if the ocean would carry me
it'll collapse under the weight of my bones
made with cement and steel
and the burden each brick owns
witness the waves howler and scream
just like the heart caged in my chest
blood bubbling around the muscle
surging with every beat and protest
the bottom of the sea may be quiet
like my tongue folded neatly in my mouth
though feral beasts deep within
choke with pressure more than i can count
the ocean and i are seperate
both flowers from different gardens
one ephemeral, one wilting before your eyes
but both's head tilting up to the heavens
sorrowful eyes, swirling, storm awakening
chaos mingling betwixt water and blood
ravid souls in dire need of feeding
cursed and blessed by god
i wonder if i could carry the ocean
within just the corners of my palm
i and the ocean - we are one
a catastrophe after the calm
She'll make you believe in
Causing bad vision
Blurring your thoughts
Poison your decisions
She snakes her way in,
Seductive and smooth
You fall into her eyes
Not feeling the chew
All the way in,
Crushing your insides
Surrounded by darkness
Having no time to realize
You given to her
It's not that I don't love you
I just don't know how to show it
I'm not used to this
Maybe I never will be
That doesn't mean I'm cold
I hope I grow into this
It's all still new to me
Showing emotions and
For I've never done it
Nor have I ever felt it
I hope you understand that
I'll always hold on to you
You're the best thing that's ever happened
It might not show on my face
But if only you could see my heart
The situation I wish I could revise
I feel bad for the pain I've caused u two guys
"My life is worse"
But you don't know that my life feels like a curse
You definitely trust me
I could hardly agree
I have cheated and lied
Your revenge was that I cried and cried
People say I'm so pretty
I don't agree so they give me pity
Why try to mend our relations
If you still have the same temptations
I often get jealous of this rondo girl
She makes me so mad I wanna hurl
To you guys I'm only a number
You only care if you lie with me where I get slumber
Your friends humor is quite funny
They like to say I'm pretty "yummy"
For they shout "nice jugs"
"Hey fat ass, nice but"
Your love is my drug
But your attention is my slut
By Arcassin Burnham
i don't wanna ever let go of the dreams that you and me have,
seeing you cry brings me so much sorrow and hell on your behave,
simply making sure of the light that you conjure up in your hands,
standing here naked and afraid , just take me if you can,
and i hope that its enough,
i'm looking up,
to paradise,that's built for us,
in an uproar,
too many stars,
if we ever break,then its pretty far,
did you forget blake,or sean,or ethan,
They said they loved you,they didn't mean it,
i'll always be here,til your existence,
is nothing more,than messy ditches,
and i hope this is enough,
i'm looking up,
i'll be right here with you babe til you say its enough,
there is so much stuff,
that i want to share,
your worth is important,
and you know i care but i hope that its enough.
I don't want to feel this anymore-
That emptiness I felt as I walked out your door.
You were so kind when telling me to go.
Trying to make it less of a blow.
I know you meant well, but I'm two steps ahead.
I knew this would happen the second I layed in your bed.
And I don't know why.
It's not like we even really said goodbye.
"I'll see you tomorrow!", you assured.
But my heart still sank; I felt insecure.
With shoulders slumped, I moped out the door.
I'm a fool for even thinking we'd be more-
Than something you needed-
Than something you tried-
For a second there, I made you feel alive.
Until you were bored and sent me away.
I get it, you still love me, but in a different kind of way.
They pull on me constantly
attack my worst fears
feed on my pain
feed on my tears
They drive me insane
the way they put bad thoughts in my head
I feel myself going under
I feel myself dying in this bed
I cannot wake myself up
no matter how hard I try
I cannot shake these feelings
I am destroyed in the blink of an eye
I do not know what to do
and no one will help me
maybe I should just accept this as what it is
and let it be.
A transparent figure in an empty classroom
a heart beats loudly as it disappears into a
line of shadows on the wall.
A circle of girls on the field tossing balls
a wandering eye screams loudly and a
hand dips into the water.
A crowd of boys gather round computers
an eavesdropping eyelash screams loudly
as elbows emit white noise.
A hesitant child haunts hollow throats
a shy nose dares not breath loudly while
an earring doesn't fit in.
A hole closes in the gaps between shoes
a right foot finds its place and a fallen
button loses its stitches.