i want to clean
up
     this
            mess
                      and  
            start
        a
new
         page
                   but
                           they
                   say
          art
is
         when
                    you
                             feel
                     the
           most
naked
           most
                     vulnerable
           most
broken
             but  
                     if
                            i
                   pick
           up
my
        my
                shards
                               then
                      i'll
           just
bleed
          with
                    ichor
                               and
                     red
           wine
hues
           that
                     reach
                                  up
                      down
          below
on
        the
                 doorsteps
                                     of
                      death
         just
                  dropping
                                        by
                             to
               say
hello.

The week hasn't even started,
And yet I feel like
My arms have been torn, limb by limb,
And my mind eternally wandering into space.

The only thing keeping me alive
Is the requirements in school,
Loans I have to pay,
And compulsory attendances.

I don't know.
I find it utterly sad
To lose reason and will to live,
But what can I do?

Questo è per te
Questo è per te
Cambieresti?
Cambieresti? La tua mente
Se sapessi
Questo era tutto per te
Stiamo parlando in lingue. Non posso tradurre

You have been hurting since your body took root.
Anguish has taken
tangible form
gatekeeping your healing.

You are worthy of peace
and empathy,
and so much love.

I hope you stay to feel it.
I hope you stay

I wish you had asked me to stay
When I said goodbye and reluctantly walked away ...

I wish you had spoken of what was on your mind
Instead of saying you still didn’t know
I cannot deny you have always been kind
Nor can you that the truth is hard to swallow

Yes it is true that we rushed
But yet ‘we’ had no title...
And queries around us, we hushed
Unsure how to explain our ‘couple’

But I bared my soul and opened my heart
You listened, reasoned and still did not part
I pulled at, pushed away and shook off all doubts
Yet the weeds of your uncertainty had tougher sprouts

I wish the idea of the future could have been put on hold
Maybe then...we could have had a proper chance
Enjoyed the moment and drawn the lines of our future in bold..
But we left it at that..reason taking over my frustrated silence

I wish you had asked me to stay
When I said goodbye and reluctantly walked away ...
Maybe it’s because I wanted to feel wanted
Maybe its because I’m seeing a chance being wasted

But the fact remains you did not
And the burns of this pain are still quite hot
I wish you had asked me to stay
When I said goodbye and reluctantly walked away ...

you wrote me
into your past
it is there
i will stay

i begged you to stay,
but you walked away,
sapphire skies turn ash grey,
now everything’s in disarray.

It’s hard to believe
where life has led us to.
Such a beauty in front of me,
it doesn’t even seem true.
We got so much to say,
but we don’t make a sound,
‘cause we both know where this is heading
and also why it can’t be done.

You have your past
and so do I,
but we can’t seem to put that behind
and the moment to decide is tonight.

You’re so special to me,
one of a kind.
You’re almost perfect,
but too humble to realize.
And I know you’re what I need,
but now it’s not the right time.
It’s not fair for you, not fair for me
and we can’t go further tonight.

We’re not the first ones to feel this way,
I promise the pain will go away.
I’m letting our world cave in,
‘cause baby, I can’t stay.
It’s better not to say everything we want to say.
Let’s not make this harder, it’s better this way.
I can’t let you wait for me in vain,
‘cause baby I can’t stay.