The only times I see you now are in my wildest dreams Yet the sound of your voice still echoes in my mind, or so it seems I forget the touch of your smooth hands And our love slowly disappears in the quick sand
. Because she could not see— Song in flower, light in lovers abed, Dream unfolding as we touched, Because her great beauty was gifted It was unfelt, undeserved, shunned, Making her even more irresistible.
Because I could not hold on to self, Beside such dream, lost to my hands As prints clutched into the ruin dark Of her indifference, I made peace With subjugation and humilities riven Out of soul and flesh and hollow being.
Because we were unknowing, each A foil unto ourselves as we cried— This then was daymare riding in sun, Twin delusions in oft reign of blood, O what stories we both shall die to tell, How the itch of desire scratches bare Whole psyche as it writhes in a shell. .
I have been lost in a million stars Stars that have been lost in your eyes They told me when I was almost out of ideas That I ought to make you my idea They told me then, that when I have lost my voice That I ought to speak your words To steal your thoughts To make them mine To steal your heart And steal your time For when it's all over You'd steal back mine You'd make sure that every moment I called your name I was calling Gods To repeat myself Over and over Even though I'm almost over you It seems I haven't gotten lost But I find myself lost inside your memory Always clinging unto you May I rest eternally May I hope for that dream, paradise For when you are there Then I will be happy
I hate the sun today because I feel like she betrays me, Clearing the snow, making the birds sing, shining brightly into my bedroom While my body is raining tears like a waterfall and my chest feels heavy and grey How can such a bad day be so beautiful? I am angry at the weather because it’s been raining for weeks And now that you’re gone the air is dry and humid again I cannot grasp the irony of this. All I wanted for you was just another beautiful day to live No more dark clouds and ***** snow Just one more ray of sunshine touching your face through the window Just one more morning coffee on the balcony, mild spring temperatures and crocuses. One more of our Sunday strolls without an umbrella One more night with our summer bed sheets. I want to close the windows and bury myself under pillows I want the birds to shut up I want the weather to act appropriately I want you to be here again, because it’s such a beautiful day and I can’t take it alone.