It’s been a while but wanted to write to you on better terms Last time we spoke my life was taking a hard turn Grew up a lot, learned sometimes its best to just let it burn Nourish those who need the good in me their souls are starving ferns I keep your memories because a good feeling is for good healing Raise my hands up only to no longer just feel the ceiling My vision changed and simplicity is way more appealing Don’t need jump on people’s throats, take a breath and think about your feelings. I’ve made peace with your son - look what I’ve become I face the things that challenge me, no longer look to turn around a run Life has its ups and downs but you see me through my struggles Trying lead my team but can’t always remember the plays in the huddle My imperfections have sorta been corrected Still need to be burn by the fire in order to learn my lesson I found a new love, which is beyond a blessing But I don’t feel I deserve it and that’s my own misconception Gave up on being aggressive and showing off for the attention I thank you everyday for your strength by the way... That’s just something I needed to mention You taught me I’m a product of what I go through And even if they wrong don’t hurt them back just to help you
I gave up the drugs to numb my pain I look up now but for the clear skies and not the rain I don’t think I need to pull the trigger to help defuse my explosive brain For the first time in my life I actually feel sane The family good and seem more connected than ever Feel we follow you and grannies policy of always keeping the family together I’ve learned that I don’t need to escape nor think I don’t belong Come around a bit more because my family needs me so we can collectively be strong My past still haunts me and the demons remain strong I’m working on letting that all go though and not trying to hold on. That dark thought will sneak in and at times I’ll still ask for death But I learning my purpose now and cherishing every single breath. You’re the greatest man I’ve ever known and I miss you being around The only man in my life I can truly say who’s never let me down I thank you for your guidance Protecting me from internal violence Learning to listen a bit more You get the most out of others through your silence That little boy opens his eyes now and is no longer hiding. Finally appreciating my life, which is way more exciting. Inspiration has come back, that’s why I got the chance to write you this song Feels good to let go of everything I’ve done wrong. ****. You taught me to remember when I get set backs Been through the worst times to get the best back Wish sometimes I could go back in time and give the low me a jet pack. But You was right about it all, Im finally learning for myself I hope this is someway a thank you for all your spiritual help. Promise to keep spreading your word and only improving myself Hope the angels take care of you until I see you myself.
They say Suffering brings compassion And I say That’s ******* Just because I have Suffered Does not mean I am kind And just because I am Kind Does not mean I have suffered Compassion Is when you say “No one should suffer” Not even me.
I can't stop shaking and I don't think it's the cold I feel you resting on my skin and it's the same skin you used to trace and I keep burning my body in the shower thinking it will rid the residue of you we said all of the right words at the wrong time and I'll walk through a crowded room with a glass in my hand and I'll try not to notice your voice in the noise of everyone else but I swear it's still the only sound I hear I'll convince myself I used you the same way you used me and I'll swallow it down with a sip of ***** then swear this is the last night I'm drinking to forget you I'm training my tongue to stop telling stories of us everytime someone says your name and when 3 a.m. comes around and I'm tempted to text you my epiphanies on why we went wrong hoping one might resonate with you and we can try again I'll remember all the time I spent rearranging the pieces of me that got tangled with yours and hope I never have to love that much again