You told me how you wished you were holding me in your arms but behind my back you had let go of my heart and smiled as you let her fall from your brittle hands. You promised to protect her. You promised to hold her for the rest of our lives. And now here she lay face up on this bed staring blankly at the ceiling with tears of second guesses and regrets flowing for anyone to see. She is numb and homeless, strong but trying to keep going. You broke her.
I don’t know who I’m supposed to be Who I am or who they want me to be The answer’s not so easy to see Not well known There's an uncertainty Knee-**** answer is to be wholly free I'll explain in detail Paint a picture clearly A tutor's not needed No need to study No higher degree With candor I’ll speak
Let me tell you about so-called “un-pleasantries" The list is quite lengthy A few; maybe three Gonna rattle them off What's been mentioned to me Not the worst of mistakes but a category May irritate some To others ‘let be’ Saying that’s who I am and as such accept me A minority group not the majority and by far and by few They are lost in between
Some say I’m intense and can be quite chatty Loquacious a talker ‘Verbose’ tendency Don’t deny what is true But not always guilty The day in and day out doesn't constantly stream Not sustained They can change Just like who we will be Not robots Not copies or placed on CD Live a life of routine but not one on repeat Even still I must say there are worse things to be
Empathetic and kind I give generously All I have My last dime Will donate each penny I'm not searching for credit Approval don't seek Like to make others happy Inside, I’m complete When I focus on others No discrepancy I’m not dwelling or thinking of my tendencies Please don't offer your pity or give charity Try to bend; compromise don’t perceive me as weak I'm the chivalrous type Will get down on one knee Not walled off or closed up Bare my soul Give freely But there's more locked inside So when time comes to speak It’s a flood a deluge There's an intensity Give too much Give too quick Try to stop inside keep I can bottle it up but sometimes it still peaks Little may trickle out Suddenly it will seep If an access is given Explodes in a heap When I love I dive in You may think I’m a freak The emotional type Tug heart strings and I’ll weep Not a blubbering fool my emotions run deep A calm hand I can sooth Situation-ally In a crisis I’m strong This unfortunately is something that I know But don’t wish on to speak Life presents me two roads With both closed off to me Feel locked up in a cage while I look to be free
A locked door Here I stand desperately for the key Wanting answers Assistance A new found decree Need a mantra A mission That systemically affecting systems The true stem of what’s me Fundamental My core Sprouting roots from a tree Happiness from the Sun or beneath canopy Not about getting answers Away goes the fee Hamlet asked long ago If 'to be or not be' I know that it's different Just work with me please My point is the question In life, what to seek? A life that’s authentic or society We conform and adapt What they want us to be If like me you're unsure It can drive you crazy Take a chance? And be pure Live a life that's taint free In return you'll endure Side remarks and critiques Is the juice worth the squeeze? Be like them or unique
when will you learn/ money doesn’t buy love/ and sit & notice/ I’m sick and tired of/ this life we live/ I’m now passive/ to all these words/ that I’ve heard/ from here on out/ I will not rout/ goodbye to the girl/ who once was/ hello to the woman/ who now rises above/ july