Consider consider consider reconsidering
Listen to every single word I say, don’t look at the facts
You’ll be under my wing, sweet little singer
Reverse reverse reverse reversing
Laughing at the television that infects brains with little bugs
Teaching your baby mind how to control your arms and legs
Walk this way, and believe these things are your relief
Talking to drugs, ask ‘em about the way they control the world
Taking over, we’re under over the years

I went to sleep and dreamt of a maze
At the end of it was promised to be everything I wanted
I thought it would be
Peace, optimism, and achieved goals
And it was.
Wrapped all into one boy

Let me explain something
I turned around and decided to make a home in the maze
Because I didn't deserve everything I wanted.

It seems I would do anything to feel more alive
They say, I know no one knows me, but they say I can be
Brand new and I can fight, but what the hell am I fighting for?

Remember the moment
You know exactly where you're going,
'Cause the next moment,
Before you know it, time is slowing
And it's frozen still,
And the window sill looks really nice, right?
You think twice about your life,
It probably happens at night,
Right?

Fight it,
Take the pain, ignite it,
Tie a noose around your mind
Loose enough to breathe fine and tie it
To a tree. Tell it, "You belong to me.
This ain't a noose, this is a leash.
And I have news for you: you must obey me."

I wish I didn't remember last night
but I do and I feel so
I don't know
I want it out of my head
or to smash my head

My emotions are pulling me different ways
When my monsters want to play, my lips want to explore
Endings are so ******* frayed, do you want to be me?
When you're in the sky, and your hands are on my waist
And it feels great, to be numb
No strings attached, you left me begging for more
I don't need you
I just need the numbness and the happiness

Stop saying it does not matter,
for you are the epitome of who I want to be
Maybe if you took in a breath more
You'd grow out of this darkness

Say it does not matter,
I don't want to be around you right now
Make yourself choke on all the words you spoke
You could learn how to stop being so immature

Attempts for apologies
Leave us no room for where we wanna be
I just want to be apart of these midnight fights
and the late night laughter

I want to be apart
of being gone

Things are skewed in little ways
That we are believed to think everything's okay.
First things first,
Why the hell is it so shocking that my parents are still together?
Why is a normal question "are your parents divorced?"
Is it because a lot of people lose feelings for the first person they married?
Do they love the person or are they bored?
Or maybe one of them finally showed their true colors
In the mindset their partner can't run away.

While we are on marriage,
Why is it okay for some people to love someone
But others can't?
I think you know where I'm going.
Only recently did the marriage discrimination stop.
But in my state, there no breath of fresh air

The ones who seem to love more,
Can't lock their lives together
Just because it's wrong in the eyes of God,
But these people sure weren't preaching when they gossip, lied, or stole

One last thing, is it normal for a college student to struggle?
Why is it normal for them to be thousands of dollars in debt for the rest of their lives,
even when they have scholars ships and finical aid?
Because books and food aren't free,
Older generations critise them
When college student still live with their parents.
Older generations critise them
When they move out and stuggle
In the economic trap that the older generation set.

Oh no I'm getting too obsessive
He's not even "into me"
He's such a good guy,
I should try to talk to him everyday.
Okay. No. You're lucky you're friends.
This other boy likes this singer I like
It's enough to empty my mind,
Nails into the mattress ..
The way he keeeps digging his way back into my conscience,
he doesnt think about me like this.
I can choose another drink,
This boy in the Nike grey sweats at the gym,
He can help me forget that
this boy is everything I need.

Definitely shouldn't get caught up.

Stay up for a good few hours just to talk
Smoke cigarettes and wonder if you even remember me the next day
Or am I like that girl in your phone that sent you a text
And you closed your eyes and tried your best
But nothing came to you.
Is this all the same to you?
Either way, your past didn't give you depth.
its way too easy for me to forget you.

Let me confess myself on social media
I gotta explain how,
I make hints all the time on Twitter.
Shooting out tweets with song lyrics and
Saying how caught up with you I still I am...
Oh yeah, that conversation we had about half a year ago
About what could've been almost two years ago...
Im secretly trying to avoid going to deep in to this.
Facebook told me my soulmate name begins with a
Ready? "m"
I wanted to begin with you.
I'm beginning to think that all the relationship I've had
Don't work out because of you.
You're too big in my life.
But you've got a good thing going for you,
And that's all that matters

When you're around, it opens old wounds
but our words always seem to find each other
You make me feel sad, happy, angry, and alive
all at once
and my tongue gets so *******
tell me, tell me, tell me,
is the riot worth the both of us

i wonder if i would have made it in this site,
if the "request to join" button was always there.
my form of poetry is different,
it's reassurance to have a community outlet
with the option of keeping anonymous.

i wonder what the administrators idea of a worthy poem is
and how they rate it to let people in

I begged for hope
I pleaded for mercy
But you said some things are better
When they find how to fall apart
I contemplated you and listed you off
But you said lists are better off unfinished
I begged for love
I pleaded for change
There’s more than I bargained for
You’ve turned out to have a broken bone
It took a place where your heart should be
I wanted love, change, mercy, and hope
But you spewed a ****** mess
You gave me hate, routine, ******, and sadness
For that I never saw your full potential
You shine bright with dull nostalgia
But you stabbed the ones you loved
You shine so bright
But your evil covers it up
You had shone so bright
But you all knew for the best

Sing until your lungs collapse
Let the smoke in the air surround you
Because baby, tonight, you're surrounded by maps
Your eyes are seeing everything in a different hue,
but it's alright
Now darling, music makes it all better
Sing until your head hurts
keep singing,
Keep running,
and now you'll know how it feels
to make reality a nice place to be

Lately. It's been easier to keep things to myself.
I don't want your advice.
All I wanted to do was vent
It's so much easier if I don't speak
So I won't have to answer your questions.

We are bigger than ourselves,
Bigger than this town.
I couldn't find a single business sign
that was completely lit up.
But theres blue lights all around, constantly.
The kids go to college in hopes of someday leaving,
some kids grow their roots right where they are.

I am so much bigger than my bones,
and I'm trying to burn my roots,
so if you see me go up in flames,
just know that i will be okay

I couldn't care less about your political party,
I care that you don't see another human as human,
I care you stand with someone who believes love can be directed by electric shocks to the head
I care that you support someone who openly took the KKKs support,
And the supporters burned down a POCs church.

I don't care what party you stand for,
But it worries me that you could possibly talk good of someone that
Is being tried for sexually assaulting women and children.
How could you want these actions to represent you?
Why do you want this to be more normalized in our society?
Why do you want religion to be restricted to just what you believe?

This is blind support built with a foundation of love for hate.

I wanna impress you,
but I don't want to lose myself
I've been on my own for so long
I keep telling myself I can stay like this
But I feel so ridiculous with invincibility
Itching on my skin, knowing you can't possibly
feel the same?
I blush and I try to go numb again but
What use is it?
I'm losing my mind.

how does she feel when she is numb
she never gave a boy a second glance,
never cared enough about love,
but around him she feels invincible
she blushes at the slightest touch
and she feels so stupid, she feels
so confused, because she doesn't
understand and she doesn't
need to accept where
her emotions are
running

Ohmygod
I'm sick of this
You know what I mean?
People who are purposely cookie cutter &
Afraid. If you step out the lines, someone
May not approve. I'm gonna say this again in
Different form.
If you're in this for approval, you may be diagnosed with: someone else's life
Side effects include: not living for yourself, depending on others, and being too scared to grow.
They say "youlaughcausesomethingilaugh because you're all the samestayweirdbedifferent"
And ohmygod I've heard it all before and it doesn't end

They tell each other to be different all in the same voice
DoyouknowwhatImean
Oh no I'm not searching for approval
But I don't mind respect, but
I won't beg for your time

even during the difficult times,
please keep love in your heart.
breeding hate is what they're trying to do.

nights like these the stars and fireflies look all the same
and my days become my dreams
well I learned where to go, but never where to stand
and I can't take a break from the world's weight leaning on me
because I am barely crawling through this life
but that's not the way this should be spent

No one would bother to read between the lines
I am and I was always be washed up
can't speak the way I never have
and I can only think to think less about my words
speaking with a heavy heart to throw away the sun

we learned what love is, but never how to feel it
and some people will never know

You’re the sun in the rain and I just can’t resist
A little heart ache will only do the trick,
Up and down, darling, we’re in the corners
Lurking and waiting we play the monsters
We play the monsters and they don’t have a choice
This evil from us will consist
You’re going to all miss this
You’re the metal to the skin of your animals
They look to you and you ruin them well
Starve yourself for tomorrow’s pleasure,
Do you believe a parade will come on your stormy day,
‘cause it’s a stormy day and you’re not here
You’re the rocks on the ground,
So they kick you around
We supported each other, but I threw you far
I’m alone, tonight, isn’t it tragic?
I’m the rain covering the sun and I just can’t help it,
I’m bound to **** and I’ll ruin it all.
Look around, baby, I am the end,
Lurking and waiting, I’ll cause your heart ache
These tricks from me will continue
But, sweet heart, don’t be misguided,
For you are the one that I miss the most

Maybe I'll be okay in the end.
I broke a lot of rules to feel alive,
Built my walls up high, just to wish for love
I'm still so fragile, but I was never molded from stone
Perhaps this is only the beginning, and maybe
I'm only learning how to stand
Still, I can hope that in the end,
it all gets strung together.
I need something to make sense, for once.

Hours moved to minutes
Time froze again
Then seconds turned to hours
and you're feeling trapped again
right down to your bones, in constricting skin
you never know what you're gonna do
you barely manage to roll words off your tongue anymore
running out of time
you pick up your feet and
it's all over for you

I will individually message you
So you'll understand
Why he's my oppressor

I just pray they understand

My heart is out of beat again,
Between the thuds, screaming secrets
The only thing I ever can do to make it quiet,
is get it beating faster
So let's get drunk and higher
and run through the roads towards fast cars

Watch us decay, watch us as we forget who we were
When we were younger, we had real bright futures,
Yeah, we were gonna grow up to be doctors and lawyers, something like that
But we sat outside too long, held hands and watched it collapse.

She said 'The Earth has a lot of nerve, to fall apart on us like this."
We didn't know we were to blame, so we only let it happen
Spent the summer with no hope left to our name,
Left the winter with enough coffee and liquor to **** anyone's brain

The walls closed in around us,
Where the hell were we supposed to go?
We have a lot to be okay with now, don't you think?

As I close my eyes, I go on a ride
I see the world, and I see things on other planets
Movies and movie stars that are yet to be alive
But then I realize I have not lived
And I opened my eyes,
To see my bedroom walls
Soon I realize all the people I know right now
Talking to them, thinking it matters right now
That I’m 16 years old and laughing at all the jokes
Taking into consideration of their feelings,
Praying their happiness is over the limit
Saving another life, keeping their hearts in a bag
And how I know that I will someday be 80 years old and alone
So I thought to myself “Why not end it now?”

water is gasoline
and i'm steady drinking it.

my necklace is noose,
i'm waiting to slip.

my bracelets as razors,
pressed up against me.

cigarettes as car exhaust
when i watch it fill the dead air,
i breathe deeper.

and i stop all together.
there was something about
feeling close to death.

i search for that feeling on the edge of tall buildings.

and i'm always on the edge.

Checked my list, realized I've done half the things I wanted to
Got a few cents to save before I leave this place
Atleast I get to claim that through all the terrible thoughts,
Through all the turmoil and self hate

So we get to the point of the goodbyes,
In the next couple of years, the kids I sung my heart out with
I won't want to look at their faces
Haven't got a problem with letting you go,

I can let go of all the times we shared,
Sparklers, skateboards, late nights in the rain.
Too cold, too numb, too happy to feel.
We spin, we kiss, we cry.
Felt alive, even.
But I won't miss you, though I may think about you.

Originality is making comparisons to the stars and watching the sky
Do you see how beautiful a sentence can be
Just by writing in the setting sun only a lie?

and everyone began to taste the same
Glazed in alcohol, salted in legal drugs
I never tasted the sunshine again.
they gave me a needle to pick a bone
They gave me a needle to inject my medicine
And my dosage weighed heavily with invincibility.
I told them "no, I never want to feel like that again.
I'm trying to be real. No, I got who I need to get me through this,"
I said. "You want me dead"
And every kiss felt the same.
All their lips were chapped and tasted like
Worn out strawberry sweets.
I said, don't go easy on me, babe.
I love the crazy, it fuels me up
Told you go away, you're insane
He told me stick around, babe
And no one has bit me quite like you since.

don't act like you didn't have your eyes glued to me
we were sharing a cigarette and making fun of our past
talking about her without speaking a name,
and i could tell you were falling apart trying not to fall in love.
she's such a terrible person,
does it make me better if i'm really apart of her plan?

What kind of person would I be?
If I could describe the way the relapse feels,
Going back to my old self,
People look at me again.
What else will I do,
To please everyone.
These headaches make me who I am,
Incoherent mind that others can see
My thoughts float around, and my voice is so weak.
Just another scar, just another pill, and little more smoke.
Makes the ones around me so much more happier.

You could starve by searching the world
for someone who picks their words
just like you
and sometimes you make me laugh
with your coffee stained teeth
I hang onto every word that slips out
even though you think I forget
and I know I know I know
you can't knock me out some nights
after all the drinking, its better to pretend
this all means nothing
because truth be told it's so difficult for me
to love and so many people have tried
to break through my skin
you help me forget it all
and you make me crazy

everything in this town is so messed up
the sun struggles to rise
as church goers gossip
about the pregnant 13 year old's
3rd child
this county is so ****** up
there's more drugs and lies than you could imagine
and the dealers are the ones that own the gas station
everyone is trying so hard to get by
and in my town there's 400 people(estimate)
I hear emergency sirens everyday
but Im forced to love it here
until I get away

I'm ready to get the **** out of this ****** town,
out of this house, but I'm so young
Can't make my own decisions,
because all I do is make so many ******* mistakes
and what's the point?
my future is all I have
**** the people here
**** my friends
**** money
**** the bills my parents pay
**** it all
I only want to be free

I don't know about you,
but I love watching the sunrise

washing my sheets
changing them, and watching the puppy
search for the old smell,
roll around in the new one

I adore seeing orange and blue
intertwine in the sky

I think it's funny,
listening to my mother scream
over fries, because I know I can
make her laugh again if I'm patient

I think hair is beautiful,
when it's wild and free
not held down by the millions of chemicals

I take in the moments when there is a hurricane
no one drives past my house during these times
so I lay in the road until I hear trees begin to crack
and sit under the carport, letting the rain brush me

I love spending all day,
writing quotes down in a notebook
reading poems and thinking
about inspiration, why they chose
the words they did

I love the bonfires on summer nights
because no matter how far you get from the fire,
you stay warm

I am grateful I can walk through the forest
jump over streams
and climb the trees

I admire the way smoothies taste
when you have a bad hangover
(or at any other time too)

I love to run until my feet turn red
because I love to watch the world
fly by me, and know that it is endless

I could probably list and list
go on forever
because I think they're all wonderful

I believe having a relapse with a blade across your skin,
No matter how bad it is, there's scars to remind you
Remind you of the events that caused that scar
Remind you of how you felt
The scars keep you from feeling okay
I want you to know this, next time you think about it
Think of the way you'll feel when it's over with,
your skin will be ruined, and you won't feel anymore beautiful

If I could beg you not to go,
Would you stay all night and day?
We could do things like we used to,
But we both know it won’t be the same.
Still here we are, holding on.
I don’t want you to end who you are when you have more than you think
A little escape, you’re not temporarily gone.

It is not something that can be pulled at, or eaten away by a vulture. Not something that hope that shape and transform and turn into happiness. Listening to solutions over and over again, may bring your self destruction, but of course, who can actually help you? There is a thin line between all that you could feel and explore. The world is waiting for you to go and say hello, and stop hiding away. Because you have to know to ignore the negative, and highlight to the positive. Treat your self, lose weight to feel better about yourself, but take the healthy way. You need to learn to love yourself, because looking in the mirror and hurting the person who's staring back is not how you would treat everyone else, but I know it hurts when your bones are breaking under the pressure of living, but here's where the saddest part is, you absolutely have to be willing to be everything you wished, because you can't stay the way you are, right? It is a hardworking process, in the end, its worth it.

My lips are to the paper.
I inhale and exhale tiny coughs.

For a moment, I'm a gypsy.
but I stand still.
I stop myself from moving from where I am
Because I'm happy,
My surroundings become stale.

I press the pen to the paper
I breathe in shaky breaths,
And wonder why
My head feels so loose.
I wonder how
I can act like I feel so alive,
And feel absolutely nothing.

I stop myself from thinking
By pressing my lips against a bottle sometimes
I need the sadness just to know I'm alive.

there's circles written around my eyes
people see it as something for them to solve,
like a riddle they can't even read.
but the clearer they see, the less they like.

they tell me i'm too much too handle,
they leave when they tell me i snap too easy
they leave when they realize they can't play with my head
they leave when i don't change my ways

and all i have to say is
i live for myself, not you.
so their defensive minds deem it selfish
they leave

I woke up this morning, and everyone was gone by noon
But the conversations that fell over and over spoke to me in more ways than one
After playing War Craft, progressing to a drinking game version of monopoly,
and a stupid card game, never settling on any thing,
Across The Universe settled us down for two minutes, but the conversation never ran low
Now I have videos on my camera I'd rather dispose of but the memories make it worth it
And some day, I hope I can remember nights like these,
The one's where I could stare at the ceiling and see constellations
Even when there are only fake stars
I hope walking across a busy town at night
Just to go to one place, stays in my memory
Some day it may be only a story,
but the stories may never stop

The words that were never said
Could have brought so much joy,
if I hadn't forgotten how to say them

and I feel like I'm on a roller coaster
that scares you and you can't get off
no matter how much you yell at the carney

realization sets in that I'm wasting away,
and I'll fall apart

I didn't mean to complain about this town,
or my friends
I just couldn't see with such selfish eyes

I figured if I tried hard enough,
the world would be handed to me.

Never ever did I think I'd be trying to remember
all the names of the people I've kissed

all this time spent trying to help everyone and myself
i'm going insane
I don't want to disappoint anyone,
but I let the sadness eat me alive
and I can't go outside without feeling like
the sky is mocking me with its constant brightness and darks

I don't know who I am,
but someone useless

call me your strawberry tea
tell me I taste worst than carrot water
grow me, defend me
savour the way we keep getting softer

puncture the herbs
break the stems
wrap your words
sweep away any trace of the trim

break me, baby
feel my skin, warmer than your water
you're so *****,
and i'll pour a spring shower

we didn't want to you to OD
and have your mother crying
saying she'd do anything to have you back

all these nights i'm losing sleep
i wish it was all a dream
but white lines don't numb dark times
even the lightest mind gonna hang around the dark sometimes
and you fought hard for yours

all of a sudden everyone's mentioning your name,
each time it's said,
it hurts
it just shows me that my life will never be the same

knew you were drifting and you wouldn't live forever
but please let me know if it ever gets better
when you find a way out of your head,
cause i'd do anything for a way out of my head right now

A couple of years ago I learned the worse thing someone could do
Every single person wants to be better than the other
As we envy the greater ones
And get angry at the ones who attempt to be better
But never work at it
So we compare ourselves to each other
Never growing to our own full potiental
We could be so much more
And you, you could shake the world with your wonderfulness
if you only stopped comparing yourself to someone else