I sometimes feel the need to be loved
To be taken care of, to be heard
To be free from my notions clouded with misery
Sometimes all I urge for is a stab of sympathy


So immersed in pain I am, it has almost ripped my soul
I have cried the tears of blood, silent screams have now torn me apart
I sometimes wish for the pain to glide out of the thick layers of my skin and evaporate
I am no longer left with the power to feel the emotions in my heart


Even if I can sense the pain evaporated, for now
I know above my head, it has formed clouds
The ones that in no time will rain on me
Harder than in the days gone by. Helping the stifled anxiety to arouse  


I am so lost into my mind, I can hear nothing but the winds whispering
Tickling my bruised body, inflicting agony. Obstructing ecstasy from quenching my thirst.
I can now feel a subtle hint of pain in all my bones
In between the chaos, my passions have succumbed to dust

A raft to drift upon
When the world is thunders and storm.
The first rays of sunshine
After a hard winter of the soul.
The power to go on
When the heart is full of bruises.
The warmth of a fire
When reality is freezing cold.
The reason to exist
When nothing makes sense.

This is the definition of Love.

We were laying in bed
and I was drowning in your gaze.
You wrapped your arms around
me and slowly whispered in my ear
that I was a national treasure to you.
You told me my essence,
my power, and my presence
overwhelmed you and that
I was your Niagara Falls.

and expect not to go hungry first

you be well and all be's well
u be food to lack
and you be eaten to death alive

So Is It... " Your Dream "...
To Become MAINSTREAM... ?!?

I CANNOT Lie...
Sometimes My Mind...
Has Been Inclined...
To Visualise A Time Where I...

Could Be... " THAT GUY "... !?!

That People LOVED...
Like... “ WARM Sunshine “... !!!

But Recognised That DARKNESS Rides...
With Getting A Slice of The DEVILS' Pie... !!!!

Because MANY It Seems...
Now Seem To BELIEVE...

That ILLUMINATED Teams....
Run MAINSTREAM Scenes...

“ Know what I mean !?! “ …

So If That’s.... “ True “... ???
Mainstreamers Move...
With... “ SHADY Dudes “...
And Females TOO... !!!!!!!

“ Mainstream for two ? “

“ Nah dude, just you !
I think I’ll cool, and do my do,
for the heads who choose,
to listen to men who deal in sense,
instead of those who present,
big hype and pretence,
for dollars and cents
from, Corporate Heads “

You Can See It In Sports...
I’ve Competed With Guys...
Who’ve Received AWARDS... !!!

Been In NATIONAL Sides... !!!
And Watched And Thought...

“How are they mainstream,
when they’re clearly weak,
and aren’t better than me !?!“

But Then WAKE UP...
From My Daydreams... !!!!!

But... RECOGNISE...
That To Join The TOP FLIGHT...

Some Athletes Find....
That They Have To Compromise...
  
But That’s Alright...
The MAINSTREAM Can Bring STRESS...
And CAN... DEPRESS... !!!!!

Some Mainstream Heads....
Have Met With DEATH...
Because of Their DESIRE...
For The Mainstream To...
......... “ HIRE “.........

Their EGOS For SHOW...
And YES... BRAVADO... !!!

Because They LOVED Being KNOWN...
Wherever They’d Go... !!!

Mainstream For Me... NO... !!!

But I Want Some DOUGH... !!!
From Their Pots of Gold...

Cos' TOO MANY **’s... !!!
Have Got The HIGH Roll...
For... SELLING THEIR SOUL... !!!!!

It’s Time For TRUTH SAYERS...
To Get... MAINSTREAM Paper... !!!

And Start To Turn Heads...
In Their RIGHTEOUS Benz’... !!!!!

Cos’ NO Rubbing Shoulders...
Or BENDING Like Folders... !!!!!

Because WE ARE Soldiers...
Whose Wordplay Is BOLDER... !!!!!
Than... Twerking For JERKS... !!!
Cos' We ***** Their Shirts...
With Our Written Works... !!!!!

And When We... “ PERFORM “...
We’re... BEYOND The Norm... !!!

We ARE Something MORE... !!!!!!!!
Than MAINSTREAM TYPE ******...

So Let Me Make CLEAR...
MAINSTREAMERS Adhere...
To... "CERTAIN RESTRICTIONS"...

To Get Their POSITION...
In The MASSES VISION... !!!!!
But Like... “ Q-Tip said “...

“I ain’t messing with them
til’ I cop a deal,
that gives me exposure,
and spotlight to steal !“

So That I CAN EAT... !!!
BEYOND Where They Be... !!!

Because NOW The Streets...
Would... RECOGNISE Me... !!!!!

“ Big Virge In CONVERTS ? “

“Maybe a... Bentley !?! “

See THAT’s How Worms Turn... !!!
LUSTING... “ LUXURIES “...
LEADING To GREED... !!!!!!
And EGO FILLED Deeds..... !!!!!
To Get... BIG MONEY...
And FORSAKE Artistry... !!!!!

I Just Want A Piece...
To Live... Comfortably...

And Write What I See...
Debt FREE... HAPPILY... !!!!!

A Couple of MILL’...
Should Do Me NICELY... !!!

Then I Could Just Chill...
And Build... LEGACIES...
of... Poetic ART....
That Touched MANY HEARTS...
From NEAR To AFAR..........................

Because I STAYED SHARP... !!!
And Just Took A Small Part...

So That I Could SEE...
A Part of The Scene...

That Is DEEMED As...

... “ Mainstream “...

I rule my world,
The real life fantasy land where everyone believes they’re in control,

like your life is together,
all your friends are real,
you have romance,
working hard at your job

but you forgot.

I could ruin you in a sentence.

be made to choice given
or create one to have