Before I met my wife I could move through life like a ghost on a painted landscape not seen by anyone, nobody knew me or didn't want to know me, but I didn't care me was me and all that mattered when met Helen all of sudden I was known by everyone couldn't walk down the street without being notice someone would recognise Helen we would stop-start all the time talking to people who didn't know me Helen's her friends suddenly became mine but when sadly Helen passed on slowly people have moved away from me I'm starting to become Invisible again to the world, very rarely stopped In the street now I don't have Helen I'm now again forgotten I can walk the street like ghost In a landscape painting you would have to look very closely to see me to most I'm no longer there free to roam the streets to shop never really being noticed and the best I don't really mind that much
Before my wife nobody knew me it perhaps didn't want to then with Helen suddenly known by all but now she gone the friends all gone but In a way can't say I mind
Through dreams, I'm trying to reach far beyond any logical reasoning to much different world
l suppose to time spent In fantasy land detached from reality but It seems to be the place I want to be right now
Feel comfortable away from the outside world an escape to where I don't feel I'm being dictated to
by people that think they have a God-given the right to tell us what to do People who think they have the right to tell when to eat what we eat when sleep when to wake when to talk, people who think we can't or don't have the Intelligence to make decisions for ourselves
the average person has far more Intelligence than all these clowns that making an absolute disaster of our country
and we all have to go down with this sinking ship that Is our country because of there stupidity and Inability of these clowns to run our country God help us all
The average person has far more Intelligence than they are given credit for they dictated to by clowns couldn't even run a bingo hall let alone the country
I tried I told you that you were worth it I didn't do enough I should've ran to you like I said I would I should have been there But I wasn't Instead I sat in my room and cried I'm no better than any of the other ones I have no reason It should've been me You're alive but you're not living anymore It's my fault I'm sorry
If I could only find a space in time to let you know what was on my mind But I could only tell you what I couldn't find I couldn't find the words to talk with I couldn't find a way to not feel awkward I said at the time I couldn't take any more of being morbid But just couldn't find the strength to move forward I couldn't feel the pain that I feel so I couldn't believe that anything was real I couldn't comprehend it all had to end and when I needed you the most I just couldn't find my friend I couldn't choose a life to take I couldn't sleep so I stayed awake I looked in this mirror But this couldn't be fake But this guy looking back It couldn't be Jake I couldn't detriate An I couldn't even think what the **** I had done I could think this was all just for fun But I JUST COULDNT STOP I couldn't keep it on the lowdown everything was on top But if I hadn't met you I couldn't of got what I got But I couldn't cry I couldn't laugh I couldn't fight I couldn't bath I couldn't try another path I couldn't ask Because who on earth is there to ask !
I... I dearly miss you Not because loving you brings me to life Not because you made me smile a little brighter Not because I once thought we were meant to be All these things made me desire your company But I unspokenly wanted all your attention If I had asked, would you have accepted?
Or would my greed and insecurities have driven you away? You knew my insecurities about my appearance my family my past
You took me as I was But I never found a common ground with you Keeping me in the dark about you Your attention Your Patience Your composure seemed to all be a facade I wouldn't notice thunderstorm in the background Of course, I notice I always wanted you to be truly happy A happiness that might not involve me Sadly with a smile, correct myself Will most definitely won't involve me if I catch a glimpse please let me smile and cry Let me drunkly sing to Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah
This will be my first Christmas in eight years withoutyou And it's nearly brought me to my knees I waited for you I waited The one thing you apparently can't do Everyone leaves Everyone EVERYONE LEAVES but . . . I never thought it would be you.
This will always be our season Even though You Lied, Love
To my dearest Jenny, you broke my heart tonight, love.