You want the thought to go away
The little angel in your mind
You know you could have held her
Could have sung her lullabies

You could have cradled her to sleep
So tiny in your arms
So beautiful; extravagant
You would have kept her safe from harm

You could have kissed her little cheeks
Even rocked her when she cried
But now it's just a "could have"
And it keeps you up at night

But please don't blame yourself
You did what you had to do
The wound is new, but I promise in time
You will have forgiven you
my heart burns as your name glows across my screen
the memories all come flowing back to me
the heartbreak you brought me
the internal pain that now stays within me
the gut wrenching regret that won't leave my mind
i see your name and can't help but feel all those feelings again
all the different emotions come flooding through my unhealed wounds
the wounds that you gave me
the wounds that had almost healed
the wounds that you just reopened
from those two words that appear across my screen
those two words that never fail to bring back a world of pain
those two words that just so happen to be your name.
She popped pills
To catch thrills
Chasing dreams
While searching for something real
Addict is her identity
Chasing highs but end up catching lows
Empty was her heart
She fell in love With something that
tore her apart
Popping pills to feed her ego
This addiction she didnt want let go
Now to the grave she goes
I speak my mind,
And I'm rewarded with blank stares.
"You're too young to not feel fine!"
Yet I wake up every day to despair.

I feel my hands trembling.
I see their confusion.
They aren't understanding.
They yell at me to come back in unison.

I'm only Thirteen,
And I feel as if I have the weight of the world,
Weighing down on me.
Suffocating me, blocking out all my words.

I write with my blood,
I've watched my arms be drained,
They see my cuts,
And ask me how it happened.

They think I'm too young to feel pain,
But I have it in Spades.
I can't tell them how it happened, so I run into the rain,
Panting, exhausted, and lost, just looking for somewhere to stay.

They don't understand,
Your just a kid,
Are you mad?
Just because I'm young doesn't stop pain from digging a pit for me.

I crawl into the pit every time,
Knowing it's the only peace I'll ever have,
Even if it is discomforting.
They see me suffer in silence, with a confused look, they'll never understand such a young soul to be tormented like this.
Haleigh 11h
I know what I said;
I know what I did.
Here you are claiming
It never happened.
I know how you are;
I know your routine.
Here you are claiming
You're not any different.
Here I am, alone,
In my perception.
Am I crazy,
Or just a victim of clever deception?
I've become someone I don't even recognize
I sometimes believed I deserved it when you would chastise
I want to be happy but in order to do that I would have to let you go
I can't tell anymore if I do things for love or if I'm just a "ho"
In your eyes I'm everything corrupt in life
All I am is one huge strife
I ask you , "What do you want from me?"
I heard only yelling none of it really matters now , all I wanted to do was flee
I just want to keep running until I don't feel anything at all
Sometimes I just give up to you , you just have such great thrall
You're the one who's always supposed to love me so if you can't even do that who can?
I found someone who could and I'm proving you wrong , even though I'm a little lost right now with no plan
I'll find my way and hopefully myself , and I hope it will give you time too
I'm tired of being hurt , crying , and believing in you changing and I'm just through
This one rhymes but still same concept
Deviate 13h
a striking slice along the creamy white
freckle galaxy that is my thighs

is this what i've become?

a dab of crimson, slow pour at first
then a scarlet waterfall, perfect picture of my pain.

why did i do this

throbbing pain, dulling my senses
my mind is numb, almost at ease.

it hurts, i knew it would

gently easing cotton over wound,
bittersweet burgundy blood, feeding into pristine purity

what have i done
Yeah, i stole the title from a taking back sunday song
How could you know
that your smile makes me sad?
I wonder why it is
that something so simple
so insignificant
can hurt me?

But I also wonder
why you wore that shirt today
what color are your socks
and do you like sugar in your tea

These are the questions that rack my brain
every night
every day
until the end of time I'll ask myself
how do you do it?
How do you bear the agony of your heart?

Please.

Please.

Tell me.

I hang on your every word
it's like sunshine dripping from your lips
and I'm so thirsty
i'm dying from a thirst I never knew existed
you fill me up
all warm feeling
sun belly

Please.

Let's just stay this way
I hate that I don’t
(or can’t)
trust you like I used to
But more than that
the thing that I hate
(or you hate)
is that I’m almost certain
you know
I wish we were already back to the way things were. I wish there wasn’t this fear in the back of my mind when I want to talk to you now
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