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help me remember you he said
"distract your mind
keep your eyes focused on me
think about my touch
my hand and the feeling i give you
the chills that run into your stomach when i say i love you
keep focused on me
think about my eyes
how deep and brown they are
how you believe they are one of a kind
how they remind you of chocolate from valentines day
sweet, gentle and meaningful
keep focused on me
think about the day on the beach
where sand stuck to my warm sun kissed body
how my freckles showed threw my tan skin
as the waves washed over me i was renewed"

New Day

Today's a new day,
Generious and fresh.
I'll scribble a new line on this page,
Crumble it up and toss it away.

An ever changing book,
For the story never ends.
Comedy and tradegies,
All the things that belong to me.

My odyssey's etched in stone,
Tied to my ankle and tossed in the sea.
I'm drowing, clawing at nothing, fading.
Lost in the rhythm of the Ocean Blues,
Floating into a current, but still I drown.

And I'm lonely.

But...

Not when you hold me.

How many moons has it been?
I try to count the stars,
But your face resides in them.

You told me not to hold on,
But still I hear that same song...
So, I guess I'll cut my ties
And to the river of this vibe,
We'll float on.

I miss you.

I vividly remember the nights
You spent by my side
But you never spent nights
You only spent a couple of hours
As if the parking meter
Would be running out soon
Minimal conversation
And oh how I tried
But it always led to you
Pushing onto me
You pulled, grabbed, and moaned
As I laid there mimicking
The noises I know
You've listened to
And lusted for
Since you were young
And that's what's so wrong with today
I have been taught to be used
And you have been brainwashed
With media of false love
Yet we continue to give in
We accept outwardly what we are given
But inwardly reflect otherwise
Because every night after you left
I took what was left of me
And washed all of your touch away
The running hot water
Replaced the warmth I longed for
What you would not provide
And I know you're in the past
And I know this shit can happen
But I just can't help but remember
And play it all over and over again

i didn't forget about you
i made you quiet
i made you entirely mine
inside of my head
where you stayed
for as long as i wanted you to

it's been years
i didn't forget
i made you quiet

The moon
I get mad thinking once
You told me it's just a rock.
Why should it remind me of you?
My whole life I've looked at that rock in the sky
And fallen in love
I could look at it forever
But I can't stand looking at
you.

Listening to the rain
Thinking back
To how it made you
Happy
I remember your face
Smiling

Gloomy days
Spent laughing
Talking about galaxies
Parallel dimensions
Insane gods
Our favorite books
How there can be
So many of each
And how they all rule
Our lives
In the strangest of ways
Ways we may never
Understand

In the evening
You'd dance around
While cooking supper
Drinking dark beer
Smoking herb
And those fucking menthols
While eating zoomers
And singing
At the top of your lungs
Without a care in the world

If I'd only knew
You were sick
What you were thinking
How scared you were
Knowing something
Wasn't right
Ignoring it
Just trying to
Live happy
Much like I do now

My only wish
Is that we had more time
Because the pain
It doesn't fade
It only gets a little
Easier to handle
I know
That's selfish
But I'd still wish it
Just to see your face
A few more times
And say the things
I didn't get to

I think about what I would say
What I would do different
If it would even matter
Because we all die anyway
Even the best of us
Which you were
Teaching me things
Like how to live free
And die with dignity
With all flaws included
Owning them
Like golden medals

©James Dennis Casey IV
Dark Delusion Jul 19

                        Doctor, oh doctor.
Please help her remember.

Help her.
Help her.
Help me.

Get her out of the fog.
Lead her the right way.

Wake up.
Wake up.
Don’t sleep.

The abuses behind my back.
The darkness swallows her.

Don’t go.
Don’t go.
Come back.

                                   Doctor, oh doctor.
Would you please do something.

So lifeless.
So lifeless.
So dead.

She’s disappearing.
Her memories’ slowly fading.

Get it.
Get it.
Give it.

Give her the antidote.
She’s so toxic.

Always remember.
Always remember.
Never forget.

She was my medicine.
But now she’s expired.

Amnesia.
Amnesia.
Remember me.

She’s my drug.
She made me an addict.

Take it.
Take it.
Devour it.

Once you take a taste,
You can never forget.

autumn Jul 18

The first time I saw you
It was through a dirty window.
You were leaning against a wall
Smoking a cigarette.

A tall, cool strager totally unaware.

I couldn't help but wonder
If your lips tasted like nicotine
Or if those slight curls
Were as soft as they looked.

And I knew then I wanted you.

I wanted to scream,
"Can I be your new addiction?"
But then you put out the spark
And retreated into that green door.

You left me wanting to see so much more.

Jas Jul 18

The good guys can still do bad things. It's our job to determine who we want to be and discern whether it's the whole character that's poisoned or just the faults.

Sometimes I forget that not every mistake has an alter ego. It was simply a mistake.
Shane Leigh Jul 15

A candlelight:
     My fire,
          My flame.
   As it
Slowly
Burns
Out....
     The wax:
          Melting silently
        Away in the dark and I
       Find myself at the bottom,
        On the floor,
            Kneeling,
              Quietly,
                At your door
                  But too afraid to knock,
                     So I count,
                   For the subtle flame
                  In your window to burn
                Out.
               Like me, it will melt away;
            Until finally,
           One day,
          There is nothing.
        No light, no glow, no warmth
      And my candlewick's black -
    Used up and gone -
  But will you remember?
               ...
            Will you remember?

Do we really remember the warmth of a candle in our eagerness to use it??
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