The load that I carry on my shoulders With each step, grows heavier, I am climbing a hill and I need to push it uphill, I must set it down. I have to reach the top of the rocky tor I do not want the boulder to roll downhill.
At this moment Instilled in my mind is the worthiness of my task, My heart too harbours sincere intents, Armed with these I will push the boulder uphill To plug the leak the gushing stream has caused, Its waters have swamped my beautiful world.
I sought comfort in the arms of strangers and suddenly became a stranger to myself.
Be careful how much of yourself you give. All my life I have prioritized others instead of myself every time. Be it money, time, help, giving, and love. I love humanity more than myself, and more than often...I have ignored the pain of being used or taken advantage of. I hate admitting to myself that I need to take care of myself too, just because it feels selfish. But after helping so many, there came a point where I looked around and asked myself, "Who am I?"
Helping others... But I lost a lot of energy and used my years building other people instead of my own.
I really hope this doesn't sound arrogant. Because it's literally the last thing I care to be.
I know I accepted a long time ago That I'm not good enough But I'm working on it For myself So just wait and watch As this unlit match Burns an entire forest With one ****** across the emery Let them all wonder How to put out the flame That would tear down anyone Who stood in the way Of her self victory
i am not talented nor am i skilled yet i have this dream i wish to fulfill. i wish to be my own, not wanting to be like someone else even if they’re what i’ve always wanted to be– my heart says to just be me. with high hopes, i will be my own so the tears i’ve shed and the feelings i’ve expressed weren’t useless.
It's sad to admit but I've never In my life truly believed In my self never was ever given any confidence Whilst going up by my parents and It still hurts even today whatever I did a painting or a drawing they would always say alright but then add your Cusson there's Is much better nothing was ever good enough that I did, made me feel like a failure In everything I ever tried to do
All my life I felt like a failure not help by my parents who never gave me confidence