I can feel warmth of your shape
Words I have always said escape
An everlasting dawning realization
We have such rare creation
Can feel my growing need
Love the way my heartbeats speed
All mistakes fade away around you
Catch up the consequences that followed through
None helped me see with clearer eyes
Pushing further yet I still return
It's **** good exercise
Underwater
A dream
Loudly exhaling steam
I hear snores exit your mouth
Far away travelling south
Distant echoes
Nights spent together in the past
Swim through like fish but get caught in nets cast
If dragged from your arms across the earth to roam
I will find the way back no matter the distance until I am home

During the harvest of hearts
Budding fruit of desire
What is rooted deep
Will reap to admire

I am not sorry for anything
There were problems easy to see
That's why I am letting you know
I am not even sorry for me

The sun does not set
When euphoria rises
In our little world

I have drank *****
Down to very last droplet
At bottles bottom

I miss days we knew before
Both of us were free
Blissfully naive
Unaware
Our lives were so easy

I took it for granted
Then it went to hell
Would give up everything
To again be under that magic spell

Back when each day was happy
Along with each night
A simple conversation
Occurred without a fight

I miss not carrying weight of the world
Weightless when we'd kiss
Those people we used to be
Would be shocked it's come to this

How did we let potential slip away?
Is this what we're destined to be?
Is it possible to attain
The future young hearts used to see?

The outline of your body my favorite shape
Yearning to feel lips touch my necks nape
I had danced before
Never standing still
Around you atoms tango with an unsurpassable thrill
Your words are melodies spoken with ease
Cells waltzing with eachother doing what they please
And let me take a moment
Explain how I feel
Sound of your laughter tingles like an electric eel
The rain and clouds do not feel still like bad weather
Sun shining in hearts as long as we're together
To life you have brought enlightenment and love
Souls seem to fit together better than a glove
All woes from the past depart when you're near
When you leave they take some time to reappear
I rise in the morning without seeing your face
There is nothing I hate more than the space
This must be fate
Destiny
Our lost souls meant to be

I did not know I could fall apart
Until the instant I felt your touch
All I wanted was to have you
I guess that was too much
 
In the midst of attention
I should have realized
All of your good intentions
Were bad ones in disguise
 
I was blinded by your words
Way too easily deceived
I should have stayed away
Instead I trusted you and I believed
 
You did not think about your lies
Until they were shredded apart
I saw who you really were
Not before you broke my heart
 
Now it is too late to turn around
Could never be the same
Think you still know who I am?!?
Have no right to make that claim
 
I used to be full of life
Carefree
No defenses to disarm
Fear has taught me not to love
It will always bring me harm
 
You have changed the way I think about
What I know
What I feel
Showed me that despite what they say
Sometimes wounds never heal
 
I still want you in my life
Although I do not know why
Since the day you entered
You have only made me cry
 
You pushed me around each day
I gave you total control
Let you manipulate my feelings
Without you I wasn't whole
 
I sacrificed own happiness
Though it drove me insane
Managed to convince myself
You were worth the pain
 
Time passed away since then
I don't know what to do
How could I forgive and forget
After hell you put me through?
 
I am lost in my own emotions
Drowning in a deep empty sea
It is not you I miss tonight
It's who you pretended to be

I spent most my life fitting in
Shapeshifter in my own skin
To squeeze to whatever size
Matched the proportion of everyones lies

Torn between choices
Move forward or go back home
Which one up to you

I have been braver
Fool ashamed to be frightened
What shouldn't matter

Memories comfort
Thoughts of your love keep me warm
A mental blankie

Who knows when we will find happiness?

Or where it is stashed away?

Why it takes so long to reach?

If we discover it at all?

My confused heart aches

Are we to stay lost forever?

Happiness appears to be nothing-
A hoax to me

How I wish I showed more of the love held captive inside the walls of my heart

Would be lucky if a person listened to my sincere words of adoration and those words sent them sling-shotting to the moon

In any breath could inhale courage and exhale truth
But I choose instead to idly savor the silent smell of your newly-scrubbed skin
Without saying one single word

For things I'll never have in life
Fancy car
Mansion
Designer Clothes
Neverending list
Never pay the price
Don't want them enough I suppose