I think about the things we’ve said The words that echo in my head The promises. The time we met I held your hand I thought it always be this way I was wrong I’d never want to erase Our memories Or think that you would want The same Antio sas My sweet dame This is me saying No màs, my friend Ive given up On our love that wasn’t there I was so wrong
As I sit here and stir thinking about how much I miss them. I begin to realize. They have been replacements for the two people I missed and loved the most. KD and CB. But it still hurts. All of this still hurts.
Your voice in my ear, makes my heart stop beating, I push back my liquid sorrow, You post about her, • Your smile on your face, makes my heart stop beating, I push back all my joy, You talk about her, • Your angered texts on my phone, makes my heart stop beating, I push back hope, You swoon over her •
Sometimes, even when I feel I’m numb Even when the blood drips down my arm Drips off the tip of my thumb You’re still there
Sometime in the last year you saved me Even when I wanted so badly to die You told me not to leave You were there
Somewhere along the way you became important You’d given me hope that I could live Even if I said “I can’t” You were there
Somehow you went from friend to Family But a better family than I’d ever had You felt like an anomaly You were there
For some reason Somehow Somewhere Sometime ago You stayed
And you’re still here
Some may view this as speaking about a spouse or boufriend/girlfriend or some other form of romantic relationship. And some will see the truth. That this is purely about friendship and the fact that this person saved me in the past and continues to save me in the present. In every way possible I am grateful to them and I love them with everything I have.
This memory of us which I do not share Hold onto beyon depths of all ruts A moment that felt of sincere The most secure About what you mean to me And remain a place in heart Honestly didn’t expect , so this memory I’ve never shared revealing my moment of true care for you removing years of doubt I always felt Everything changed What was always said, the real meaning of true friendship was no longer just words But something that I felt and now understood Cause we always mistook things that weren’t even spoke Giving us a taste of the sandyhook Remaining alive , center of the disasterous path it weaved Leaving speechless on how to rebuild Attempt to heal things not meant Hospital bed, coming to side ; squeezing in as I lean at your chest Then began a quick rest You never spoke , not even a sound Remained still though cramped in that tiny patients waiting bed Time going by Still no sign of you even being real You remain still I assumed you were in own zone Don’t know if you felt some wave of what i consumed in something of so many things that were all too real and hard to reveal Cause it had feels A friendship I never believed Disregarding your words of expressed care and love that you shared for the bond we built a friendship that be constantly stalled in building up. I ****** up and thought too much Made myself think I was Trippen on what I felt It wasn’t real Something in Munich head Cause you weren’t really all there You were no where near And silenced vibes no physical motions Made me feel I was honestly on my own Just with physical feel cause the owner mind and soul were off seeking some guy and struggling its own mind of so many past nights I killed my feelings of real and moment of love in the doing at being to my side cause there’s never been such type of cool connection in relating to us . Exsistent in present time I’ll never know Nor do I wish an answer to provide clarity of mind Whatever it be You there with me and all Or simply gone out in another realm Doesn’t matter at the end Cause was I cherish to the most And never exposed Means so much to me Not even this of what I write can really Tell how I feel and felt What change it made The vibe of friendship once filled of doubt and thoughts of lies Now washed , given little trace and Added feels of a bit more to be some home Knowing the battles we will fight Won’t diminish our care and love We will always remain great friends Even when things are not said Or if we go dead But that I added as a last minute joke cause well I don’t do closings to my feels all great and **** But that’s how you know it’s real A random close to something meant to be forreal So swoopesdela- ooomf
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