A have a guardian angel of woe
Watching over me
He collects my due of sorrow
Pocketing it in black memory
Only when I have been too happy
Will then he a little share
Out of his enormous collection
A carefully measured handful spare
So I am never lost to sadness
Nor ever in happiness corrupt
Living a life in measured scales
Between the two, in his trust
Devoid of bliss, far from infinite joy
Safe from maddening grief and
Sometimes it’s like a dream in broad daylight
A realization of the blessing I’ve been given in my life
A magical feeling surrounds me- they call it love
Feels like an ecstasy I can never escape
A feeling I tried to escape until I realized I could not find peace with it.
Drowning in devotion, almost as though he has become my religion
A heaven sent energy
I’d let him take slice of my heart if it meant keeping him fed with love and support.
A piece of heaven brought into a living hell
He calls me an angel- little does he know that he’s the reason for my wings
He is everything I haves prayed for and more.
A love everlasting that brings peace to a chaotic mind, a man worthy of forgiveness, acceptance and so much more- a man I’ve been granted the opportunity to call mine.
And when the pages tore, she was born.
2. Where the cracks between education and determination split, she emerges. Naked and raw. Cheeks wet with tears she is an Angel. Her third eye is wide open and it is ready to observe. To listen to the sound of your chest heaving in the dark.
3. She is not here to be your salvation. She is her own.
4. There is a place where Heaven and Earth meet. Where the sky opens up and expands on forever. Where the clouds hold no rain. There, she is home.
5. When you are lost in the dark, do not go searching for her. You will only find fallen feathers. Her wings shed when you beg her to do the impossible. To save you.
6. If you see her blink you must be mistaken. Her eyes have been wide open since her Creation. Since her Birth. She is not looking for you, however. You are a passtime.
7. Don’t believe you have the power to change your fate. Don’t believe she will choose to.
8. Where raw dirt and sand lay, look for your future. See it in the ever changing swirls, the broken glass. See it in her tears, soaking the pavement. Flooding the Earth.
9. Break your own heart time and time again, but she will not come to mend it.
10. When she is ready to observe you, do not hesitate. She can end you with a breath. You are a passtime, remember? You are nothing in the eyes of an Angel.
First Heaven Burned to the Ground
Flood Drowned all that was left
Right around the corner was A King
With Golden Ring
Seeking God, Power & Women
But He Didn't Know
This Sorcery and Magick
was part of my plan
For I am the Angel with one red wing
Nothing would Stop me, King
Melting Your precious Ring
With anguished prisoned in My Eyes
For an Eternity
No Pillar In Air
Can Put Out The Fire in My Heart
nor Stop me form Bringing
Hell on Earth
For I swore I will Devour
Each and every Soul in your Kingdom
Till No Light Left in Heavens
and No Man on Earth
WITH ONE RED WING
ONE RED WING
DESTROYED THE RING
AND **** ONE AND THE ONLY KING
The other dream
the one where we have
tangled tanned limbs
and you have a shaved head
Did it happen yet?
and we are 14
at an antique wooden table
nestled in an alleyway
tucked within my suburb
tearing flower from stem
body euphoria from all within
placated and saccharated with
Creme honey in a
****** passionfruit sunset
we are home
i nuzzle the tail
at your neck
you tell me stop being scared
but I have already
and its just permission I wait for.
you know, express consent
Maybe I have so much
to learn before then
Still discovering what it means
to be a queer friend
And if I could acknowledge
how very far I've gotten..
all the pain that im not in
right now incase ive forgotten
Baby maybe I have
so so much to learn before then
I'm still learning how
to be a good queer friend
im fine to dream of your skin
if i could just acknowledge
how far i've gotten
better dreams. There are nightmares and then there are their equals and opposites.
in a field of babies breath
i see my anael, my angel
her emerald glare bestows upon me
the end of my despair
beauty and love are mine
and i am hers
and through her fire
in magic chains to bind throw mad desire
in this waste land
i can feel her grace and
oh anael, oh my angel
Eyes like a green field
Good and Evil
Bad and Good
You wonder why you fall for her
Because she's evil
At the same time
As fresh as dew
She's a demon
But an angel?
The only one
When I was all lonely
When everything was dark
You pull me away
And erase all my marks
When I fall from the sky
Trapped in the lies
You pull me out of that hell
And made me feel so well
You're my angel
Keeping me out of all the danger
You're my life's changer
You're my angel
When no one listens to my cries
When I can't get up even after a hundred tries
I had the wings but I can't fly
You came up and Give your hands Pulled me out of the life
.You're with every second
When I thought love is an illusion You flew away from my confusion
when my life is locked in a cell
It's only you who made me well
You're my angel Keeping me out of all the danger You're my life's changer You're my angel
The clock might end No more hour no more second But we'll always be together Away from this world of haters Bonds are not to be broken Life isn't for chocking You made my so well You're my angel Keeping me out of all the danger You're my life's changer You're my angel 👼
Time pass yah
Meet my shadow;
It is just dark...
I talked to it
It never replied...
I yelled to it
It never responded.
I looked at my shadow
In the daylight;
I searched my shadow...
When I am left alone;
Day or night;
Dark or bright;
Shadow travels with me,
Until my end...
No wonder it never leaves me;
I believe it is my "guardian angel".
Shadow never leaves me...
As this day rains tears amongst his family and friends
This very same day your precious daddy’s eternal life begins
To know him was to love him he’s left so many memories of a great man behind
A man of God , A great father and grandfather, a loving husband , and to all he knew , so generous and kind
Life holds no promise as to when the Good Lord says it’s our time to go
Cherish every second you are given for you never know
“Don’t cry tears of sadness for me as you lay me to rest, be at peace and rejoice for me for as I walked through the gates of heaven down the streets made of Gold my pain was gone no worries in my head as The Lord placed beautiful wings on my shoulders and a halo above my head. Now I can still watch over each of you until we meet again one day
You may not can see me but I’m never far away. “
As you gather around my grave don’t say your last goodbye, say i will see you later before you turn to walk away,
Let my passing be instead a reminder of how precious life is because we never no if today will be your last day.
Dedicated to my dear sweet friend Beckey As she lays her daddy to rest