I'm six feet underground, disoriented. did I dig the grave, or was I meant for it? the soil clumps together, stronger than ever as it presses my chest, never to sever. as I claw my way up, branches stab like pins. before long, the deep cuts sear my exposed skin.
my eyes tire, and I rest. but my rest fails the test.
the soil weighs me down further, bringing me where demons murmur. and that is where I now stand, trapped in a layer of land. and since making a move burns, staying gives me what I deserve.
The shower floor is both blistering and icy. The water that has pooled under my thighs is colder than the heat pounding through the flesh of my back, right to my spine.
I like existing between things. I like loving so hard that it hurts, and hating so violently that I burn like the shower-fire.
I do not know how to do things in anything other than extremes. I’m searching for an ending in the middle of a battlefield, ripping red raw welts on my hands.
There’s a reason behind all of this, but if I ever find it out, I am sure that I will die on impact. Like a rocket falling from the Heavens. Like we made Man into God, and were cast down in Challenger fire.
From a portfolio I wrote in third year of university, titled 'Infestation'.
And we frolicked with our arms entangled under the stunning gleam of the moonlight. With the diamond waterfalls as witness, dreamy as the rainbow, cascading solace in our thoughts. We’re out of the gushing downpour. though we still hear and feel the water. Exalting how we climbed the higher and steeper trail with dangerous cliffs in thousands, we continued to hold hands. With even a tiny bit of love but a ton of hope, we eradicated fear and let the light come through. Merging us again into one! Reshaping, transforming, mending, stitching every hidden torn and burn.
my hips Ache they need to be Stretched over and over by a body on me or riding a **** need that Fullness Loosen me up from behind or below Hold me down Pound it out then do it Again and Again erase the Ache replace it with another Burn