A million little thoughts, their heads cut off, all running laps around my crowded skull and multiplying, unlit Molotov. I feel like i'm going insane, it’s awful to be in this headspace of anxiousness, just waiting for the straw to break my back, always one second from the bright abyss. It could be that I just need to cutback Or maybe what i need is just to go, I'll drive until I can't and then I'll run. I’ll up and leave everything that I know to find the path that's not a loaded gun. I can't imagine asking for all this, God let me meet peace with a final kiss.
Did you see that girl who was skinny as can be Showing us all that she had a sickness she couldn’t see Chasing death on the trails She runs to stop feeling full Wish she could see that she is sick as can be As everyone else can see
Wishing that she could see if she was skinny as can be So she avoids the food in fear that they will see the fat that she can see but she is skinny as can be and sick but she cant see
Hungry to the point that all she can see Is that this could make her skinny as can be only dreading the next meal that she "doesn't" need so sick that see can't see that she really is skinny as can be
" oh I'm not hungry you see" her favorite words to say when others can see that she is skinny as can be Her so called friend Ana who doesn't want her to see that she is sick and will never see
So she'll keep counting the calories and hoping they don't see The fat that her and Ana can see She'll keep running those trails But death has nearly got her by the heels Because she is sick and can't see
They say you don't know what you have til it's gone Can only see it after you have moved on Find the truth a millisecond too late Realizing love you let go was already great Just by looking at the past it's clear we were meant to be But your curiosity and doubt caused you to set me free You put on your shoes and walked out the door Now you waltz back in expecting things to be like before I've always felt the same about you and I will until I die But that doesn't mean I should let your behavior make me cry I need to respect myself enough to finally walk away Because my heart is not a deck of cards or an instrument to play Nobody else will ever be able to make my eyes light up like you But I am sick of being taken for granted and that's what you consistently do I am drawn to your presence worse than a moth to flame But if I go running back to you I have no one but myself to blame
But you are an electric bug zapper and I am about to get electrocuted
How did I walk 37 miles in 19 hours? How did I bike 90 miles in 11 hours? ... Inhale in nose, exhale in nose 4x Inhale in nose, exhale in mouth 4x Inhale in mouth, exhale in nose 4x Inhale in mouth, exhale in mouth 4x And repeat.
You just need enough food and water and a pair of soft and hard soled shoes.