I want to feel
my lips against your lips
skin against skin
hands wandering on your
careful and slowly
kiss me passionately
& love me deep.
promise me that you will love me forever.
you touched me without using your hands and i fell in love
there was a moment in time
when death sat beside me on a park bench
and he had rested his hand on the gap between us
rested my hand there
and brushed my fingers against his
and for a chaste moment
i savoured the warmth of his skin
and intertwined my hand with his
but he stood up
and maybe he knew,
it was for the better.
it was the right option
My eyes hurt whenever I see what they have in their hands
It seems the treasures they have glow more than mine
If I could take what they have maybe I won't whine or demand
For my mother told me a boy should never be envious in life
As I was getting taller my resentment grew stronger and louder,
"I want to have what they want! They have the cleanest of luxury"
I was never raised to grasp rubies so I begrudge men with power
Whenever I want something they refused, so I grew up with envy
Now my hands can afford diamonds like everybody else
the satisfaction that I felt was all I yearned for these years
Looking back to where accessories were considered wealth
Senseless for me to think that not having earthly desires is what I fear
Now if ever I pass by an alley and a kid looks at me with jealousy
Three words to change his look, "Here's a candy"
So he could see that happiness shines more than jewelry
To the kids who were not given anything when they were young
you know what it feels like
sadness grips my neck in a choke-hold
its hands cold and rough to the point in which
I don't know if I can escape with life left in me.
Hey dysphoric trans girl,
I see you.
Your outfit is really cute today.
And I'm really proud of you for getting
Our of bed with such grace.
The weight of dysphoria is heavy
Let me carry it with you.
You're essential to the world we live in.
You're more than a trending topic.
Your bodies existence is a radical act
And it's survival is worthy of celebration
Being able to still be disappointed
Means you are engaged in your life.
You are an active player.
Every part of you is a girl.
Especially the part you don’t like today.
Your voice, hands, and feet are feminine
What else could they be
A dysphoric trans boy
Hold me like you’ll never let go of me.
Need me like you’ll never leave me.
Want me like you’ll never want nobody.
Love me like you’ve never loved anybody.
All over me
Up and down
In and out
That's no doubt
Love me raw
Make me pout
hold my hand
hold it tight
don't let go
and let's watch
as the sun swallows the earth.
don't leave my side
her hands lost their balance.
an unnoticeable tremor
pumped through her fingers.
as she waited for him to arrive,
she wondered if the time apart
made him a foreign place.
when he finally arrived,
and important tales were shared,
and his smile lit up her heart,
her hands found their balance.
he felt like a home again,
even after all these years.