i watch birds fly every day i watch cars drive every day i watch planes soar through the sky every day
i watch people falling through the ground every day a few times a week i see children morph into nightmares a few times a month i see my friends walk through walls every so often i can smell a church burning down somewhere
every once in a while everything goes quiet all the colors around me shift either 4 shades darker or 2 shades lighter lighter i want to be lighter i want to be able to lift off the ground just like the birds
i want to be so light that i can slither through molecules as thin as a paper
i want to walk through walls i want to morph into something scarier than my nightmares i want to remember what it feels like to not be scared of falling through the floor
i want to burn down a church
and then cry and beg for forgiveness at the feet of the lord
i had to, i'm sorry. it was the only way to feel like he's truly gone.
i want to be high on the feeling of screaming at the top of my lungs. but i can't find anything that raises me up enough to feel that. diphenhydramine morphs children into nightmares. dextromethorphan makes people fall through the ground and walk through walls the devil himself makes me remember the smell of a church burning down but i've never seen a church burn down
perhaps it's just my mind manifesting my thoughts into physical sensations
Deeply I felt your reaction like a sting a rip of fire I had to run I had to let the burn heal or it would become a scar Another scar I don't need ! I let you have your space. I learned a lot in the time. I found out who I am to you ! You have not reached out. Ask how I was or if , I planned to pick up my stuff .. Not a word did I get from you. That spoke loud and clear ! You only wanted me around for nothing more then your pleasure ! I am not someone you care or respect as a friend.. Years spent between us comes down to the truth ! Sadly I must accept. Even if I care so deeply love you even more. Sadly I am left hear alone. No friendship just the loss ripping through my soul ! The burn must heal for not to become a scar..
I wish I could burn those years away, And watch the memories disappear between the flames Whispers of that hell go up in smoke, I cover up my ears, lest thoughts provoke
I woke up in the middle of the night and this just spilled out of my head so I wrote it down before I forgot. I have no idea where this came from, and even though I did, it doesn't feel like I wrote it
Pack your things in a box painted blue In a shoe box you found in the back of the closet Your school bag and the purse your sister loved We are leaving behind the memories Leave these cold nights and drive through the woods Find a lake to drown in and throw your family picture in too Get out of the water still breathing Still just barely alive We can kiss under the stars Love in the night as we leave everything we once knew Home doesn't have to be a place And it sure as hell isn't a person But maybe the feeling you give me is Lets thrive on nothing my dear We can be more than just our family Become the stars with me I'd like to burn
i'm back in school again, i wrote this in history class sitting next to quite possibly the most beautiful stranger I've ever seen.