I don’t have a lot of things...
But my memory box is a Junk Yard

Not rusted, filled with
Plastic bottles and Torn Tires

It is a Junk Yard
Of delicately folded letters
And Tokens of Events
Long Past

It is messy, my Junk Yard
A Beautiful Chaos

Break my bones;
cut my throat.
Pull me open,
learn the ropes.

Breath me in;
taste the fear.
Shank my skin;
stand and cheer.

Kick my head;
let me bleed.
Unbolt my veins;
enjoy the read.

Gouge my eyes;
punch my face.
Wrap me up
in your embrace.

This is not for love nor is it for grief
To have one is to carry the other alone
Each shown difference through incredulous perspective
The pieces of truth show no appearance
They merely evoke feeling so raw
One of exposure and vulnerability
Caught in a spiraling emotion that gives no name to itself
A pit that feels free without restraint
A place where all options prove to be correct
One that shows no extent to a human life to live

Something about the comfort of autumn—
in California our leaves go straight from green
to gone, if they choose to change at all.
The sun stays bright but the air starts to bite,
and the Santa Anas blow through to dry up
our last drops of livelihood. Most seem to like it—
the streets littered with death and ready to restart—
but the rough winds always hollow me out,
echo a haunting song off the tunnelled walls
of my bones. It’s about this time I empty out,
and fill instead with cotton mouth. My lips chap
and *****, but I smile silently, and I wait.

Giving me mixed signals
You keep getting in my head, and not getting out
please, clear it up
You want me?
Or not?
I'm over here trying to flirt,
Knowing you're never going to turn
Please, I'm begging you,
stop this hurt

Your smile be making my day
You be flirting with all these ******* in front of me
but I'm not here to play

I love you more than you know
and I'm trying to show you that in every way
Come to me for anything
I'll support your everything
I don't have much, but my love will always be here
I'll be the shoulder you can cry on
From day until dawn
Yea baby i never want to see you frown

Don't know for how much longer,
but i'll still be waiting for you
I just want to see you happy
No matter who you choose
and i also know and understand,
You deserve your dream girl
The girl that's everything that I'm not

My mom told me
Love never dies
And I never understood that
Until I watched you leave
And a month later
You were still all I wanted

She felt too many things, so many
she couldn't manage to process it all
so her brain was often flooded with
overwhelming thoughts of how everything
could go wrong until she couldn't manage
to think anything at all.
- saturated.

with the use
of my blood
I blindly grew
every single rose
I gave to you

Laying here with you,
my head resting on your chest,
I feel closer to myself.
Because, even if it was
just for the blink of an eye,
I could’ve sworn,
that my heart and yours,
they were beating
together.

While you walk away,
I am running with my woes.
For what it's worth,
Only He knows.

Even if you push me away,
I'll keep on coming back to you.
For what it's worth,
Only He knows.