Kat 8h
Why are you so afraid?
Who takes the courage out of us
and leaves empty pages on our doorsteps?

If you'd ask me nicely I gladly lend you my aid
In return just be as good as you allow yourself to be and thus
I promise silently to instead of one I'll make two beds

Inside of these four sides and many scriptless lines
My love's never quite sure how to call itself
I call her by the only name that I know
but know that it's not enough, not quite

If I wouldn't know better I would beg for your trust in these strong-rooted vines
All I want is to let me be me for the sake of myself
And hold closely and in full daylight my beloved stranger, reflected in fresh-fallen snow
For I'd never want to be ashamed of keeping a feeling whole and tight

Please don't ever let me lose my hope in a strangers mind,
it's all I got left in a world full of shallow familiars and quiet pretenders
Don't let me go stray and leave the path less traveled

Let me have
one hand that's tender
that isn't my own
trying hard to hold
on to slippery simplicity

And tell me why
are
you
so
afraid,
heart?
She doesn't like it-
When I buy her meals,
She wants to pay for me instead.

And she doesn't know-
That my every thought,
Is her running through my head.

She makes me weak-
When she hugs me tight,
Hannah, baby, I'll always love you,
Every day, every night.

She is my princess,
My darling love-
The blood in my veins,

She is my mirror,
My armor, shield,
She keeps away the pain.

She makes me strong,
When she stands beside,
Hannah, baby, I'll hold you up,  too,
Against the coming tide.
Stara 4d
I don't want to be
your break from the world, I want
to be your world
care in darkness
night care
all of us are shining

and light is darkness
and the light is darkness
and it has always been like this

and alive and all living
and the dead in this world
they are all equal
everyone is equal

care in darkness
night care
all of us are shining

and this light is ours
already burned out
already told us his word

we are now alive
we are now dead
we are not singing

dead - living
dead do not breathe
the dead sing

02.07.18
Come out come out
Where ever you are
Do you hear the battle ground
Feel the rumble in your bones

Light up the stage
Sit back
And take charge
since i was small,
i wanted to live forever.

every dawn is a hit of reality
and i’m eager for another.
and another.
and another.

i exhale, my cool breath hitting the air -
flavored with desperation;
is it so wrong to want more?

i wilt, only slightly, thinking about the end.

when i slouch in my chair,
i feel my heart shift closer to the soil at my feet

and i do not sink in the midst
of the flood -
i do not lose myself in the rainwater
pooling at my ankles -
i do not clench my eyes shut,
fearing where i will go
when i do

i need this more than you,
i swear.

and when i feel the back of the chair
digging into my spine
or the quiet, creeping ache of age
tugging on strands of my hair,
i resist; i deny it

the adrenaline of dawn’s kiss
is my defense against the rot,
but the night reminds me
of being small with skinned knees and a medicated wish.

i surrender, subject to the infestation of memory -
yet, my oldest prayer continues to echo
in every inch of this room:

sempervirens, sempervirens
(always green, always green)
first draft
Lisa Jul 3
some people are born anxious
a tidal pool of dry-heave and spider bones
a conundrum whirlwind of seared tongue not tasting anything for days
i think there's a nausea that hides under my shirt sleeves
there's an unproven cluster of nervous cells waiting for my elbows to
suddenly start fidgeting
a dehydrated vocabulary of what to say
and is it appropriate to say it
autumn is forever around here
Come with me
and happiness is guaranteed
Come with me
and you'll see what you have never seen
Come with me
and you will always remember this day
And with a smile you will always remember this day

Let's go to the land of freedom
We go to the country of love
We go to the land of eternal beauty
We go to eternal happiness

Come with me
and happiness is guaranteed
Come with me
and you'll see what you have never seen
Come with me
and you will always remember this day
And with a smile you will always remember this day


Let's go to the land of freedom
We go to the country of love
We go to the land of eternal beauty
We go to eternal happiness

2016
I don't walk alone,
God walks with me,
One day I asked him,
"Lord you walk with me,
In my good times and bad times,
I only see two pairs of footprints in my good times,
In my very bad,troubled  days you are not there."
"Child, the footprints you see in your troubled days are mine.
During your bad phase I carried you."
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