Tears rolling down my cheeks
Rain pouring on mountains Water gushing down fountains Ice frozen on its peaks I've been crying for weeks My cheeks still have the tear streaks My eyelashes all wet My eyes can't forget Going over and over it makes me cry more I keep sobbing on this cold floor I can't hold it in anymore Leaning against this rough wooden door I let my tears pour ~25/4/21
“Words are everything”, said the poet
And he was willing to let them go to continue to love her
I hold him close as I can
Can't make the past go away Can't erase pain or sadness Memories hold him captive every day
How do you expect me to
hold on to you when I keep running from myself, every chance I get?
withdrawing from a near-fatal embrace how does it feel? to brush precariously at the edge of something infinitely beautiful; to find the void greeting you instead. curled at waist height or tied to the belt loops of jeans or smushed into pockets, balled up waiting for another chance to extend again. there in the throes of night unclenching, reclenching fists lay, wondering will the next time will be different and how will it feel?
And I'm hurting
And I'm collapsing in on myself And I just don't want to hurt you I want to shield you From a world you're accustomed to I want to protect you From things that you've already seen Because maybe you've been around the world a thousand times And maybe you've already been cut into pieces But I haven't And maybe Maybe you're the one protecting me Clasping my hands with yours when I get nervous Holding me close and hugging me till I want to breathe again So please, let me stand in front of you I'll take the brunt of the blow And I'll know you'll be there to catch me
It's a little bit of love and mostly coming home to you.
I want to see you smile
No matter what that takes Understand if we can't fix our love I've made too many mistakes I desperately wish to go backwards in time Do things the right way instead In the moment we never can be sure The future waiting ahead I would not hurt you on purpose No intention to cause you pain If able to warn my younger self I would Heart would never wear that stain When we started I was immature Had a lot of growing up to do Nobody had meant as much None could ever matter like you I do not understand how I got so lucky Fell into my lap Found everything I was looking for Without any compass or map How we stumbled upon such treasure Most spend whole lives without We beat the odds and circumstances What others only dream about These days sense feelings slipping Through fingers bit by bit Try to catch the pieces as they fall Scramble as ground they hit Hands cannot hold the weight we carry Full of old resentment Wonder if we were brave and let go Our lives would one day be content Attached at hips from the get-go In sync It didn't seem real Disbelief that an angel like you Shared the same attraction I feel In love Free of worry The first time in my life Made me want to be a better person You'd be proud to call your wife Then lost sight of our initial goals Touch with reality First steps toward the end were taken Sets of eyes too blind to see It began to disintegrate We were weak and unable to change The happy ending envisioned Moved out of range Now it is a constant struggle Getting over past distress Clings to every passing moment Pre-existing stress And I am doing my best to help Problems keep stacking up Efforts no longer impress you Did they stop being enough? My attempts to you disappointing Rekindle the spark we once had Demeanor remains indifferent Whether I am angry Happy Or sad Let go I'm afraid I must If I even can Without you have no purpose Safety net or back-up plan Cause it is obvious you are all I want After all these years A reason I'm still holding on tight You are worth unanswered questions and tears We are on two different pages it seems I'm the last to know It's my turn to bathe in rejection To watch you go That misery has circled back around Drowning relentless regret Torturing mind nightly I'd still never choose to forget Though things are different now Moments shared will stay the same Heart is yours to own forever Regardless who owns your last name Perhaps our roads will cross Present ******* is left behind Separate definitions of success Magically realign Cause I am sick of waiting for nothing Been awhile since you showed you care To get used to your neglect is tough Be grateful just having you there You consume every thought Obsessing words you say Coded meanings In vague clues thrown my way Mind when I am stuck stabbing my skin You've been there before Swear I'd throw all my points in the trash You'd not talk to other girls anymore Alone I don't know what to do Become the only one you need It's too late for that Your soul is ready to be freed I miss you when you're home Your focus is miles away Not flirting with some pretty girl Business gets in the way But have to accept what little you give No matter how it kills me inside Refuse to compromise or cooperate Truth you're determined to stubbornly hide To say goodbye completely destroys me Bring to life my greatest fear What's the point of holding us down? I'm not even wanted here
I sit here every day by myself trying to hold us down and be your rock but i feel like im just holding you back
He pressed his nose up to a mirror—
No matter how close he got, He still only saw who he could be. He peered into a magnifying glass— Looking longingly at his hands, He still only saw who he wasn't holding.
Fingers loosely interlaced,
caressing the flesh cuddling the palms brimming with pristine emotions. I feel subtle touches tender, warm, responsive. Certainty intertwined commitment gently placed a promise of keeping knitted. Something runs deep through the veins affectionate racing pulses. With hands clenched and walking side by side we vow a journey of acceptance forever and for always.