈsə- \ variants: or less commonly sovran Definition of sovereign (Entry 2 of 2) 1a : superlative in quality b : of the most exalted kind : supreme sovereign virtue c : having generalized curative powers a sovereign remedy d : of an unqualified nature : unmitigated sovereign contempt e : having undisputed ascendancy : paramount 2a : possessed of supreme power a sovereign ruler b : unlimited in extent : absolute c : enjoying autonomy : independent sovereign states 3 : relating to, characteristic of, or befitting a supreme ruler : royal a sovereign right
I hope this makes no sense to anyone, that would mean i am batshit crazy
I'm scared I'm so terribly scared I've become a nightmare A nightmare to deal with Even I can't handle myself So how will anyone else be able to I don't want to be left alone But I'm a monster I can't even control my emotions How much longer will this go When can I be free
The strangest of things can save you when your mind takes its metrical dive, Thank the lord for the consoling and tedious frequency of next door's vacuum cleaner, And the birds have been calling to my soul these days, and forget-me-nots keep me alive, The dandelion seeds fly on wind these days, I am saved by their graceful demeanour.
As I navigate thru the hurls of Life my mind gravitates towards the seductive temptations that linger in the subconscious mindset that I have attained via constant repetitive behaviors that scar me beyond my control and understanding. I hold onto my faith and my sublime thought patterns that perturb my inner soul. Unknowingly recollections of subjected torture and sorrow that I am involuntarily accustomed to...I recite a prayer to my Holy Lord that he remove this impending feeling of agitation and aggravation towards how my mind works and self sabotages it's sober state of being. Maladapted and a Degenerate ******* I am because I do NOT have the strength nor courage to remain in constant contact with my inner self to be able to control my impulses to use Narcotics. Truly, I have finally realized am powerless and deathly spiritually sick with endless intrusive thoughts of ******* on a suicide mission alleviating the symptoms by succumbing to escaping reality thru the Narcotic Amplification slowly self destructing by the utilization of this ******* substances that keep me trapped chained and imprisoned within my body's constantly nagging me to continue to use the drugs to escape my feelings, thoughts and emotions...am left exhausted and incompetent to deal with Life's struggles and circumstances. Without doubt I know I need to learn to retain my sobriety NO MATTER THE COST. I cannot allow myself to continue to indulge in this illegal substances to temporarily make me feel better make me feel special make me feel extremely desensitized from my current problems I cannot afford to keep running like a ******* coward I must learn to face Life on Life terms...maintain my impulses under control retain my spiritual growth and keep grinding towards keeping my commitment to myself to NOT use anymore because it's slowly making me evil more devilish more violent more sinful and in the end it's just killing me to know I am not practicing self care nor loving myself enough to NOT practice this erroneous behavior that it's making me hate myself more and more daily because it's total insanity to continue to contribute to slowly **** myself due to the fact am literally paying for death every time I use drugs to deal with Life. A decade of this **** **** am so done with it... please Holy God take this punishment away from your Son who without fail believes in you loves you and has unfailing faith that does NOT shake because I rely on Christ to keep me alive and well. Enough of this madness I have walked thru enough darkness to know that am literally losing my willpower to maintain my health, happiness, comfort, belief, faith and livelihood. God I pray thee you relieve my destructive addiction and relieve my painful past allow me to LET IT GO...I know I will continue to fight this enormous disease with a strong composure and continue to sanctify my temple slowly but surely...God May You Walk With Me Thru This Journey Now & Till My Death. Amen!!!
This is the other me The fake me The real me The screaming The crying The Chain Smoking Cigarettes so I can Hurry Up Dying
Bitterly Hopeless Sweetly Toxic Maybe if I stare enough You'll finally u n l o c k it The secret I've buried The one that I wish I had never seen The secret I've carried I spill my veins on the floor, u n c l e a n Hoping my insides Drown Me Praying you forgot the key Because you know what I know The lie that I told It's Rotted And Empty Hollow like my head could be So hurry, run, go Before you understand