When life get tough,
and times get hard,
there's just one thing to do.
Take a breath, do not stress.
Put your faith in the Lord.
And he will help you.

You are the king who broke my chains.
You are the one who reigns.
You find the lost and make them found.
There is no cost, just trust in him.

TRUST IN JESUS.

Let me focus on you.
Solely on you.
Not because they withered.
But because on top of all,
You're the one that truly matters.
Your somber death were like these unlit sunflowers,
As if they're joining the sun as it sets,
And hand over a silver lining for the next morn to come.

Ah, sunflower and sunset — these two have always been my favorites.
Both can be as bright as the sun that shines through my fingers,
As I cover my face because of dismay,
I know that even in times when I badly want to see and touch them but couldn't,
Nothing has changed.

Just because something did not turn out the way it should be, something has changed maybe,
Doesn't mean they are not what they used to be right?
Everything needs a break, everything has its end.
But for every ending is another opportunity to begin with.
And that can always be a start of something new,
something beyond what can superficially be seen.
So for this time, let me see and shout your name again..
because maybe that's just what I need, to genuinely listen.

I am an empty missile. A lethal weapon with no ammunition.
I ask for a drink—you pour me a glass of gasoline and I guzzle down the whole mug.
You were just trying to stoke the fire, start the flame within my chest.
I do not know the difference between desire and a death wish.
I poured you a cup of trust and you loaded me with bullets.
Ignited the feral beast.
Turned out the lights and told me to shoot straight.

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To survive
We need food, water, and rest.

But to live
We need friendship, love, trust, and hope.

Because with those we are surviving not living.

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In one summer, I've become an alcoholic. I've become a reckless shadow of myself.
In one summer I caused the love of my life to distrust me. I showed him my weaknesses and he refused to forgive.
In one summer, I've proven to myself that I'm not strong enough to live. The once terrifying vision of a starile hospital ward seems welcoming now.
In one summer I've managed to convince myself I have nothing left.

Its so hard to put into words,
All the ways you make me feel.
At times its difficult for me,
to tell which parts of you are real.

What we have means so much to me
and it hurts to never really know,
if im getting all of you,
or just the pieces you choose to show.

Im trying to overcome this doubt,
and regain my trust in you,
but im afraid and I can't forget,
all the hell you put me through.

You swear youve changed this time around,
youre not who you were before,
But ive heard that line and I,
don't want to be hurt anymore.

If you love me like you say,
then show a little respect for me,
All im asking for is the one thing
youve never provided: honesty.

Denied — pushed at the back of my mind:
This love was not meant to be;
Just as I wished it was for you with her.
Once more, like yours,
My love was based on selfish wants.

Oh you of little faith, why do you doubt?
I never thought it was possible to get it
I did not want to risk it, so I went after the safer road
I thought I was being prepared
I thought I was thinking ahead
But no, I have such little faith

I should have never doubted You
I should have never worry
I should have trusted You
But my pride took over the roots of my body
And formed a knot to lash out on You
I was afraid

You make things possible when it is meant to be beyond the bounds
It was closed, but You opened it
Opened for me to get
I drowned in the storm, but You reached me
I am Peter with little faith