fall-flowering leaves –
unfurled by arms of sylvan charm,
sent to places i once was and now wish to be,
breathing back in a better life.
woven branches beckon cascading sunlight –
holes pocket galaxies,
time, and age-old questions,
like the ones you’ve got caught inside your throat,
and so i’ll hold you for a lifetime of forevers,
between my fingers and in my palms –
I saw you pass by,
and while I follow your gaze I know that your light feeds me,
that your very presence is a mixture of my turbulent loneliness.
Your memory gives me mental calmness,
While i trying to define how you light up
and blur the rest of the galaxy in anesthesia.
And then there's only you,
You, elegant and absent
without being aware of having turned every corner of my mind.
You, walking indifferent
making people into inert statues
before the light that you give off.
I have never had you
And even so I miss you
it's this blessed poison
it's the craziness I inhabit
it makes me want to be good.
And i would be more between your fingers.
You, impossible as the sky,
unachievable as the past,
And me as far from death when I dream of you by my side.
"Gunshots and gun wounds
Yeah, as time goes on the reality that we are nothing sets in
It's a fire to be put out, but it's a part of us all the same
Hey. It's what I live for to be challenged and crushed by truant fools and falsehood names
But then I saw the closer tides going out-
And I was angry, having fear and doubt
Why enter my life just to leave so quick
Calling back to new things? - frick that makes me sick
I mean, I can understand children cutting off their own hands
(It's not a literal thing, but a drawing in the sand)
But such a strong connection, oh my- what a collection
And as the shelf falls off the wall
I can't help but think of myself as small
Porcelain pieces strewn across the floor
Such loud noise, you can't possibly ignore
But you do.
So silent and uncaring, a bountiful tree no fruit baring
Let me steal back the flowers
Endless hours, counted by the flowers
So mighty was your name, banner brought no blame
The same in shape all over
Clover four leafed, created the world- the world over
Show her my life, as you would have given
It's okay I guess, as long as she lives
And doesn't take as much structure infection
As the tower you once called an amalgamate effort."