I feel like I'm taking attention away from him. attention I know teenagers so desperately need at the age of 15, he says it's okay. but I know its not.
at the age of 17 I am being treated as if I will break at any moment. my brother who is only 15 puts me in a safe spot along with all the other delicate things in our home, right next to my mothers good china.
at the age of 14 my brother witnessed my first suicide attempt. he held me in his arms *** my mother tried to make me throw up. at the age of 14 he almost lost his sister.
so when I start smiling less and caring about myself less he notices, and attempts to make me laugh. all I do is give him a weak smile.
the smile he had on his face when I went to his orchestra concert after isolating myself in my room in autumn, warmed my chest.
a good sister is what I want to be.
someone who will be there and not take anymore of my mothers attention from him.
I want to pay him back for being there for me through all of those dark times, but first I need to learn how to be a good sister.
its 12am and I only ate 8 doritos so please excuse any mistakes or whatever
Every day I sing In praise to my sweetheart deserved so much more In life than she ever received there Is no justice In this world to which we live
A world I'm not to keen on anymore when I see the way the misfortunate of our society are treated they are cast-aside as If of little Importance for God shake they fellow humans
What Is wrong with our society that allows this to happen shame on those Involved who make these poor people lives so miserably
We send out foreign aid nothing wrong In that but we don't take of our own It's as the authorities are ashamed of the situation but don't want to admit to it or the big part In causing the terrible suffering they have created I'm lost for words
So much unnecessary suffering to our fellow humans at times It almost Unbelievable the suffering
eyes so deep and blue as though the sky in a humid morning eyes so deep and blue as though the vast ocean, scary yet calming so deep, i'd dive in the universe they hold so blue, it colored my monochromatic world