After his exit from my heart and my life No contact no text nothing from his side Suddenly met him after so long My heart skipped a beat when I hugged him a long My hands trembled when I held his hand and looked into his eyes I got frozen when I looked him just tears rolled down from my moist eyes Heart asked; so what did you come back with I replied; his fragrance in me
I know I've sinned, But I know he forgives me, I know I've let down, But I know he will lead me, I know I've been blinded by my own desires, But I know he knows what those desires are and is at work in my heart, I know I've been tempted, But he led me away from temptation back towards trust, I know I have not forgiven those who harmed me, But today is a new day so I can forgive, and try again to do better under the sunlight of his brand new day.
Where are the saints in white? Failing their master judging profane Pious is not requisite to honeyland Sin guarantee no hell all are sinners Masquerading falsehood a real sin Greasing your imperfection a greater sin Sinners are forgiven, good are rewarded Some one has to habituate hell who are they?
I wake up to sweet, beautiful rain I stick my head out the door and feel the coolness drip over my face I stick my hands out and long for them to be washed by this water from heaven Wash over me, rain Wash over me, water Wash me clean I hear the voice of the Living Water I have already made you clean You are forgiven
He’s obsessed with his need for my comfort and there is nothing I can do to keep him from the vile hatred that comes with falling out of love with me. He’s obsessed and I knew this would happen. He needs a mother and I can’t continue to carry the burden a mother has for her broken child. Am I responsible for the ways he’ll wreck himself when I go on with my life. will he seek help the way he promised every night we lay alone kissing tears off of eachother and making it hot in the sheets. Will he blame my every choice or will he just blame himself. Will he still think of me and drown it in pills every night that he hopes the bitter taste of it will wash mine away from his tongue. He forced himself to need me most when I told him I was going away. He’s doing this to himself so that I just go along with it. I’m never going back and this is where I make that bond. I’m sorry Sam I’ve seen my future in the distance and it’s calling me over to move forward with my life and I’ve been told in my dreams that I need to let go.
the melody is in my head and I can’t read this poem any other way 10:35 am
Her hands trembled as she reached for what lie in front of her, a sight she hadn’t grown fond of.
A face, nearly scarred from the time it laid in the hands of another.
Poorly treated once before, unfortunately all to familiar with the rough touch of a lover.
One who is supposed to guard and protect you, is soon the one to turn and beat you to the ground.
A fear she had kept hidden inside, not wanting anyone to know the truth behind her brown eyes. Glazed over and protected by a thick black line, to make her feel pretty. Even though with one swift move, he made her feel like the ugliest person to breathe in the oxygen that he share.