I loved you whole heartedly once
Under your bedsheets under the silence
Or any place covered in darkness
Where no one could see the way
Your flesh melded into mine
I suffered a year drowning in grief
You lived a life never committing
We met by chance and latched on
I loved how free your memories were
How wild your plans could be
I loved the life i found in your eyes
I enjoyed the rasp in your voice
Heavy with love, heavy with lust
I loved how you helped me heal once
Never had I loved in others
The parts I loved in you
You joked that you were my first
I'll never forget your bucket list
Give birth to life, love intensely,
Save a life, kiss a midget
You said you'd name your first child
Washington, where your heart belonged
You had fond childhood memories there
I remember making similar plans
Before life made its own plans for me
My thoughts were lingering on him
We argued about that some times
Screaming with lust, screaming in anger
I didn't know how to love you once
I was full of tantalizing words
Sizzling on the tip of my tongue
Waiting to tell you how I felt
But his name was the only thing
That could escape from my lips
You'd shout and cry and break things
You said my heart was an enigmas
Full of love for things that didn't exist
Full of love for people that no longer lived
I loved him imensely, I loved you intensely
I love how you moved on once
You deserved better than to be
Someone's dirty little secret
You were anything but that to me
I didn't want you to fight ghosts
Because of my inability to let go
It was better off that way
Your mother called me one day
Five years after you walked away
I wore your favorite color as asked
Finally met your family years too late
I'm sure you checked off every item
From your bucket list right before
Your brother handed me your baby
He weeped as he told me that
She was named after where
Your heart really belonged
She carries your love, she carries my name
she tried her best
shake him back
get up! get up, please?
her warrior down
no longer fighting
she took rest on
purple chest to weep
no longer heaving
breathing life no more
she kissed cold lips
hoping for their
magic to return
miracles to heal
but it wasn't enough
goodbye my love
The heavens mourned
in my stead love.
They railed and rent
in the deep knell of the thunder,
and the flashing light of the lightning
as it struck in all its fiery promise.
The gods themselves
wept my tears, my love.
Rivers upon rivers
from those fickle immortals,
for where they are,
they were moved.
Because I mourned you
I mourned you.
I mourned you,
But I was too far
from my eyes to weep.
Cut off from my arms
that I could not tear my
Closed off from my throat
so the world would never
hear the banshee in my wail.
For as my body mourned,
My soul sought you.
It reached out ,
to Hades Realms
if that was where you went.
why would you leave us here?
this body of mine and
So I could not weep
and I could not wail.
And so the heavens,
they mourned for me.
From east to west
I've seen the best
Moss on a stone
Contacts on my phone
I’ve meet friends
Knowing it all ends
That I can restart
But keeping the one that's in my heart
She will always be there
A coat my heart wears
For when it gets cold
In this void
She will be there
To warm the air
Awake from dreams
Of loving you,
And hate the morning sun,
For you wait in the twilight,
And still whisper, "Lover, come...
Back to the place we started,
And to where our love began;
A place within our dreams
Made of the Sandman's sand."
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Resting across the theta waves
Of Ocean Memory,
I sail to it each night,
And its warm walls shelter me,
But with morning castle crumbles,
And the sand is washed away,
And I curse myself a fool
To think that it could ever stay.
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I no longer know you,
Though you live within my sight;
Small comforts come with slumber,
You still love me in the night...
“By the sweat of your brow
you will eat your food
until you return to the ground,
since from it you were taken;
for dust you are
and to dust you will return.” -Genesis 3:19
They felled the last tree yesterday.
I felt her heave a great sigh
As they lowered her down to her grave.
Terminal she lay. Deathly still.
Black trucks crept from where she once stood.
They felled the last tree yesterday.
I felt the ring of the axe,
The devilish war-cry of the saw,
Biting, biting away beneath a spiteful sun of a mad crimzon.
Stumps. A testament to man
Entrenched in the barren soil.
Who was there to pray for them?
Only the quiet dayglow, resting upon the subtle fragments,
Of what might have been.
One must wonder:
“How many must it take for us to learn?”
If only we could learn.
So don't tell me that they have no use
For we are of them, and they are of us
All made from the same soft stardust.
From earth to earth.
Ashes to ashes.
Dust to dust!
As I watch the waning of this Capricorn moon
Powerlessness and sorrow at heart
She takes with her the last light
Canvases the sky in dark
I know she'll rise again
Moonset followed by glorious moonrise
But it's all different now
Her reflection leaves my eyes
She'll always be up there
Painfully out of reach
Me forever the student
Of the lessons she would teach
So many questions
So much unknown
But forever grateful
For the way that I've grown
The waxing and waning
Moonrise and moonset
Controlling the tides of my Soul
Before we ever met
She's Always been there
Since Beginningless time
Now her synchronised heart
Is no longer mine
I talk to the moon daily
In a language unspoken
She knows of my dreams
Knows the wolf she's awoken
But our song now has ended
I miss her so much
How can we dance more
If distance means we can't touch?
Had I only known
I would've, should've, what if?
Here and now though
Fear's choices forged a rift
I'm trying to accept this truth
Trying to accept my fate
So I sing my song in silence
The ballad of the Moon's Soulmate
To seek refuge in hollow whims
Sanctuary is for whomever it fits
Emboldened by the size of our coalition
We stretched for home when it hit
These walls had holes that exposed lives
They sought out permission to secure
Home can't fault when our hands stay firm
We stayed until midnight for stars to cheer
Eclipses of life illuminates violent rays
Devastation creates fear in the air
These walls will stay sound for centuries
Pearl gates held still as endings felt near
You can't lose what was taken from you
We reached for balloons that reach back
Knights cleared up space for grieving
Our strength stands tall for our very last