Sitting in the dark My thoughts racing Like a mad man for the door I hold a knife while thinking How easy it would be to end it All the pain The things I hide from others I could just slowly leave it all While laying in a puddle of my crimson sadness as it leaves my body But… I know I can’t It’s just a fantasy and a nightmare I dream of I can always feel the hate in the world Shaping my heart I’ve tried to forget about it But nothing seems to work Sometimes all I want is to just hold someone Someone who really cared… But in the end all I’m left holding Is the ghost of an idea A mere fading wish.
mostly just needed to vent at this point, kinda had a break down lol
When an Autumn starts to truly come I like to sing into the air of the world the sweetest spring lullabies of much sunnier days, just to try to hide away the crumbling sound of falling dry, dead leaves.
Why do I say it’s nothing… When it’s killing me inside?
I turn my face away from the bright light Upon darkness To lie there unknown by all
If only they knew what thoughts flooded my mind I build dams to block them And bridges to walk across But dams can’t hold it back forever And the bridges seem to fail…
My hands are weary I can feel my soul grow old And my eyelids droop low I can’t keep doing this forever
I wish someone could hold me So when the waters rise It wouldn’t feel so cold And lonely I could tell them all Without judging myself But it all just fails again and again Leaving cuts on my thighs And bruises in my heart So why try this time Or the next time
I have a mind darkened by misery Nobody would dare to touch it They could just have someone better
I tell myself “Just hide away so you don’t lose more Do you really think they care? They’re going to hate you now Better forget yourself No one will ever love you” It’s slowly killing me Burning me from the inside out Can you see the flames? I won’t be here much longer And all that will remain Is an empty soul once filled with joy.
Good side .. Bad side Let us have a deeper insight.. We all have both, but the stronger will ride.. And the other will hide.. This is mankind.. Sometimes we struggle, but it is worth the fight.. We are not angels in the day and devils at night.. It is something that we can't bind.. It is within all of us, be ready to what you will find.. It is always clear and obvious, don't pretend that you are blind.. We just reflect what we feel deep inside.. I hope we all ride what is truly right..
would you love me if you lived inside of me because i hate it here you’ll never see me i used to hide in fragments of myself often i want to hold back sometimes i think it’s the only way to keep you from leaving one day