i'm surrounded by familiar faces
some are warm, some are cold
all with love for me
yet i still feel so alone


i usually wear a mask
i hide behind my smile,
my jokes and my childishness
but my shadow reveals
the true pain and sorrow i contain
for it is filled with nothing but darkness
the first smile i force out everyday
screams for help, freedom, solace
but i hide it so well, no one seems to notice


i want be seen and heard
with the respect and love i truly deserve
i wish i didn't have to hide who i am
a colored spirit without limits nor end
Kim Essary Jul 15
There is no book on how you should live your life, besides the bible, There are no rules posted to make decisions through' out your life, they are yours to make, There will be mistakes, along the way, just remember, the first time is a mistake but any and every time after that is a CHOICE!,There may or may not be rewards for all the things you do for others , you should never expect a reward for a kind act or you did it for all the wrong
reasons. , YOUR LIFE BELONGS TO YOU> LIVE IT LIKE THERES NO TOMORROW, LOVE UNCONDITIONALLY, LAUGH EVERY CHANCE YOU GET BECAUSE LAUGHTER  IS THE  BEST MEDICANE , LEAVE REGRETS BEHIND YOU BECAUSE YOU CANT CHANGE THEM EVEN IF YOU TRY, FORGIVE OTHERS THAT HAVE WRONGED YOU BECAUSE THE ANGER WILL DESTROY YOU, GOD FORGIVES US FOR OUR SINS SO WHO ARE WE NOT TO FORGIVE OTHERS?  LAST BUT NOT LEAST, BE YOURSELF, GOD MADE YOU WHO YOU ARE FOR A REASON DONT CHANGE WHO HE INTENDS FOR YOU TO BE BECAUSE YOU ARE SPECIAL IN THE EYES OF THE ONES THAT REALLY MATTER IN THE END!
All of the things to remember in life
Wake up to find it’s gone
It’s gone for good
The old way is gone
It’s a new neighborhood

Nothing’s quite the same
Same old rules
New twisted game
No feelings save for hate
No love to contemplate

I’m blind without what I need
Without it I’m all alone
I don’t feel safe
Can I learn to call you home?
Can I learn to call you home?
Grand Piano Jun 19
Maybe it would be easier
Easier to let go
If only you had said goodbye
You broke the rules of “see you later”
Saying goodbye means I’ll never see you again
But see you later is a promise
A promise that you’ll return
If not now then definitely later
It’s in the rules
It’s like a pinky promise
Unbreakable
What good are rules and promises
If they can’t be followed or kept
What good is a heart if it’s so damn breakable
What good is trust if it’s so easily betrayed
What good am I if I’m so easy to discard
What good will it do to still ache for you
What good was your love if it brought so much pain
Why couldn’t you just follow the damn rules
Kendall Jun 6
Rules are meant to be followed.
Work is meant to be done.
With work and rules and P R O P E R discipline there
W I L L be results.
Worn and used
Clothes sentenced to
Bounce and strain
Against the line
Pegged by rules
Not of their own design
Shirts, socks and
Trouser legs kicking
Round and round they go
Where are the shoes...
To get away.
Unknown May 24
Love happens you find the you in you
Not when they find them in you
Absolutely not when you find you in them
Love evolves when you need you in you
Not when they need them in you
Not when you need them in you
Love hails when you hail you
Neither when they hail you
Not when you hail them
Love fails when you fail you
Never when they fail you
Never ever when you fail them
Love stops when you stop yourself
When they stop themselves
And both of you stop each other
From being what the self needs
From doing what the will does
From living the love the way life does.
Dirk Salimus May 23
Currently playing on my playlist:
Breakeven by the script
"I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing.."
While I was thinking of how this life is truly infuriating
How difficult the rules are into the easiest way for living?
How hard could it be for us to wake up everyday without even worrying?

Why it always feels like our life is a museum of daily problem and turbulence?
While hurting you by the fistful of life, it pulls you through progression hence,
This might be the reason for my withdrawal.
Finding the chest that holds the key to the door of my life-retrieval

Finding my goal,finding my purpose
Hearing rumors that makes me oblivious
Its obvious,when I say the rules of living is gratuitous
Like, "a bad boy is damn attractive" How ridiculous

The rules of living is very complicated and impossible to learn
Life taught us to please others,treat ourselves less thats what they want to us to discern
Memories and lessons that's what I want you to earn
Because maybe this is the rule that everybody has lorn

I'm concern to where our lives may end up
I'm afraid that the easiest way is to give up
What a loss could it be if we'll look down
And ignore the beauty of life while keeping
the frown.

In our hearts,in our hearts. The love is inside
The love,the passion,the goal is to survive
While keeping,battling,cherishing our lives
While steadying our eyes in our goal that we should strive.

Even life keeps on stabbing my heart a couple of million times
I'll keep on standing up,with a couple of million smiles
And this will be my stand til' my breath last
I love living my life but the rules of living will be my daily angst
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