Yesterday I weighed myself.
On a scale.
And had a huge breakdown.
And hated the number.
And hated myself.
But after thinking about it,
After crying about it,
After having 18843765345 thoughts about what to do about it,
I did nothing.
It’s ‘just’ a number.
How is the amount of times I made someone smile,
Measured in that number?
How is the love I’ve been giving,
Measured in that number?
How are my memories,
travels,
personality,
friends,
life,
WORTH,
f*cking dependant on a number?
It’s simply not.
I weigh hope,
I weigh determination and
I weigh the fights I didn’t give in.
I weigh the risk of the unknown,
I weight the times I rose up when I thought I couldn’t,
I weigh stories and kisses and adventures.
I weigh the colours of the sunset and the dreams of the sunrise,
I weight the sound of the rain and the smell of the earth,
I weigh the million pens I’ve used to write my story.
And all that ***** heavy.
I weigh so much more than I ever have,
And I couldn’t care less about my weight.
Because I weigh me, and that’s never too much and always enough.
Yesterday I weighed myself.
On a scale.
And I realised
There will never be a scale that can weigh me.
Written by: Maria
Haven't posted any poems in a while, but today I chanced upon this lovely poem which I believe would resonate with many of you too. Often we end up hating ourselves and getting depressed for many reasons- maybe because we think we are not good enough; maybe because we have set too high expectations for ourselves; maybe it is because we feel that we do not look as good as others or as skinny as others. Here is a reminder, and an encouragement for all of you out there who need this: You are NOT defined by your weigh; you are NOT defined by what others think of you; you are NOT defined by the challenges you face or your "failures". Everyone makes mistakes; everyone is special is their own way; no one if perfect and the most important thing is for us to take a deep breath and reflect: to realise that everyone is different and that we are unique in our own way and therefore we should love ourselves with our whole heart for who we are; to embrace our "flaws" and instead learn to love these aspects of ourselves as they are the things that make us special. How can you life be defined by a small mistake you made; a criticism you received from someone; or even just a simple number on the scale? How plausible is it for you to hate yourself and want to change yourself just because of that? Your life is precious. Our live are worth more than these minute things-- if ony we would take the time to pause; to reflect; and to see the beauty in life- and most importantly-your own beauty. Love yourself ♡
Have a great day everyone :)