She looked into the mirror
  But saw nothing but tears
How strange, she thought...
*  That this emptiness feels.

I can't stop smiling
when I think of him
neither can I stop
the fact that I miss him

But though I want to get near
I better stay away
'Cause he's like a candle
and his burn won't go away

So I better not touch
I better not try
He better stay a bittersweet memory
until the end of time...

We played a game,
But I forgot the rules.
Now I'm sitting here in pain
While thinking of you.

I never planned
To break the rules.
It's just that I have a weakness
When it comes to you.

I'm shot through the heart
And I'm the one to blame.
Now my heart is torn apart
And that's the price I pay
For forgetting the rules
Of the game, which we played...

Everything would be easier
If I hated you
'Cause then I wouldn't always have
To defend
You
When they talk about you...

I wouldn't have to make it clear
That I'm just as bad as you
When it comes to creating this mess
Afterall,
I could have rejected you...

Therefore I get ******
When people call me a victim
'Cause I had a choice
So there's no ******* way
That I am a victim...

But if I hated you
Then I would have spared
All the energy
Which I'm using on defending you
And that's a task
Which is really ******* me...

'Cause if I hated you
Then I would only approve
Of the awful things
Which has been said about you...

If I hated you
Then I wouldn't care about
That you're just as troubled
As I have gotten
As a consequense of this mess...

I keep telling people
That you're having a hard time
And that it won't help on it
If we keep speaking ill about the guy
Who only has as much of the responsibility
For this mess
As I...

All around me
These smiling faces
With kindness in their eyes
The guy who teasingly tickles me
When he comes sneaking from behind
The girl who's always ready to listen
When I'm feeling troubled
All these people
Why is it
That they care 'bout my problems?...

Every morning
We say "hello"
And when school's out
It's "see you tomorrow"
When I feel down
They try to make me laugh
If I look lonely
They'll come and hang with me

All these people
All these smiling faces
I wonder
Why do they care about me?
I too
Want to make them laugh
I too
Want  to listen
When they need it...

I want to be able to repay them
All the things
Which they have done for me
I want to tell them
How much their help means to me
I want to show my gratitude
But how to do that?
The question leaves me confused...

Missed a class?
I send them my notes
Need help with exams?
I'll free my schedule
So I can help 'em through
I want to help them succeed
'Cause I know
That they can do it...

If they need a hand
I'll borrow them my arm
If they need a laugh
Then I'll happily play the clown
If they need to speak about something random
Then I'll listen, just carry on
If they can't fall asleep
Then I'll sing them a lullaby
I would do so many things
Just to show my friends
How much it is
That they means to me...

Stay strong
Take 10 deep breaths
And if it doesn't work
Then try with some beer...

Don't run
Even though you wan't to
Don't cry
While he's there...

Stay strong
Take a deep breath
There's only half an hour
Before he'll be here...

Don't run
It won't help after all
Don't cry
Your make-up will smear...

Stay strong
I know he's standing right there
Just look away
Imaginate him just being air...

Don't run
Don't give up now
Face it headstrong
Then cry when you get home...

Stay strong
Just hold everything in
And when you sit in the train
Just let the tears fall...

Stay still
But don't be frozen
When you get home
Cry behind your curtains...

Stay strong
Think happy thoughts
And act happy
Act like you aren't crushed...

Don't run
Face it head on
Smile and hide
That inside you cry...

If you see him
Then look away
Tell yourself
That it was just your mind
Playing again
That he wasn't there
You didn't really see him
It was only air.....

And if you realize
That you actually saw him
Just a moment ago
Then just delte the thought
And let it all go
'Cause it's only if you believe,
That he was actually there...

For your heart's sake
Treat him like air
Even when he talking
Let his voice be the only
Which you can't hear
Let his laughter drown
Act like he's already gone...

Don't let him in
Don't remember
Don't let him hurt you
Don't let him control you too
Let him become a forgotten part
Of your past
Let his memory disappear
Like he was never there...

If you begin a game
Then you better make a plan
After which rules
it is that you play

Don't hope for the Prize
And don't expect to win
Just enjoy the game
And enjoy the company
This way you won't be hurt
When another player wins

So roll the dice
And let the game begin
Take a chance
And wait and see
What the result
Of this game will be...

I'm never able to talk
When other people needs it
But neither do I shut up
When silence is wished

I say what I think,
But never what I feel
Which makes it harder
To let people know when I
Love them

So I leave people unsure
Of what I think about them
Maybe it's just because of the
Haunting memories from my past
Which hurts and reminds me
That my feelings for some people
Are only a bother

So I'll never say
What I really feel...

It's holiday
Now I can heal the wounds
Which you gave me
Not so long ago

I won't have any tears
Hiding behind my eyes
Just because of the reason
That I saw you pass by

I won't have this awful feeling
Of something heavy
Stepping on my chest
Who knows
Maybe I'll finally be able
To get some rest

The fact that I
Don't have to see you
Means that I can start to forget
And reset myself
Back to before we even meet

But don't begin to think
That I hate you
I'm just hurt
And hurt feelings
Are hard to show in a positive way

But the fact that I am
Angry, bitter and sad
Is only a confirmation
Of how much
You actually means
To me
Or else
I wouldn't even care
To waste all this energy
On those feelings...

Fortryder jeg,
At jeg lod dig ind
Nej,
Jeg fortryder ikke,
At det var dig,
Som jeg lod ind.
Men jeg fortryder alt det,
Som vi nu er blevet til...

Jeg fortryder ikke handlingen gjort
Under påvirkning af følelser
Følelser, som jeg ikke kendte til
Før jeg mødte dig
Men jeg fortryder handlinger,
Som jeg har gjort
Fordi du sårede mig...

For lige så meget,
Som jeg holder af dig,
Lige så meget smerter det mig nu
at se dig.
Allerhelst så vil jeg ikke
Være i nærheden af dig.
For dette gør ondt
På mig...

Jeg fortyder ord sagt i vrede,
Hvor jeg mig befandt
I en såret tilstand
Hvor jeg kun kendte til en måde
at afreagerer på...

Jeg fortryder så mange ting,
At skrive om dem
Ville tage en evighed
Men den ene ting,
Som jeg ikke fortryder,
er,
At jeg lod dig ind....

Darkness was in the tunes
Which the little bird sang
Ignorance, broken hearts, despair and pain
Was all stories which the little bird
Tried to explain
But the stories stayed unheard
Because of a hunter and his aim
He shot down the little bird
And in it's heart
The stories were hidden away

She's like a sister
to me
and I love her
a lot

I miss her
when she isn't here
and I really want to give her
a hug

you see this girl
she's special to me
she's funny
she's clumsy
but almost always happy

She's not always lucky
and it might be best
to make a life-insurance
before you hang with her

Still I couldn't be more proud
than to call this girl
My best friend

Stress keeps me in bed
It is as I have said
I'm not getting enough sleep
So I can barly
Stand on my feet
It's too hard
To keep my balance
I easily trip
Over the smallest thing...

I wake up every morning
Feeling very sick
Actually feel like puking
But never do I do it
Since I just skip breakfast...

Stress keeps me in bed
Once in a while
I fall asleep
Getting some of the rest
Which I am missing...

But that nap is only
One hour or two long
then a nightmare
Wakes me up
'Cause nightmares
Are the only thing
Which visits me at night
My ability to dream
I think I've lost...

Stress keeps me in bed
I feel like a caged bird
Whoes wings
Have been broken
But now I'm tired
And I can feel
The next nightmare
Knocking on my door

So I'll stay in bed
Getting some kind of rest
And if I'm lucky then
I'll soon be able to dream
Again...

I don't want you
To cheer me up
I just want a hug...

I want to hear
You nag at me
Telling me how stupid
I have been...

I want you
To be angry
Over my stupidity...

But most of all...
I just want you
To be here with me...

I died
But only for some days
Then I came back to life
And made the choice
To change...

I'll remove everything
Which makes me feel
Like someone is stabbing
My heart...

I'll delete the memories
And the thoughts
Which pulls
Me down...

I won't bother about it
Anymore...
I won't worry about him
Either...

I won't let this heartbreak
Tear me apart
I'll just delete the me
Who was in love
With him...

I will go back
To who I was before
But I'll never be the same
'Cause I've learned so much
That I have changed...

But I won't worry 'bout him
Won't think about him
When I'm in school
I'll go back
To focus on my homework
And the class...

I'll patch my heart together
Lots of fishes in the sea
As my mom says
But pearls are hard to find...

I've gotten stronger
I've learned new things
About friendship
'Cause friends really are there
When you need them...

I found out
That I had a thing for
Machiavelli's politics
And that I'm actually more punk
Than even I
Would believe...

I discovered
So much about myself
These last couple of months
Crying about that
I can not...

So though I might be hurt
I'm still a little grateful
'Cause I have learned so much
From a person
Who I no longer
Know...

Simple plan once sang
"Don't wanna be told
To grow up,
'Cause I'm not gonna change
I just wanna have fun"
I've always lived my life
After these lines...

But even I have to realise
That staying true to those words
Is a harder task than I
Ever would have thought...

Because I don't know
Where life it'll lead me
'Cause some things in life
Will affect me...

So yeah, I might not want
To grow up
But neither am I
Peter Pan
I can't travel to Neverland
I'll age physically...

So one day
I'll grow up,
But that doesn't mean
That the time is now
'Cause I'm still young...

So yeah, I died
But I rebuilt myself
Now I've changed
Due to things
Which I've learned

I died,
But now I've
Returned...

I love you
Even after everything that have happened
The feeling still refuses to die
And it doesn't change
No matter what I have tried...

I tried to hate you,
But it only made me cry.
I tried to speak ill about you,
But it only brought me pain in the end.
I have tried to forget you,
But everything around me
Reminds me of you.
Coffee, I can't drink
'Cause even that will kickstart the memories.
I have lost the will
To go to school
Because of the simple risk
That I might see you...

I wonder if hypnosis can help me
So I can forget
All the memories
That involves you
'Cause no matter what I do
Then I'm still in love with you...

Love doesn't like me
It never have
And it never will...

Love doesn't like me
'Cause it likes
To see me suffer...

Love doesn't like me
It doesn't matter what I do
I always mess it up...

Love doesn't like me
It hurts
And I've had enough...

Love doesn't like me
It has always been like this
You'll find me walking alone...

Love doesn't like me
Neither do I like
Love...

When my world
Turns upside down
Then he's the one
Who can bring me
Back down
To earth...

He's the unchanging element
In my dynamic world
He'll never change
Even as we get old
He'll still
Be the same...

When everything crashes
And the sky is falling down
He's a safe place
To which I can return
To get covered
From the world...

When I cry
He's at loss
And doesn't know
What to do
But him just standing
There beside me
As I cry
Is all the support
Which I need...

When I'm mad
He's all relaxed
Knowing
That it'll soon be over
And that I'll turn back
To smiling person I was
Since no one stays mad forever...

But he's also the person
Whoes presence
Calms me down
So that even when
I'm really ******
He hinders my rage
From breaking out...

And the things
Which I can't
He can do
And the things
That I don't know
He can explain
And vice versa
There's also things
Which I can teach him...

I'm the worst Dark Souls player
While he's the best
That I know
He even offered once
To teach me
How to play
I can already see him break down
As he runs out of patience...

He can make me
Laugh so hard
That I'm trying
To crawl away
From my laptop and the skype-chat
Which he's in
But in my laughter I forget
That I got headphones on...

He's not my lover
He's not any kind of partner
He's a friend
But at the same time
He's also a safe place
And sometimes I feel like home
He's the simple element
Which keeps my feet
On the ground...

First time I saw you
Was in the room C17 of our high school
We had music together
But we didn't speak at all
But I remember noticing
Your red n' black
Flannel shirt
And I thought
He seems like a nice guy
And I wonder what there's hidden

Behind his blue eyes...

First time we really spoke
Was when we were together
Working in a group
For the stomp-project
You were wearing a grey t-shirt
With a sad green dino'
Saying
" All my friends are dead"
I thought to myself
He's a pretty awesome guy
And there's no way that you can't

Love his T-shirt...

Then it would be a long time
Before we actually spoke again
But to my luck
We had a common friend
Who was also a friend
Of your girlfriend
Who my family and I
Also knew

Very well...

So I packed the growing interest in you
More far than far away
And focused on just being a friend
'Cause at least I could be that
And I got to know you more and more
The feelings wasn't there
They were locked far away
'Cause liking you
Would never be
Okay...

You like NIRVANA
And you remind me a little
Of Kurt Cobain
Your best friends name is Julie
And me and her,
Heh...
We didn't like each other
At the beginning
But today
We're best friends
And sometimes I'm even jealous of you
Always being so close to her...

We fast became a trio
We are like the three musketeer
Your are the third girl
In our little group
And I'm still jealous
On you
'Cause your hair is so **** soft
And I just love
To play with it
And luckily for me
You don't have anything against it...

You used to sneak in on me
And Tickle my sides
Making me scream out
In the foyer
Of our school
You really thought that was funny
While I got embarrassed
But again I had to remember
My mission
That no matter what

I mustn't fall for you...

Then time passed
We were at our common friend's b-day
And your girlfriend was there too
She slept in your arms
I thought it was so cute
But I didn't wish
That I was her
Since I liked both her and you...

I loved you
But only as a friend
And I was happy
How things were

'Cause you have taught me so much...

You taught me 'bout music
You made me rediscover
The rock, metal and grunge music
From my childhood
You made me grow into an adult
It was because of you
That my interest for music grew
And you inspired me
To learn how to play guitar myself
We can more or less say
That you are the reason
For half of the person
Which I am today...

It was through you, I discovered
Philosophy
Plato and Socrates
And that had importance
For my choice of subject
The first semestre at the university
So it was my friendship with you

That lead me to him...

But anyway let's not speak about him
'Cause something even worse happened
During the last year of high school
'Cause halfway through it
I discovered
That your girlfriend,
She had broken up with you...

See that's where hell began

Suddenly There was no longer anything
Which kept me
From falling for you
And all the hidden feelings
Began to burst through
My heart and my mind
I suddenly realized
That I had loved you

The whole time...

After becoming aware of
How much you meant to me
I couldn't look you in the eyes
Neither could I speak
Because I felt like I
Had failed as a friend
Was everything I did
Only done because I loved you?

I kept asking myself...

But no,
At the university I discovered
While being away from you
That everything
I got to know through you
Still meant a lot to me
It seems like our friendship
Had always been real
And that we really

Had a lot in common...

And then there's the secret
Which I wanna let you know:
Do you know that it was because of you
That I wear earrings today?
You gave me the peace-pair
Which I always wear when I sleep
They didn't have to be made of silver
'Cause to me they would still be priceless
Because they're a proof
That you've actually listen to me
That you've learned
Some of my likes and dislikes
That was the biggest gift
Which you could ever give me

Price doesn't matter,
but the thought behind it does...

We played WOW and Skyped
And I often found myself
Laughing with tears in my eyes
Because of something that you've said
But when we were alone in the chat
There was only silence
Since I didn't know what to say
I know you hate dumb people
And i'm afraid to make mistakes

When I'm around you...

At new years eve
You offered me
To one day come home to me
And teach me to play dark souls
It would just have been us
You and me alone
But I never took you up on your offer
'Cause being alone with you
Makes me so **** nervous
And then you would also have noticed
That my body temperature rises

When I'm with you...

Now I'm in a state
Where I can't feel anything
I'm not in love with anyone
But I still have a longing after being in your arms
Just like the time
Where you tried to keep me warm
So I hope
That I'll fall in love
With you once again
When you come back home
To Denmark
But I can't force feelings
Neither yours our mine
And I'm pretty sure
It'll take a long time
Before there will be development,
If there will be any
At all,
In our relationship
But I know that if it happens

*Then it'll be worth
Any kind of struggle
Which I'll have to face....

I'm not eating...
Eating anything
And my nights
Have all become sleepless
I don't dream anymore
There's only nightmares
My mind is getting darker
I'm starting to think
That no one cares

I'm on the edge
Slowly falling into depression
I'm torn apart
And I can't be patched
Back together
Use the glue
But it doesn't matter
No matter what you do
'Cause in my mind
I'm already dead

I'm not eating
Maybe it's just stress
Maybe it's depression
Why don't I get any rest
Thoughts are circling in my mind
Crossing distance and time
Keeping me awake
Until the next day
Comes...

I'm just a lost boy
Looking for a place
Which i can call home...

A warm place
Or a pair of arms
Which will hold on to me
Longer than only a night...

A place I can feel safe
When the world becomes too much
For me
To handle on my own...

A shoulder to cry on or a warm hug
When I'm feeling down
I might find it
In the place
Which I can call home...

Lots of arguments will be there too
But without fights
Life would be too
Boring...

And love...
Well if my roommate
Isn't a cat or a girl
That might be there too...

I hate you so much
That you wont believe it.
I hate you so much
That I almost can't take it.
This hate is occupying my whole day
And haunts me in my dreams.

I hate the fact that I
Follows your every move with my eyes.
I hate you so much
That you're on my mind
the whole time.

I call you Idiot,
Because I am frustrated
And doesn't know
How to express this hate.
But still,
I say it with a smile.

I hate
when you look at me like that
Since it's one of my weak-points.
Don't use this weapon against me,
I swear, I can't take it.

I hate when I feel warm inside
And when my cheeks turn red
I hate the fact that I
Can't choke the smile,
Which comes over my face when I
Look into your eyes.

I hate missing you
And I hate that I can't tell you
How much I wish to be by your side,
But if you ever ask me about this,
Then I'll refused ever to have said it.

I hate that I want to text you,
but never do I dare.
But most of all I hate the fact
That I don't hate you
Not the least at all.

Broken dreams
Broken dreams
Everywhere
On this empty street
Or not that empty
After all
A person is walking
All alone

The dim light
The dim light
Form at street lamp
Brightens up the night
The lonely soul's shadow
Is walking beside

Another one
Another one
Another broken dream
Comes to the street
But the lonely heart
Still keeps beating
Through the rain
That's falling

Where to go
Where to go
The lonely mind
It doesn't know
But the body moves
And continues to go
The lonely heart
Seeks for a home

Memories
Memories
Lives freely
On the empty street
Maybe it's not that empty at all
It becomes more lively
Every time
The lonely soul falls

Pain and tears
Pain and tears
Keeps living in the lonely heart
Through the years
Creating a cold dark web
Of fears
That keeps the broken soul
From mending

Medicin and therapy
Medicin and therapy
Can't fix the scars
Created by life
Breathing is hard
But the lonely continues to fight
Hoping for a day
When they'll find a person
That can open their eyes
Make them understand
That they're not alone....

Can you tell me why
It is
That I love him
Even after that
He has
Deeply hurt me
Over and over again
Broken me down
To the core
Left me bleeding
On the floor?...

Why is it
That I just can't forget
All the memories
Which now only are a pain?
Maybe I should just go
**** a random guy
So I can delete
The specific memory
Which I want to forget
The most...

Be happy
At least it was with someone
Whom you love
My mom says
Trying to cheer me up
But I'm not
So sure about that
Anymore...

'Cause she don't know
About all the mess
Which happened
Afterwards
She's not the one
Who becomes sad
When she sees him
Passing by...

So tell me why
This boy still is on my thoughts
Together with all the things
Which have been said and done?
My "Age of Depression"
Have now become real
I'm not really eating
And I feel really sick
But I'm trying to look fine
Hiding...
That on the inside
I cry...

Tell me why
I didn't listen
To my friends' warnings
Telling me to stay far away
From this one guy?
But I couldn't
Even when I
Actually tried...

Tell me why
Everything went
As wrong as it did ?
Why everything is a mess
And why is there
All this stress
In my life
At the moment?...

Why can't I eat
Even though I'm hurting
From starving
Through the most of the day
And then only eat a little
At dinner
With my family
To cover up
That I'm in pain...

Why can't I make myself hate
The person
Who hurt me?
Why can't I honestly
Join
My friends
When they make innocent jokes
About him
Just to cheer me up?...

Tell me why
There isn't a remedy
Which can delete
All the bad things
Which have happened
lately...

Or maybe a time-machine?
Then I could change
My choice
Of going straight to
The university
'Cause then I would
Never had meet him
And there wouldn't be
All these problems...

Tell my why
I don't feel happy
and why my nights
Are sleepless
Tell my why
The only person
Who knows how
To handle me
When I'm feeling like this
Is out traveling
And won't be back
Before June...

Tell me why
My mind
Is humming
A sad tune...

I used to make jokes about
That the guy,
Who I have only known
For a few months
Could be the one
Who I could end up
Loving more
Than the guy,
Who I have known
For almost
Four years...

I never thought
That the joke
Would become
Real...

I love you
Is the most
Terrifying words to say
If you ask me...

I love you
Is three words
Which everyone hope
That someone
One day will say
To them...

I love you
Is a way to tell
Another person
How much we care
About them...

I love you
Is three words
Which I don't think
That I'm ever gonna say
'Cause the first person
Who I honestly
Could have said these words to
He's no longer talking to me...

I love you
Is also
The only words
Which no one
Will ever say
To me
Because I am not
Worth loving...

I love you
I actually once had a dream
Where someone said it to me
In a bar
Right before he kissed me
But that was only a dream
And as we know
They rarely become real...

Saying I love you
Would be a crime
So these three words
I'll hide
In a place
Where they can fade
Together with the feeling
To which they are labeled.

There they'll stay
Until the day
Where we can both
Look back and laugh
Over my confused
Little
paper heart...

My friend
Why are you
On the other side
of the earth?

I miss you
And I miss your hug
I miss being in your arms
'Cause there I feel safe
You make all the bad things
Go away...

The thought of you
Brings back my smile
Which lately have begun to fade
**** happened and I'm a mess
Why did I never have
The courage to confess?

I miss your jokes
And I miss your light blue eyes
Your soft blond hair
And the way
Which you can speak about
NIRVANA all day...

I miss your shy smile
And your black framed glasses
I miss your deep voice
And the feeling
Which I get when I'm with you...

When you come back in June
Remind me that I'll have to tell
How much I really do love you...

You'll be the first one
Who I'll say these words to...