you ask me if I talk to god
because he is important to you
and I reply saying I do
but not in the way you think

I speak to god when I’m all alone
crying and screaming and
even though no sound may come out he hears me
he understands what I am saying to him without me having to say a word
because he is always there listening and loving

just like I’ll be for you

Before meeting you I have
Hope for the future
Trust from the people
and love of the unknown

But after you left I have
Taste the emptiness of despair
Doubt the words of the people
And fear of the unknown

The way he looks at me
I melt on the inside
He holds me
Not caring about my flaws
These stretch marks
My ***** hair
Flabby stomach
He grabs it all
And tells me
"You ain't gotta worry, woman"
"I'm not going nowhere"
The sweet soul of him
The toughness in his hands
The gentleness of his heart
He works hard
He comes home
He still treats like the first time
We met
Bright eyes
Pearly white smile
And goofy *** attitude
Makes me feel like a Queen
And he's my King
He's enough
And he tells me I'm worth it

trust me,
i know how it feels like
to carry the world in your heart
to carry your heart on your sleeve
to give your sleeve to a stranger’s arm
just for it to be taken away
trust me,
i have a world shaped heart and the world is my heart

It has been so long since I’ve admired someone from afar
You seem to give me hope for my likeness of black men
From the smooth texture of your complexion
Down to the toughness of your strength
You seem to fill my every thought even when I’m asleep
It has been so long since I’ve met someone like you
You see me, but do you really see me?
Would it be rude if I told you I admire you?
Would you know I am talking to you?
Would you know I like you?
…
It has been so long since I’ve admired someone from afar
You seem to make me happy by just your presence
The things I would tell you
If you gave me a moment
…
Of your time

Why does the water salty
While you are bitter
Yet those lips are tasty
a facade I want to remember.