It all began in dance class
When I first felt small
Standing in the back of the lines
Where no one could see me at all
Fast forward to middle school
Where the girls who looked like me
Were never the topic of conversation
Like I always dreamt to be
Even when highschool rolled around
It was still never about me
Always some other fair skinned beaut
Who i’d constantly compared to thee
And when I finally did steal a heart
Guess how it began and ended?
Another girl came into the picture
Which whom I had to contend with
My history of love & relationships
Definitely isn’t one for the books
Just painful memories I try to wash away
Because I never had “the look”
That’s the reason I’m always triggered
Because all my life I’ve had to compete
I just want someone to look at me and think
“**** my life is finally complete.”
October 8 2019. 10:26pm. Here we go again **
How could you end things so easily?
Was the love really ever there ? And
Did you ever really care? My heart
Is broken once again. Not once not twice but thrice .. you left me again. You’re
Verbally abuse and I’ve took this for long
Enough. I have to be done I have to get rid of you emotionally mentally and physically.
You just wanted to be done so bad over a
stupid argument .. shows your true colors
Shows me who you really are .. I deserve better than this.
Someone said: it's always easy leaving someone knowing you'll return.
And since then,
I've promised myself that this time, would be the last.
I don't intend on coming back.
I still can't get over those words, they give me chills.
Much love, N.
I went weeks without hearing your name, and without uttering it aloud.
I heard your name today and it felt like a punch to the gut.
Will I always be this way when it comes to you?
I just want to be okay.
maybe one day I'll way the way we walked together
hand in hand,
arm around neck
and my heart will ache
so I'll have to change my ways
do a detour so that I don't see you in that corner,
by that shop,
in that alley.
and I'll have to explain what's changed to whoever walks with me
but for now
I'll smile whenever I walk by that corner,
why should I think about tomorrow when today's been so deliciously sweet to me?
- july 12th, on the train back home
I know it's late.
I'm sorry for keeping you up.
Do you still love me?
I know it's annoying,
that I ask that all the time
I just wanted to make sure...
Somewhere he walks,
with my heart draped over his shoulder on a weightless chain,
He chuckles while a crow ***** above his precious head,
still feeding it the remains of my wide eyes and betraying tongue.
he walks and chuckles
thinking of his prey.
Why am I trying so hard
To make you love me again
When you've clearly had enough?
You hold the beauty of angels
I see darkness in your eyes
Should have known from the moment we met
You are the devil in disguise
Just a jaded poem I wrote during a breakup a long time ago
Darkness and light have become entangled in my mind.
Moments captured are quietly lost, nothing more than shadows that flirted with existence.
They were hope, then became a memory.....soon they will be gone.
My heart is to blame.
Under your brightness, it could not see that the shadows were being cast from one side.
It spoke out of turn.