I run from my inevitable next mistake
Only to find I'm the bait
I'm at stake
Everyone will debate
On why I MUST participate
Ignoring why I no longer want to partake
I wish somebody
Would have bothered to tell me
You can't possibly challenge fate

©2024

Sit, stand up and walk straight
and don't you ever wait
or else be seen here late
for it's all now our fate
mankind's most evolved state
humanity's last gait.
____

While on borrowed time,
We wasted our minutes 
For the things that did not matter.

He stated to me

I want to do better but

You will not let me

I miss the man I met on happenstance.
Not the unmasked version of you.

I took a quarter of a lifetime to create
Boundaries with an impenetrable gate
That I could fall back to at a later date
Who knew I wouldn't have to wait
Because as soon as I challenged fate
And tried to break this family trait
And shift from the pattern of self hate
To a more beneficial internal way to associate
I was lead to and left in this mental state
No trial, no debate
Forced with the threat of death to participate
And that safe place, it began to deteriorate
As the darkness started to manipulate
Causing my stronghold to mutate
At an astonishing rate
'Till now I just feel like an inmate

©2024

You taught me that loving someone with your whole heart is not worth the pain.