Everyday, somebody is tempted to commit suicide. These harmful thoughts spring from peer pressure, depression, and anger. I for one, was once tempted. This was because I lost someone very important to me and it has changed me ever since. I have lost… myself. With factors of anger and sadness, my spirit has changed. After looking at myself through the mirror, I have seen that I lost myself and that I am truly not me. The girl in the mirror is the devil . She’s not the girl who writes songs or poetry, plays piano every single day, or talks to herself when she’s stressed. That’s the devil dressed up like me.
When I lost myself, I knew that I could only be reunited with my soul through Heaven or Hell. But I can’t wait, so I choose hell. The quickest route to Hell is by suicide. It’s not that hard… a quick moment of pain and it’s over, right? So I told myself, don’t hesitate. It’s going to be over soon. But actually killing yourself isn’t the hard part. It’s how you're gonna kill yourself.
Two choices: painful or painless. Painful stab with a sharp knife, hit by a car, slowly starving yourself to death… painless pills to swallow,lack of sleep…. suicide has only one goal— to kill the victim. As soon as I was going to swallow those pills, the thought occurred to me. How will my death affect everyone? My family would mourn, my friends would soon forget about me… teachers would be busier and the one I love… how would he feel? I want to know how he would feel if I died. But I won’t know if I’m dead. I want him to love me and I can only find out if I live. I’ll continue living to see he last breath and we’ll both be reunited with my soul in Heaven.
You should learn from this story of attempted suicide. Even if your life isn’t going very well now, wait for it to be reborn in Heaven, where you won’t be punished eternally.