23/F/Alaska I wanted to write down exactly how I felt, but the paper stayed empty. And somehow, I couldn't have described it any better.
I rarely write freeverse, I guess my heart speaks in rhyme.
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I say I want to start over Yet cannot let go of the past If I cannot put your mistakes behind me How do I expect this to last? Even before my trust issues Got so bad they couldn't be repaired It was still a little bumpy Because your sincerity was never there Yeah you spent your days with me When no one else could stand being around But you never shared your secrets with me Your thoughts barely made a sound I knew deep down you were up to something Always hiding things behind my back And as time passed I began to wonder What it was that I seemed to lack Why can't I be enough for you? Why do you always need more? I wasn't good enough for you back then I am now a far colder person than before But my heart still feels that flicker Of heat each time fingers brush That's what I tolerate this ******* for That incredible breathtaking rush So even though it's clear that I'm no good For you and you're not good for me It seems like we want different things out of life But a future without you is so hard to see You're my best friend and you understand All the ups and downs I've been though So despite the past mistakes between us I'm still head over heels for you
let's have a meeting on the bathroom floor doesn't matter where my place or yours you can poor a drink and i'll poor my eyes out i'll tell you what i hate about you until you just blackout because you just drown problems and i am one of them too because you never cared about me i was nothing to you then when you're passed out and my lungs ache from crying i'll tell your unconscious self you made me feel like dying but then i'd brush your hair back and drag you to bed tuck you in to sleep and kiss your forehead i would tell you sweet dreams and feel my chest burn i hate you for lying but it seems i never learn i would care for you on your death bed because unlike you i meant the love that i said