Choked up with existential angst Soften the bitterness with a drink The cold liquid helps the truth stay down Hoping that a drunk mind can't think My thoughts heavy like lead They sink just below the surface Low enough where they make no sound But can still make me feel worthless What kind of human does it make me When I don't know how to feel my feelings The most basic form of existence That I struggle with dealing In all of my issues I know drugs aren't the answer They won't make anything easy But they make me feel better
habitual ritual, the pleasure principle hedonistic addiction to fulfill every vision lots of thoughts but none are groundbreaking trying to slip you underneath my tongue without hearts breaking want to hear my name spill out of your mouth without chasing you around, love it when you are around you let my inner beast come out habitual ritual seeking you out
Sadness and numbness collide It feels like too much and I'm not alright I can tell something's wrong inside If it weren't so hard I'd give up on this fight A piece of me wants to get better Other parts just want my demise So back and forth my mood tremors So many thoughts that they all sound like lies I'm too anxious to even discuss it Too many choices I make make it worse The doctors say drugs do not help this But this bottle's relief and a curse It's so hard to complain since I know that My own actions add weight to this burden I crave an escape but I forget Not even those will stop this hurting
We call it medication. But what i need is rehabilitation.
You say you’re on it too. So tell me do you taste your fears? Swallow a pill that resets your life. Drink the water that carries you away from the edge… Chew your death with begrudging acceptance that the world won’t let you die.
So alone in a world When the only thing that matters is What other people want, Drugs are always considered the top priority And having feelings Will make you wind up As crazy as they come. When looking for A friend is too much of a risk And falling in love Is the biggest mistake of your lifetime. Never trust anyone whom tells you To trust them and always have a look out Because you might get caught If you need a point of Black You call them back And if you need a fix of white Slip into the abyss Your never be free If you decide You need more than ****.