They'll tell you that you're selfish when you finally let them go They'll guilt you and they'll shame you for not caring When you take control of all the things that you already know And let go of all the pain that you've been bearing
They will tremble in the shockwave that you leave them in your wake As you put the days you wasted far behind you They will tread above the water in a panic of self-hate As they realize that there's nobody to run to
They didn't want you, but they did, when they thought you'd walk away But reality had never crossed their mind That maybe you are stronger than who you were yesterday So you had to leave some clues for them to find
They'll scream at you and say that you are wrong to block them out But the peace is almost deafening to hear As they realize all the love that now they'll have to live without They will try and stuff you full of all their fear
So now smile. Walk away until you can't hear anything What they say is now no longer yours to hold So go off, enjoy the light that only happiness can bring And let all the things that you deserve unfold
I miss the solace of your blue and citrine eyes the anxious twist of the zephyrs in my core Stilled near you, Standing in cool shadows beneath an oak— The heart tree your parents Planted when you were born still mewling as white coats pricked your tiny feet The hunger they induced that never quite left you. Still, under your branches I was safe.
I remember the night Lachesis plucked a few more inches From her spool And you wrapped them around your finger Driven by ****** of dread Drew me into your arms, clinging to the spaces between my hips and ribs Whispering into the curve of my neck that if you released me into starlight Erebus would ****** me away from you. And I had not doubted that you loved me But feeling your caged panic I learned the wings of your heart were strong enough to bend mine.
In the dark I am more skittish now Untangling our threads I unraveled the Moirai’s veil. Alone, I am under the crimson eye of too many men Now that I am not The apple of yours. The Graeae glance down from their mountain Holding their eye above an abyss Words I always wanted said are poisoned by unwanted lips. The restless zephyr in my stomach stirs Searching the nearest escape route. And the softer tint of the world has turned hard again.
But you are still the nearest sanctuary And maybe it is selfish To think of you so But I hope I am still the same For you.
it’s so hard to let go of someone when you know how easily you could reach out to them they’re only one call away and yet you’re doing everything you can to make sure you don’t end up looking through your contacts trying to find their name and you tried to block them but who were you kidding? when you know their number by heart now it feels like you’re worlds apart and there’s nothing else you can do but to try and let them go
I’m growing out of you you are draining like a flood through the exit door some songs are just songs again some movies are just movies again some scents are just scents again some places are just places again and I sigh of relief because finally I’m me again
it might take years to grow out of someone but have hope and keep going ❤️