i am a god that created the human i am the human that the god created but the god wants to be human and the human wants to be the god and it's a back and forth the discontent the want for more, for land and riches for wealth larger than seas and the need for simplicity, to be held and to be loved.
I’ve been feeling blue searching for a while. Love eluded me— Such a cruelty can’t be wished upon. Autumn days drag on. Must lose hope, I know… I’m a fool, it’s true— Under this first snow, I can’t hide a smile at the sight of you. Don’t need love, just you.
I know I make you suffer because you remind me all the time As if yelling words helps me over this mountain that I climb For a moment why don't you put yourself in my shoes? Sure if roles were reversed it'd be a different life you'd choose I want you to be satisfied with me the way I am And wish you could see that I actually do give a **** I care about opinion more than you realize Not able to escape the crushing disappointment in your eyes Well at least you have made your point crystal clear Cut ego down daily then have the nerve to say I'm wanted here I would walk out Have nowhere else to go I get high yet somehow still feel just as low My pillow wet from tears almost every night Zero point in arguing because you believe you are always right I wake every morning hating myself more Isn't your fault but you escalate the war Internal conflict my ever present curse Battling with you only makes everything worse Chasing unrealistic dreams like dog after their tail Subconsciously aware I am doomed to fail I wish for once you could take a chance and put some faith in me Allow room to make mistakes even if you disagree I know how you feel so there's no need to rub it in Deragatory remarks remain etched into my skin I hope someday I will find the strength to rise above Conquer demons Discover the parts of me you unconditionally love Trust when I say I wish I was different just as much as you It's not that easy to change simply because you want me to I love you when you make me feel so very bad And apologize for the countless times I have caused you to be sad No matter what we go through you will forever be my mom In the future we can both work on staying calm I'd corrall moon and stars for you if I thought it would make your smile last You can't enjoy the present when you're caught up in the past
I need you to walk away, to forget about me, be happy. I'll live with this pain each day but I won't let it ever break me. My love is my own mistake. Don't be sad for me, please, forget me. "Go back to him, now!" I ache... "I'm in anguish, with you!" Be happy... I need you to walk away. I need you...
about loving a man who is happy with another, sending away but not able to let go