joseph had a lover before he knew of jesus,
she went by the name of lilith.
she was by lengths and widths the fields of fungus and weeds,
with stiff ribs and taut stomach, more than what he could afford.
yet still he'd stand on her doorstep,
waiting for her to take the rose from his bleeding hands.
she took it
and left the thorns behind in his soft palms.
she harkened a role in the loss of his innocence as a teen,
he indulged himself in fertile soil and dampened moss.
ten days later, she grew wings and flew away, looking for the pit of a peach,
or something sweeter to call home.
he had a lover of the names adam and eve,
he found them in the garden of eden.
they were a pair of lungs,
seemingly carved from the same tree.
they were less than two people, but more than one consciousness
divided by layers of gold skin, muscle, and bone.
both more than willing to step into the flesh of one another,
as they had tasted the forbidden fruit together.
cheeks pressed between molten thighs, licking the ichor of what he imagined to be god between blond curls.
his or hers, he did not know.
he saw the serpent seething, and the next morning,
they had left him while he was asleep, a kiss and several coins pressed into the scars of his palm.
he had a lover before when god was just an idea
and there was no life after death.
joseph had then met mary.
who had the luck to cheat on him with god?
mary had a little lamb, shrouded in fleece and hay,
born in a manger and caroled by holy men.
mary wept tears of joy as the lamb of god / second adam / messiah
was birthed from her womb, warmed in blood.
joseph wept, as healing himself as if he were a blind, mute or demon-possessed man would not help someone like himself, someone who craved sin so desperately.
a woman whom he loved, he did not any longer.
joseph was approached by angels
holographic lenses flicked angrily, the bright lights blinding-
betrayal is not an option.
then they stopped short and dropped silently,
crucifixion to those warning against god.
for who needs anything but a heavenly father?