I close my eyes to pictures of my past life running through my mind almost
like watching a film stopping at the various point
to relive beautiful moments shared with Helen
The very first time I saw her as school girl not knowing she would become my
wife
Many years later the first time we met, the time we sat In a parked snow falling bitterly cold then walking her back
home looking into her eyes and knowing I would marry this girl she would have my baby the wedding
day reception held In our back
garden such a warm sunny day how lucky we were that day unforgettable dream and wonderful memories that will stay with me forever
whilst awake or In
sleep

She was my everything all that I knew never loved
another Helen being my first love, my only true love, stayed that way to the end
It was Helen that taught me all about love for I knew nothing about It, for I'd never been loved until I met my Helen
For she changed my life and now she gone left life here forever, taking so much of me with
her
And what's left of me will forever be struggling to cope with the loss for my darling
Has left me to face life here all alone together forever but won't be In life but maybe the next

I said I was sorry I lied
because my Truth clenched your throat so tight, I immediately let it go and made myself feel the shame;
How dare sit and I watch your lips turn blue to purple and simply marvel at how beautifully they seemed to resemble the sky turn day to night?

I said I was sorry I loved and blackened my heart to match the pit of your soul your eyes let slip,
and I was disgusted with myself as you tugged and toiled at my soul, and I let you.

My love was always real, and my words always true;
Deep down I knew you knew.

I'm not sorry you're broken 'cause I'm more broken than you.
I'm not sorry you made me think I'm what broke you;
I'm just sorry I let you

I'm not sorry you made me feel like I left you,
I'm just sorry I let you.