They won't shed a light on me
they won't understand a part of me
I am all alone,
and I don't mind when I know that
The problem comes when I forget that.
Little joys, crazy voice
Merry ways, glittering sunrise
balcony view, morning dew
few seconds, closing the mind chatter
It is not like I expect much now
I did once, I regretted it then
It shouldn't be that my opinion count
They'll will do what they want.
maybe I just want attention
need some recognition from everyone
I need to be someone special
for them, this quality is essential
I will walk alone journey ahead
I tell that everytime
But then lose my conviction
Repeat my mistakes time to time.
Heart just beats, it doesn't break as they say
Blood is flowing in every way
it is hard to go on
when my mind has turned off.
My feet hurt now more
as I fall down again and again
My tears fall like they always do
They get no support from the rain.
Older the more colder
and more time I spend to cry
there is no reason why
I ain't getting any better, no more
Tired bones and muscles
there are too many extra miles
There is no space for me to stand
I try to adjust, try to carry the weight
But then I sense the futility of it all.
There is no cure when you are a living disease
Contaminating, spreading the unease
I slide back on my seat
Not to have another repeat
Something about all this
is going so very wrong
I feel it inside growing that strong
Something in me is the real problem here
Stupid things I'll do
they come back through
making errors every move
making them disapprove
Spinning in my created reality
this prison will keep me bound
the light doesn't shine in my head
how will I ever be free?