It feels as though every day your maggots eat at my brain--
every time i see something rancid, i think of you.
on television, I see abuse, violence, rape,
I think of you.
How can I blame you for eating away at me?
I am garbage,
a horrible shade of gray-green.
You are maggots,
you cling to and feast on those like me.
Being who I am, being what I am,
it must've seemed like an invite.
When garbage cans become infested,
owners blame their own recklessness.
It is the conditions they created
that invited the maggots.
When I became infected with you,
I could only blame my own recklessness.
It is the conditions I created
that invited you.
I am not a victim of circumstance,
I am a victim of the circumstance
in which I put myself--